37

CALIFF

Shadow sensed my anxiety.

“Will you calm down?” she said to the link.

“Why are we really here, baby?”

She ignored me. Instead, she asked my dad. “How are you feeling?”

“I haven’t apologized, and I know it won’t make up for it. What I did was horrible. All those innocent people, I haven’t forgiven myself either. I was consumed by ego and greed, and when the opportunity struck, I took it.”

“It’s already been thirteen years. It is still fresh in my memory. Sometimes, I still have nightmares, but I have to learn to let go. I could have killed you last night, but I thought of your son. I can’t hurt Califf. I can’t kill his father, who raised him, and I can’t look at Elder Eleanor in the eye, and it would kill me to see Califf mourning for you because of what I did. Yeah, it won’t bring back my parents and those lives in that pack, but I can’t live in the past. I have to move on and start a life with your son.”

I gripped her knee and kissed her head as my way of saying I was g