She hadn't said anything about her mom and what she saw as a little girl since I mentioned the killer's name, and I wasn't about to push her. The memory of her earlier breakdown was still fresh in my mind. I knew we were gonna have to deal with it at some point, but we'll go at her pace. If she takes too long I'll just drag it out of her. I was worried for her and my unborn son or daughter. Worried about what all this stress would do to her. Maybe I shouldn't have told her that I'd found him. Shit, that's dick thinking. She needed this. And as much as I want to keep her away from this shit this one can't be helped. I'll just have to be extra careful and make sure she and the kid stays safe. Nothing can happen to them. If there is one thing I'm sure would pull me back in after coming this far, it would be if something were to happen to her or the baby. The thought broke me out in a cold sweat. Nothing's going to happen, I won't let it. I kissed her nose just to hear her g
I don't recall the last time we were all here together like this except for family Sundays, which hadn't happened in a while. Shit has been going haywire just lately, what with Mouth leaving bodies all over the city for me to clean up. But maybe this was good for her. She seemed more relaxed with ma and the girls and her laughter helped ease the knot in my gut. Just then the back door opened and trouble walked in. Like I need this shit now too on top of everything else. I took a deep breath and prayed for peace. Coulda saved my damn breath."Hey Jimmy limp-limp how's it sitting?" Shit, her and my kid brother, were still dancing around each other and the ass was sulking. He looked at her like he wanted to strangle her but one look at my face had him back pedalling quick. "Need a cushion for that hole in your...?""Mouth!" I gave her a warning glare, which she ignored. I had to pull her down onto my lap to keep the two of them from going at each other. The fact that his a
In the end, I was happy I'd let ma talk me into staying. It turned out to be just what Mouth needed. She was relaxed and happy throwing around barbs and making everybody nuts with her mobster trivia bullshit. Only her dad, uncle and Poppy knew what or whom the hell she was talking about when she kept throwing out names of known mob heads some of them long dead. Thank fuck ma didn't have a clue. By the time everyone left, I was ready to shoot myself in the fucking head. Poppy had set up the meet for the next day for which I was grateful even though I wasn't looking forward to that shit. But at least this way I could get it over and done with. "Time for bed you, you've been going all day." I hustled her ass into the shower. Maybe I can steal a fuck in there since my house seems to be constantly full of unwanted guests. She wasn't giving me any shit so I knew she had to be tired. In the bathroom I made sure the water was perfect before stripping her and taking her in with me
I know mob boy is watching me like he expects me to flake out on him again. I don't remember what happened before I woke up with a headache and him wrapped around me like a shield, but I remember my mother. At least it's keeping him off my ass about the other thing. I snuggled in closer to his warmth and fought back the nausea at the memories going through my head. The blood, the horror, the screams... 'Mommy'. My heart hurt and my breath caught in my lungs as I tried to stifle the tears and moans of remembered pain. I never let myself think about that night, it's too hard. In fact I haven't thought of it in years. It's as if I'd had to put it out of my head to move on. I thought of the child in my womb and felt a different kind of fear. What if I mess this up? I got a sudden chill and fought hard not to wake him with the sudden shakes. What the hell am I doing? I didn't come here for this. Didn't know that I'd meet someone who could turn my life upside down with just one
I watched over her until I was sure she was asleep before giving into peaceful rest. I knew that shit wasn't gonna last. She woke up this morning with the devil in her ass. "Listen you, I don't want you anywhere near those fucks. I'm gonna be in and out. You'll stay here until I get back and for the love of fuck, don't off anyone in the meantime." Pain in the ass! Since I turned bitch I tell her every damn thing but that shit only leads to trouble for me. "I don't take orders from you Fredo." That's what she thinks. I made the monumental mistake of telling her I had a meet with the other heads this morning and her ass got it into her demented head that she was coming with. "Mouth, do you want me to lock your ass in a room again?" "Yeah how'd that work out for you last time big shot?" I'ma pop her, right across that damn mouth of hers. Since I knew that wasn't gonna happen I changed tack. "Baby, you're pregnant. I know unless I'm balls- deep in you you like
We pulled up to the place and I released a breath. "I hope this is the last one. I'm tired of looking at these fucks." I climbed out the backseat and put my shades on, scanning the area for any undesirables. Fucking mob got more leaks than a damn waterfall. I walked into the building flanked by the only two men I trusted implicitly. I knew they weren't sure about this move we were making, but they trusted me enough to know what I was doing for all of us. My sisters needed to grow old with their husbands. If we kept going the way we were we'd all be dead in ten years. This next generation of fuckwits didn't have any heart, and loyalty was just a word in the dictionary. I give them a lotta shit, but my brothers in law are solid. That's when they're not being my sisters in law that is. No one looking at them now would see anything soft and playful. Everyone knew these two would shoot their way out of an ambush to protect me and heaven help anyone involved because their famil
I sat back in my chair as if giving it some thought but I really wasn't interested. A year ago I would've been more sympathetic, but even then it wasn't my problem. The thing is, if they fucked up, their shit might splash back on me and I didn't want that. It's the only reason I was even here entertaining their bullshit. "If you're all agreed then you're gonna have to get all the way out in your individual territories. It's not easy but it can be done. To do this you're gonna have to get rid of all these new factions that keep cropping up. I've already cleaned up my backyard, you'll have to do the same." I knew they weren't ready for that shit. As soon as the Feds eased up on their shit they'd be back to their fuckery. I let them throw around ideas, putting in my two cents where it was needed, but with the knowledge that it was an exercise in futility. I knew every man in the room, knew more than they knew I knew. Poppy had made sure I learned all their weaknesses and the
She was full of excitement when she came home a few hours later. "How did it go?" "How did what go?" I held an arm out for her and she plopped her ass down on my lap. "Your little play date. Did everyone play nice?" Anyone listening to her wouldn't have a clue what was going through her mind, I did. Although her words were light and playful, there was tenseness in her body that belied them. "Yes, we're fine. How about you? How was your little powwow with the others?" She started filling me in on wedding shit until my ears started to bleed. I decided to distract her when she started talking about all the ways I could contribute. I stood up and sat her back in the large overstuffed leather chair and went to the door to lock it. I could hear the guys in the game room a good distance away. I need that; I have a feeling little Arianna's going to be screaming real soon. She gave me a crooked eyed look as I tugged at the buttons of my shirt on my way back to her. I droppe