The feeling of his lips still makes my heart weightless from time to time. But then remembering how he dismissed our kiss so quickly makes that light feeling go away. Why, is all I want to know. Not why he kissed me, but why did he turn away?
The shower I took a couple of hours ago did little to ease my nerves. I got some work done, answered some calls and sat with Sarah in the library (A very happy Sarah, considering she avoided being thrown in the lake) as she herself went through the paperwork and changed my status to Sebastian's publicist officially. It's made
** As if the tension between Sebastian and I wasn't badenough, now we have the fact of more people knowing about us kissing to make it worse. It's currently the next morning. I'm packing my things, as are Lucas, Sarah and Sebastian. We finally leave this afternoon, back to L.A.; back home. I guess I can reflect on what I've learned or what I've accomplished during my stay here, but it would take too long to list. I know now that I do have feelings for Sebastian, and I also know that Garrett has a target set on my head, but he's being really quiet about things, which makes having this said target even worse; I could be shot any moment—metaphorically or literally. When all of my things are packed in their bags, I sit on the edge of the bed. Somehow, I manage to only think about everything I haven't been able to accomplish: Sebastian still didn't get the closure he needed with his family, Sebastian didn't get the publicity he was meant to get
** I would have told you everything that happened at the Harrison Inc. Company party as it happened. I would have told you about the chaos that ensued; the tears and the screams and the shock and the pain, not to mention the embarrassment. But everything happened so fast, I had no time to think straight. The world was spinning, and then it all went black. So now, as I sit underneath my desk in my former office, dwelling in the dark with my canister of wine in my hand as the rest of the party goers enjoy themselves in the conference room below, I will tell you everything that happened, and it is then that you will understand why I'm hiding in my old office as blackness and drunkenness consumes me. Now...where t
** SEBASTIAN This was the last thing I expected to happen tonight. Of course, everything in my life has been unexpected since I've met Leslie—all in a good way, to strengthen my case. But in her own case, it's an unexpected that no one wants to endure. Sarah and I are bystanders, watching Leslie and her mom argue, or more correctly, Leslie's mother yell at her while she tries to break free from her hold. Shit, I should do something, but is it in my jurisdiction to? I feel fucking horrible for not intercepting anything but I don't know if it's my place to. "Your father left because of you!" Leslie's mom screamed at her—Franc
**I take Leslie home in my car. She was quiet the entire way down into the parking garage, and she's still quiet now. I glance at her away from the road—she's playing with the cuffs on my jacket that's still draped around her. "Your car is really nice," she says over the silence. "I've never been in an Aston Martin before." "It isn't anything special." She laughs slightly. Hopefully she took my comment as sarcasm rather than being a rich asshole. I ask her where she lives, and she tells me the address. Of course I don't know where the hell the coordinates are when she tells me, so she points me in all the right directions there until, after twenty minutes, we make it in
I offered to keep Leslie company until she fell asleep. No stings attached, no wandering hands or rotten intentions. "Please?" she replies after my proposition. Keep in mind she still has her arms wrapped around me; her chin is on my chest as she looks up at me. I take off my shoes as she breaks apart from me, wiping her eyes. Out of habit, I almost unbutton my pants. Good thing I don't go there. "Do you mind?" I tell her when I unbutton my shirt and take off my tie. "I have trouble sleeping with more layers than I need to." She shrugs. After tonight, I doubt anything will make her uncomfortable unless I take my pants off. Don't worry—I have an undershirt on. I see it in
** "It's not what it looks like." Are the first words that come out of mouth. Of course Beth and Paul aren't going to believe that. I mean who would—Sebastian Harrison is standing in the closet of my room, holding his shirt and shoe in his hands, and they're supposed to believe that it's "not what it looks like?" "It really isn't," Sebastian adds. "I know it's hard to believe me out of all people but it isn't what it looks like." Sebastian's words are going in one ear and out the other; Beth and Paul just stand gawking at him like he isn't real. I want to tell them to stop—even though I know Sebastian's used to this type of thing—but I'm rendered a bit speechless right now that this is actually happening.
** SEBASTIAN "Bro, look over there." Trevor slaps my shoulder, bringing my attention—and the attention of Franklin and Chris—to a table behind us at the restaurant we're at—The Cabana on Melrose. The four women sitting there gives us smiles that say, "If you let me, I'll gladly blow you in the back." Don't get me wrong—they're hot. All four of them. But my mind is a little preoccupied on other things. "You eyeing the redhead?" Franklin asks me. I didn't even realize the girl was a redhead; that's how much I don't care. "Um...nah, not really. Not my type." My friends stare at me like I have five heads. Trevor downs his drink and narrows his eyes. "Hold up, hold up. Four hot chicks are staring our way—four that youknowyou can score all at once, and you're looking like your dog just died. What's up, man?" "Nothing's up." Lies. "I've just got a lot
**I've never been at such odds with my wardrobe.My clothes gaze back at me, taunting me with the fact that no matter what outfit I pick, one will always be better than the other, and because of this, I will be prompted to start all over again and choose a new selection.It's currently a warm Monday afternoon, and I have two hours to get ready and make it over to Sebastian's house for dinner. Beverly Hills isn't too far of a drive from where I live, but I'm certain that indecisiveness will be the reason for my tardiness, not traffic.Pedro trots into my room with his chew toy between his teeth, only to jump on my bed to devour it."Pedro!" I yell at him. "Down!"