Maybe it's because I've never been inside of a bar such as this, with the rustic, dark setting, loud blues music and bar filled with drinks I've never heard of. Forget ordering a dry martini unless you want to look prissy.
On the left across from the drink bar are tables and booths with a few pool tables scattered about. The one next to the jukebox is the most populated, while the last pool table in the room in the back is practically empty. I look at the scene, mostly men with tight jeans and sweat-stained tank tops and women with short-shorts and cheap heels. I notice a sign right by one of the plenty of signs in the establishment: "NO SHOES, NO SHIRT, NO PANTS, NO SERVICE."
I take my shoes out of my purse an
"C'mon, get it together, Leslie!" I tell myself in the bathroom mirror. I can't even count how many times I've told myself to get it together this past week, but frankly after playing a game of pool with Sebastian Harrison's dick on my ass and his breath on my neck, it currently feels appropriate. My face is the color of a tomato, and no amount of cold water can make that go away. Perhaps I'm just a weak human being, unable to handle the touch of a man. If that's the case, then that explains many things. Wow, that's depressing. After splashing my face a few more times, I dry my skin with a paper towel and exit the bathroom. De-spite the fact that I didn't actually go pee, I have to go back to our little area in the back of the bar and pretend as if nothing is wrong. I don't know
** Now please be advised, dear reader, that I am not an advocate for fighting. There have been countless times where I have walked away from an altercation peaceably. The reasoning for that, is not only because I don't like fighting. But because I can't fight to save my life. Wind-milling? That's as close to a fight as I'll go. Still, it's obvious Sebastian is a clear supporter of throwing punches, because he's letting Skinner have it.Bad. Skinner can't even get up and defend himself at first, Sebastian is punching so hard. But eventually Skinner shoves Sebastian off and proceeds to climb on top of him and ring his hands around his neck, Skinner's blood dripping onto Sebastian's shirt.
Have you ever seen the mortified, fearful expression on a child's face when they're about to be disciplined by their parent? That is the exact look I see on Sebastian's face when he sees his father. And it's both strange, odd, and incomprehensible at the same time, seeing it on his face. "What are you doing here?" Sebastian asks once he finally opens the car door and lets himself out. Garret approaches him, ferocity in his blue eyes. It's incredible how identical Garrett and Sebastian look when they're both angry. It's as if Sebastian is frowning in a mirror. "Get in the house, Sebastian," he orders quietly. "I'm not twelve fucking years old anymore—" "NOW!" Garrett shouts.
It's been six hours since I've had contact with Sebastian last.I've slept and showered the remnants of yesterday away down the drain. My skin is red and sore from how hard I've scrubbed the dirt and sweat off of my body. But somehow I still feel unclean.After showering, I step out and wrap a towel around my body. The mirror is a perfect representation of how my brain feels right now: fogged. Cloudy. I defog the mirror with my hand, but in my reflection I don't see anything worth praising.I get dressed in casual attire for the day—flats, a pair of jeans and a sleeveless blouse. I check my phone after applying my makeup and doing my bun. Sarah texted me, telling me to meet her and Lucas in the library."Okay
**I remember when I was nine years old I had walked in on my mother drunk, screaming angrily at the air while she laid on her bedroom floor.She still had that ageless beauty, the "Italian Curse" as my father called it, but her eyes were cold and dark. Her eyes were always cold and dark, but that time, that moment, it was a coldness and darkness that didn't belong to her. It frightened me.I'm brought back to that instance when I look at him—when I look at Sebastian. I see my mother all over again, and my hands shake uncontrollably. My heart beats against my chest with a rapid unrelenting rhythm I can feel through my ears.Suck it up, Leslie,my mind chides.Someone needs your help.
*** SEBASTIAN I wake up from a dreamless sleep. I slowly open my eyes and stare at the ceiling with a blurred layer in front of my vision. The shadows on the wall are of small rain splatters from my window. Is it really fucking raining outside? God dammit. I push my body up, but fall back down again. Fuck—I drank way too much last night, and I can feel it pounding in my head and drying my mouth. After trying to get up a few more times, I finally sit up and feel the blood travel down from my head to the rest of my body, making me feel even shittier. I don't remember much about what happened last night. Either that, or I can't figure
I open my eyes to the soft, delicate sounds of rain hitting the bedroom window. Everything is a blur at first, but once my eyes adjust to the light, I realize I'm in Sebastian's room on his couch.I lay still for a minute and listen to the rain. I stir a bit and realize there's a blanket on me—I don't remember grabbing one when I dozed off, nor do I remember taking off my slippers either.Maybe I did those things while I was sleeping.I sit up and stretch my muscles. Sebastian's bed is empty, and for some reason I'm suddenly worried. Of course there could be a logical reason why he isn't in bed anymore, like he actually went downstairs (which I doubt) or he went into the library (which I also doubt), but with the events of early this morning ripe in my mind, it's hard to th
**I am now sitting on my bed in the guest house, staring at my computer screen with a vacancy in my eyes. It is afternoon, and Loretta is back and making a late lunch in the kitchen. She senses the tense air that still lingers around the main house, but she doesn't ask any questions about it. Either that, or she seems to know more than I do.I haven't even started packing for Seattle yet; everything seems to be happening all at once and so quickly I'm not sure where to begin. So, of course, the best option is to sit and make absolutely no progress in my bed.After Fiona was dissed by Sebastian, she stormed off into the dining room without saying a word, and Elizabeth followed. For a moment, I stood there dumbfounded and wondered, again, if I should tell them the reaso