“Natalie!!!! Natalie , please wake up!”
Who is calling me? I know that voice…
“Please, Nat, open your eyes! Open you eyes woman, and help me exist this fucking tornado or dark hole or whatever it is because I am going to vomit!”
Kelly? Kelly is calling me? But it can’t be. I just…holy crap! Adam killed me…why can I still hear Kelly?
“Open your eyes now!” Kelly growled at me and as if her command was mandatory I found myself opening my eyes just to become perplexed.
Where the hell am I?
“It’s a dark hole, I am telling you. We are in another dimension!” Kelly said and I can feel her emotions. She is confused and scared for having no idea what is going on.
Maybe I am in heaven, but heaven can’t be so cold and lonely. If this is heaven I am in big shit. I lived my life doing good things for nothing.
“Can you walk?” Kelly asks. “Can you see if there is a secret door that we should open and escape from here?”
Escape from here? Is she kidding me? This is a fucking void. I have no idea where it starts and where it ends.
I’ve heard stories about heaven and hell. Green forest with white wolves running in freedom or deserts that makes Sahara look like a little child, where the werewolves, most of them rogues and criminals are being fired under the heat until they look more like hyenas than a wolf.
Adam killed me. I know he did and I was expecting to meet my heaven and find my reward the moment I closed my eyes, so what the hell is this?
“Is anyone here?” I yelled but the sound came back to me like an echo. “ here…here…here”
“Great! “ I whisper and turn around, trying to figure out if this is real or I am having some kind of hallucination.
“Pinch yourself!” Kelly commanded me.
“I am dead, it doesn’t matter, Kelly” I say and this situation started to piss me off.
“Just do it!” she says again and I am doing just as she said because otherwise she won’t stop from asking that from me.
“See?” I say pinching my arm. “I feel nothing!”
“Shit! We are really dead!” she whispered in disbelief.
“Yeah, surprise, our mate killed us for good. Now that we clarified that, can you shut up and let me think?” I ask her and she takes a step back, leaving me alone.
“I don’t like it here” she whispered and I just stopped there.
“Then shut up, just for a second, let me think, Kelly”
I stretched my arm and I tried to touch what seemed to be a wall but as soon as I touched it I entered a new space and was surprised. It is another void space. I repeat this again and again until I become tired and right when I thought that I am going crazy a big light appeared out of nowhere and that horrible void that tormented me became lighter and lighter until everything around me became clear.
I am in heaven! I made it!
Everything is splendid and the waters are clear like crystal and the mountains look so perfectly beautiful and those forests I read about it are so green. And here every single wolf is white.
“Do you like it?” suddenly a woman’s voice asks me from behind, making me startle. I thought that I am alone here.
I looked at her and my heart stopped. It can’t be, but she looks just the way I’ve heard. Tall, slim, with white blonde hair long until her waist, braided and decorated with little shining stars. Her skin is so white and pure that you could say that she doesn’t have even a drop of blood in her system, and maybe she doesn’t. Maybe she is dead too…
“Stop blabbering in your own head ,Natalie,” the woman told me and motioned to me to come closer and I just followed her command without blinking.
“You are the Moon Goddess” I say in awareness. I am staying in front of the Moon Goddess, this is how dead I am.
“I am” she says and stops and watches the scenery.
“Is this heaven?” I ask her and she turns her head and asks me.
“Do you like this place?” but her eyes make me confused. They are like two shining turquoise gems and at this moment they are making me look in another direction, because her gaze on me is too powerful.
“I love this place, but why am I here?” I ask her.
“Isn’t it clear?” and she looks again at her white wolves that salute us every time they run close to us. “You are dead”.
“I know that, can I stay here?” I asked her, or better said, begged her but the goddess didn't answer.
“It is so nice here, goddess,” I whisper, inhaling the pure air and feeling calm for the first time since the madness with Lexie and Adam started. Her presence makes me feel safe.
“I want to make a den for myself and live here if you will allow me.”
And I just sit there and wait for her to tell me that she was just waiting for me, but instead the goddess is mute.
“Don’t tell that she will send us to hell?” Kelly says panicked.
“Moon Goddess?” I call her a little bit taken aback. “Can I stay here?”
Is she says no…
“No you can’t!” she simply says and looks at me.
“But I only did good deeds while living on earth!” and I feel that I will die again right now. “Don’t send me to hell!” I almost cry.
“Hell? Who said anything about hell, Natalie?” the Moon Goddess asked me.
“BUt…” What the hell is she talking about?
“Look, Natalie” the Moon Goddess told me and looked into my eyes. “You are so perfectly fitting to this place. Heaven was made for people like you but if I allow you to come here, at this moment, everything I worked for in all these thousands of years will be in vain.
What the hell? Heaven is not with limited seats!
“I don’t understand” I simply say, because I really don’t get the goddess ‘s point.
“I am sending you back, Natalie” she says and I start to laugh, because she must be mocking me. Is this some kind of test?
