Chapter 11: The DinnerVictoria Abbel's Point of ViewNagulat ako nang biglang may kumatok sa pinto. I get all the notes scattered on my bed and hid them under the pillow. I even hid the remaining crumpled paper under my bed by kicking them."Bakit?" Sabi ko agad nang mabuksan ko ang aking pinto."I mean, why?" I said when I saw Carla in front of my door. Nagulat kasi ito dahil sa aking pagtatagalog."I'm going home, now. The dinner is served, eat when you feel it. I also got my salary today, thank you." She said. Tumango lang ako sa kanya at hinintay na siya ay umalis. I just really wanted to decipher the codes right now, na mula sa mga scratched paper ni Trevor. I felt like I'm invading his privacy but I'm Tori Abbel. I am always curious and I always find a way to satisfy my curiosity.Pagkatapos umalis ni Carla ay lumabas na rin ako to have dinner. Pero pababa pa lang ako ng hadgan, I saw Trevor across the room and met his eyes. Hindi pa rin ako nasasanay na dito na nakatira si Tre
Chapter 12: WarmthCurrent DayVictoria Abbel's Point of ViewTumingin ako kay Trevor at tsaka bumalik ang aking tingin kay Nikos na hanggang ngayon ay hindi maalis ang kunot sa kanyang mukha."The Dean guy is dead," Nikos repeated. I stiffened from my place. Everything is coming to me right now. The blood from Trevor's shirt, the weird notes from Trevor's trash bin, Trevor's words by saying he will make me prouder, and Trevor's way of trying to read what's going inside my head.With a bored look, Trevor sipped from his hot coffee and sat down comfortably in the chair.Nang mapansin ko ang dugo sa aking kamay ay agad akong tumakbo sa sink upang hugasan agad ito. Kahit ang suot kong damit ay nagkaroon ng stain ng dugo. After thirty minutes, I heard a car parking in our garage. It was Nikos, who's drunk and wasted. Nakita ko siyang humiga na lang sa sofa at hinayaan. Where did they go last night?"Victoria, say something please. Hindi ako sanay na ganito ka katahimik." Nikos said while
Chapter 13: The ConfrontationVictoria Abbel's Point of ViewI looked at Trevor walking towards the two police officers. Hanggang ngayon ang lakas pa rin ng tibok ng puso ko dahil sa maaring mangyari sa kanya. Everything is just coming back at me. The moment when he asked me to accompany him to the hardware store, the things he bought there, his scratch papers, and about last night when I felt the something sticky on his shirt. And that is blood! It's so weird. And now, the news about Dean's death broke out and everything is just messed up. For God's sake, there are two police officers at our freaking door! At mas lalong hindi ako makapaniwala na parang wala lang na nakatayo ang mabutihin kong pinsan. "No! Trevor is not here!" Bigla na lang lumabas ito sa aking bibig. Kaya naman napatingin si Trevor at Nikos sa akin. Nikos looked me as is he's asking what game I am playing at right as of this moment. But what could I do? Turn Trevor in? No way. I couldn't believe myself. Ilang beses
Chapter 14: The StarTrevor Dmitri's Point of View"That's why you shouldn't let your friend become your coworker." I put my hands on my forehead and didn't even bother to say a word."Oh on the second thought, he's not even a friend but your manager." I was really stupid for hiring someone I know as my manager. I need someone to organize all my stuff and shits. Like handling all our finances, making schedules and many more.My record label becomes so demanding that I have to make music every now and then and travel to the world to promote my music together with my bandmates. Hindi na sumagi sa isip ko na gagawin sa akin 'yon ng manager ko. He fucking stole money from me. His name is Jim and we used to be bandmates way back in middle school.I should have listened to Nikos and not hired someone I'm closed with. But shit really happened. Those who will fuck you from ay ang mga taong kakilala mo pa. Damn."Do you want to press charges?" Tanong sa akin ni Nikos habang pinaglalaruan sa ka
