Forgive Me

POV Xander Saint

Sometimes when you ask God for something he answers your prayers. Sometimes when he answers the prayer it’s not always what you want for an answer. That is exactly how I felt. I was still trying to put pieces together. Did Bella really leave me? If she had what were the nightmares I had of her sitting on a bed with her hands and legs bound and a gag in her mouth? Or the constant replay of the haunting voice or the nightmare of waking up right before my car flew off the road and jumping out of it as I landed in the ditch? Nate suggested seeing someone who could help with repressed memory. I was against it at first but as the nightmares continued I figured it wouldn’t hurt.

As we pulled up to the building Nate looked at me. “ Do you want me to go with you?” I actually wanted to be alone to process everything. “ No, I will be OK. I’ll call when I am done.” I entered the room and the doctor put me under and I felt relaxed. When I woke up I was surrounded by my father an