“Back where?” I ask her as soon as I can breathe again after I stop laughing.
“Back to Earth, silly,” she says with a calm voice. “ I am not doing this easily but I need you there. I need you in that pack , because your presence there will have a significant impact on the pack.
Back to the Red Blood Pack?
“NO WAY!” I growled at the goddess making her frown.
“I am not going back there. I have nothing there, just betrayal and pain in my heart. I don’t want to go back!” I say . No, I am shouting in the goddess’s face, I am not just talking. I am shouting my heart out.
“You better send me to hell than to send me back to my former life”
“Do you think that I'm doing this every day, Natalie? With every wolf that dies? I am making an exception here and I am giving you a chance for reincarnation, a chance to build your life again. “
“No!” I growl back but the goddess face becomes pissed off and snapping from her fingers says.
“Well in this case you don’t give me any option” and the moment she said that two strong arms pulled me from behind and threw me through a darkened tunnel. Everything was spinning around me.
“Help me!” I scream “Take me out of here!” and I would like to add and send me anywhere but not to the Red Blood Pack, but before I could say that I found myself in the middle of my bed, in my and Adam’s room.
Fucking goddess…she send me back. I pinch myself and it hurts like hell. I look again around me and it is my room but it looks decorated like almost three years ago, when me and Adam just got married.
“Please, send me back to heaven” I whispered in my mind, closing my eyes but no one answered, except the door that hit the wall. And now I died again. Is this why she sent me back? To make me relive the most horrible episode of my life?
“Get out of the bed, Natalie!” Adam tells me as he is caring for a woman that looks wounded in his arms, which now I know is Lexie, his fated mate. But you see? First time he did this my heart hurted like and I just kept my mouth closed but now I am not able to react the same way, so I wrap my arms around my chest , I lean on my pillow and I ask him.
“What the hell are you doing, Adam. Take her out of my bedroom! Are you out of your mind to bring this woman in our bed?”
“I can’t” he tells me, and of course I know he can’t do it, because he is a cowardly weak man.
“She is my fated mate, Natalie. I found her.”
“So what?” I ask him. He marked me and it doesn’t matter anymore if she is his mate or not. I am his Luna and he swore that if at some point he will find her he will reject her.
“What do you do with that?” He asks while still holding her and I can see the bitch grabbing his shirt and wiping her tears. Everything is just bad theater and now I am able to see it.
“Throw her away!” I tell him without even breathing. I didn’t get forced to reincarnate just to make the same mistakes and be submitted and weak in front of Adam. The bitch must stay out of my life. I know now what she is looking for.
“Are you nuts, Natalie? I can’t do that to her!” and holding her tight Adam says.
“I want to offer her a place in our pack. This way she will be protected.” but I am not letting him escape with that so I say out loud.
“She is a fucking rogue and an omega. She will not put her feet on our pack!”
And with that I get out of the bed and pointing my finger in his direction, I say just before I exit our bedroom.
“Get rid of her!”
And as soon as I said that Adam’s face rolled on the floor.“What did you say?” he asked with a perplexed voice, as if he couldn't believe his ear that I just said that.Suck it sucker!I didn’t come back, or better said, I was forced to come back to this horrible world just to be killed again. If the goddess forced me to be here, I need to stay alive and to do that I need to keep that bitch as far away from me as possible.“You can’t be serious, Natalie!” he says trying to refrain himself from showing me how pissed off he is about my reaction.“But I am, Adam. I am your Luna and here is my statement.” and squinting my eyes at him I point with my index finger in Lexie’s direction.“If she stays here, I am out and you will need to explain a lot of things to our pack and to your family about that! It’s me or her.” I say as if it is nothing and turn my back to him ignoring Lexie’s presence and making her boil for sure.“Babe, look” Adam whispers and I feel his arms wrapped around my wais
“Natalie!” Adam called me and I could hear him running after me. Just tried to stop me, you fucking jerk! Just try it.I ran outside the packhouse and in one jump in the air I let Kelly take control. This is our first shift after I came back from death's arms. I need this like air. I need to calm down or I am going to kill every single person that hurt me in my past, and by past I mean my former life.“Natalie! Stop it right now!” he shouts but I don’t care.“”Take us to our place, girl!” I tell Kelly and she runs directly into the forest, jumping from cliffs and giving me the ride of her life until Adam’s voice can’t be heard anymore.I can see her white paws hitting the ground in her attempt to exhaust herself to the point where every single cell of our system will be so damned tired that we will just rest and close our eyes, and stay there in peace.I can see her reflection in the water while she stops for a second to lick some water from the river and she is so beautiful that I wa