Chapter 15: The Cold EveningVictoria Abbel's Point of ViewThis one-week suspension is surely killing me from the inside. I sighed and rolled my body in the bed.I only heard that Nikos went back in the Philippines yesterday. Hindi man lang siya nagsabi sa akin. But then again, nagkulong lang naman ako sa loob ng kwarto ko ng ilang oras. Besides, his job is done at wala naman na siyang iba pang gagawin dito. I still couldn't believe that Dean is dead for unknown reason. It's just so sudden. And Trevor still giving me the cold shoulders. Nothing is new.His purpose here is still a mystery. What I know about Trevor is that he always has a plan. And this is one of the reasons why I liked him back then. He's decisive and he never acted based on his feelings. It's always about logic. Maybe, that is one of the many reasons why I am attracted to him. Geez, lahat naman siguro ng babae ay na attract sa ganong lalaki at hindi rin ako naiiba. He's a genius. Plus, he's really handsome and gorgeo
Chapter 16: The Cold Night Part IIVictoria Abbel's Point of ViewThey say, that life is worth a shot but I say otherwise. Our life has no intrinsic meaning. And yes, humans are insignificant. Natatawa na lang ako ng pagak sa sarili ko habang iniisip ko ang dating ako. Na walang araw hindi nilulubayan si Trevor. I thought that was my life's purpose – to be with Trevor and make him happy in a way that I know. Pero dahil sa kabaliwan ko sa kanya, instead of pulling him to me, I drove him away. My life... has been getting simple and simple and simple... until it gets to nothing.Hindi ko alam kung bakit bigla na lang itong pumasok sa isip ko habang naglalakad si Trevor palapit sa akin. He's wearing a maroon hoodie and blue jeans. When I looked at his eyes, I know how tired he is. What is tiring him? Lumabas si Trevor na may hawak na beer in can, boring his eyes on me. His lips pull into a half-moon of a smile. Fuck! I don't think he smiled like that at me for the years I've known him. La
Chapter 17: The Melancholic EntriesVictoria Abbel's Point of ViewI focused my attention to my phone that keeps on vibrating. Remind me to kill whoever this is. Medyo panira sa ginagawa namin. Kanina nga lang ako nagkaroon ng lakas na loob halikan si Trevor, and he happened to kissed me back, tapos magagambala pa ng kung sinong Pontio Pilato itong kanina pa nagsisend sa aking ng notification. Sinabunutan ko ang sarili ko at sinimulang buksan ang aking phone."This better be good," I muttered to myself and click my email account.Dear DisneyPrincess,Hello there! I've never heard you for a week. Do you already forget that I still exist in your life? Or have you already found something interesting to do? Anyway, these past few days my life has been going into a roller coaster ride, in case you are wondering. For some reason, I am having random thoughts and I suddenly thought about you. So, I am sending you this e-mail to let you know that I am still alive. I have a lot of things to say
Chapter 18: A Day with HimVictoria Abbel's Point of ViewHaving a one-week suspension was a blessing in disguise! I never thought that I will enjoy my day without going to school! I don't have to prepare for anything. I'm just looking forward to what will happen today.Napalaki ng ngiti ko habang inaayos ang buhok ko. Hindi ako makapag decide kung itataas ko ba ito or hahayaan na lang na nakababa. I am trying to look fine not pretty and presentable in front of Trevor. Now I finally admitted to myself that Trevor has still this effect on me at kay FrozenIceyCold ko pa talaga unang sinabi."What a lovely day," masigla kong sambit habang pinapalitan ng fresh flowers and vase ni Mama. I am inside her room and she still look the same, weak, powerless, and vulnerable. Wondering how a small body can take all of those emotions at once. What a shame! Hanggang ngayon ay hindi pa rin siya lumalabas sa kwarto na ito. Konting panahon na lang ay makakalimutan ko na kung ano ang tunog ng boses niya