That’s it! I made my mind. I need to divorce him. Staying in this relationship it’s like deja-vu. Even if he rejected her this time, that is not helping me at all. She is still here, isn’t she? She will push herself over him until he can't live without her anymore.His stupid wolf wants his fated mate.So, yeah, there is no need for me to make the same mistakes again. Old habits die hard... I guess. She will frame again so why not take care of my safety by myself? Why not show them what it means to work against a woman who love with all her heart a fucking traitor husband.Adam will never control me over life or death. I will be in control of my actions!“That’s more like it, girl!” Kelly says and I can almost imagine her waving her tail but soon she asks me a little bit confused.“But how are we going to do that?”Oh, Kelly! What I am going to do with you. You are so pure that you won’t like this.“I will take his Alpha position!” I tell her as if this is nothing.“WHAT?” and I guess
Natalie’s POV.“Thank you, Alpha Brown” I say and almost jump from the happiness I feel right now. He will support me to take the Red Blood Pack from Adam. One more alpha on my side means one step closer to achieving my goal.“Yes, we will talk at the Alpha’s party, of course we will. And thank you one more time” I say and end the call.“How many said that we can count them?” Kelly suddenly asks me and now that she said that I am even more happier.“Thirteen” and I close my eyes and enjoy the moment. “ With Alpha Brown, I have thirteen Alpha wolves on my side. Do you know what that means, Kelly?” I ask and I rub my palms with excitement.“Does that mean that Adam will kill us if he finds out what we are doing?” she asks, laughing, but I know that she doesn’t care about his actions anymore. Is not like he would surprise us if he chose to act against us again. I am already expecting that. I told you. It’s Deja-vu.“That’s too, but it means that he will die of a heart attack when he wil
Natalie’s POV.“Try this!” Judy says and my eyes are ogling at the dress my best friend holds in her hands.“Are you nuts, Judy?” I Ask her and I am sure that I am already blushing just imagining how I would look wearing something so sexy.“She is right, you know?” the designer of the dress shop tells me. “I have known you for some time and every time you chose conservative clothes. Do you know how good looking you are?” the designer asks me and I just look at her.“Is not that” I tell her looking at all the dresses she chose to present me today. Some of them are damned sexy but I can’t show up like this at the Alpha’s Party.“You know that I have responsibilities.” I tell them and continue to search for the perfect dress.“And this dress will stop you from doing your job?” Judy asks and points to a beautiful but damned tight and short draped-effect dress from Versace.“I can’t show up like that, Judy! What will people think about me? I need to prove myself that I am capable as a Lun
Author’s POV.“You should have seen her face” Judy said as she entered with Natalie in her bedroom.“She is just an intriguer, a liar and a dissimulator.” Natalie says.“And a criminal!” Kelly growls in Natalie’s mind, reminding her why she needs to put Lexie in a corner.“We should have made her cry louder “Judy starts again, “I can’t believe that you just watched her while she was trying to take even your dress not only your man” and Judy cursed Lexie in her heart for interfering with Natalie’s life but Natalie just looked relaxed about that.“ Don’t you care about what she tries to do?” Judy asks , looks at Natalie in disbelief. IN her place she would have cut Lexie’s eyes and make her eat them with salt and pepper.“She wants Adam?” Natalie says with calm. “She can have it. Is not about her, here. It is about Adam proving himself as a real mate and he failed with that again and again. Cheating it is a two persons affair. Is not only about Lexie Banks, it is a bout a man who made
Author’s POV..“Nat” Kelly whispers as they are heading to the stairs. “Don’t be sad”“Sad?” She was a little bit taken aback but in the next second she realized that her spirit was tormented.” I am not sad” she whispered, trying to deny the reality.“You are my human, Nat. I know you.” Kelly said. “And even if I am with you in this madness, and I know that you are right , also I want you to know that it is alright to be sad. To feel betrayed.”“It is only about our revenge” Natalie denied again, but Kelly laughed sadly.“It is more than that and you know it. I am sad, you know?” Kelly tells Natalie, making her stop in her tracks for a second.“He doesn’t deserve our sadness, Kelly. Adam is a jerk.” and she continued to head to the stairs, looking like a Victoria’s Secret model. Her long strawberry blond hair is arranged in an easy long boho style. Elegantly messy, with a crown of two chunky braids.Her smokey makeup gives her a mysterious appearance and the dress is the cherry on th
“Redhead?” Evan asks and turning his head he starts to search for Alexander because he was the one who was mindlinking him. And when he found him on a balcony upstairs the venue, man, his heart stopped as Alexander was looking intently at the attraction of the evening. At the woman Evan was attracted to the core of his heart.“The one you were dancing earlier” Alex says and knowing exactly who Alex was asking about, Evan’s mind went blank.Is Alexander Stepanek interested in Natalie? He didn’t even want to talk with her a few days earlier and now he is stalking her and Evan could see in his eyes the need to have her. ALexander wants Natalie?Why ? And how the hell something like this is possible, because all his life Alexander looked for the girl who saved his life when he was ten. The only woman in his mind and in his heart was that little girl with blue eyes and strawberry blonde..hair…shit! A redhead!“Is Natalie the woman Alex is looking for?” he asked himself and as soon this tro