Chapter 18The proposalSerkanIt was impossible to be more direct. I wanted to get to know Giulia on a deeper level. Maybe she was everything I needed to calm my life down, maybe not. But I needed to get to know her better. She was beautiful and hot. But a relationship isn't just about beauty and sex. At the end of the day, after work, we want to come home and know that we can have an intelligent conversation with our spouse, that there won't be fights about everything, that she won't be an angry, jealous madwoman. I was terrified of women like that. After lunch, I took her home with her suitcase. As soon as we got inside, she went straight to her room and I called her."Giulia, do you want to watch a movie with me to unwind from the day?"She stopped in the doorway and looked at me. It took her a while to answer, she must have been processing that invitation and what it meant."Of course."The kiss must have touched her. I wasn't good at this romance stuff and I didn't know how to
Chapter 19Dilemmas Giulia It wasn't enough that he was Turkish and a cat.He had to give me that wonderful kiss, on the sofa in his house, watching a Turkish soap opera, and ask me to marry him in front of the Maiden's Tower. I really wanted him to be my first, but the anxiety and fear were too great. I was far from my loyal friends who could give me vital advice when it came to sex. I didn't even stop crying after we kissed in front of the Tower. What were you doing with your life, Ju? Trusting a real man or a soap opera dream? It didn't matter because I had to pay to see it. I had to bet, it wasn't just a question of "if" I should, but "how much" I was willing to bet. It was going to be hard to stay in that house, alone with him, in his country, and not want to have sex with him. I needed to talk to someone, I needed to vent to someone. We went back to the sofa and lay down. I could feel Serkan stroking my hair while I listened to his heart beating in his chest with his head res
Chapter 20Forbidden desireSerkanWhen I woke up that morning with Giulia in my arms, I didn't want to disturb her by waking her up. I just got up and went into the kitchen to try to make something for breakfast. I was terrible in the kitchen and always asked for something. I looked at the clock and she would wake up soon, I had to hurry if I wanted to take her to the Grand Bazaar. I finally decided on Turkish tea and omelettes for breakfast.I had ten more days with Giuliana in Turkey. I didn't want to waste those days just thinking about how to get her into bed. I'd already asked her to marry me and that was something very rare for me, I didn't want to rush things, but I didn't want it to take a lifetime. I wanted to get to know her body, it would be good to stop imagining and just enjoy it.I felt his arms around my waist and his head resting on my back as he fried the eggs." Gunaydin”I turned to her and hugged her, giving her a quick kiss on the mouth. Giuli held my face betwee
Chapter 21 Prima noctaGiuliaSerkan had given me a pair of gold and aquamarine earrings. This was much more than I could have expected from him. Not even in my wildest dreams of Turkey could I have imagined that he would give himself to me, let alone so quickly. I could get spoiled like that, but I wasn't Amanda or Gisele. I wasn't a patrician who was enchanted by expensive gifts. All I wanted was him, from day one. That wild, overbearing, slightly rude way had driven me crazy, I couldn't stop thinking about him. We were cat and mouse at first and that left me without any hope, but there Serkan was being himself. Especially after finishing his engagement with Asli.He took his time in the shower, I didn't. I put on something comfortable. I wanted to lose my virginity to him and there was nothing better than sparking his imagination. I avoided a bra, I wanted him to see my nipples through the strappy shirt. Over the shirt, I put on a light jacket that was just as white as the t"shi
Chapter 22Pain of loveSerkanAfter an afternoon of love and sex, we were woken up to the reality of my mother's misdeeds. It was obvious that she had contacted the Albaf family, the owners of my Manhattan office, asking for favors. The most sordid favor was Giulia's resignation at her whim. For revenge. For Asli, who didn't care much about the end of my engagement, since she was dating. But getting Asli to admit it to her family would be like milking a stone. She wouldn't do it for me, after all, I was being passed over for a non-Muslim foreigner. Even if she was in love, I doubted she didn't feel angry.Giulia sat on the bed, naked, and began to cry with her hands on her face."I'll fix this, I promised to take care of you, didn't I?”" I know, but I needed the job, I'd been out of work for many months. Serkan, it's not easy to get a job in my country.”" Giulia, not here either. We're going back to US, but my mother will hear from me what she's never heard before!”I got out of be
Chapter 23The Maiden of the TowerGiuliaI looked out of the small window of the plane to US.Desperate fear made me run to the Consulate and ask for protection. Still at the consulate, I called home and asked for a ticket home. My father was upset, angry and sad. I had made him feel that way. A return ticket cost him eight thousand reais. I had no way of repaying my father, now unemployed. I leaned my head against the airplane window, crying my eyes out. The last thing I wanted in the world was to change Serkan's life. By disappearing from his life, I wouldn't be a match for his mother and he would be able to meet a girl of his social level. On my cell phone there were only Turkish love songs and that made me suffer twice as much. Emre Kaya, Ilyas Yalcintas, Ufuk Beydemir... they were all soundtracks to my suffering. Tears fell as He Layik played on my headphones. How did I end up in that situation? How did I end up in a Turkish soap opera? That was a pain I wanted to feel so much,
Chapter 24ShortcutsSerkanGiulia arrived at the agreed time, at five in the afternoon.I greeted her at the apartment door and watched her run into my arms, welcoming her with all my love. The smell of her hair intoxicated my thoughts, her arms around me were the best place in the world. No demands, no obstacles, no prohibitions and no impositions. I was the man I could finally be. I kissed her with desire, holding the back of her neck tightly as if she might escape once again."Why did you do that?" I looked at her, holding her face. "Do you know how much I looked for you? I went to the airport, to every counter, to the consulate. Giulia, why did you do this to me?”"Baby, I didn't see any way out, I just remembered what your mother did to me and to you. I didn't want to get in your way.”I pulled her by the hand into the house and slammed the door. After that, I didn't want to hear any more words, just the sounds of her kisses all over my body. I quickly took off my shirt and led
Chapter 25 ObligationsGiuliaWhen I got home, my parents sensed something different about me. I didn't seem to have just gone to Jaqueline's friend's house. Parents can sense when we're doing something that goes against their orders. My father called me into the living room."Giulia, did you go to see that Turk?"No, Dad, why are you asking?I looked at Jaqueline and her eyes widened."I think you'd better never see him again." I know, Dad, I know.I left and went to my room, distraught. I wondered if they knew what I was doing with that Turk! I imagined if they knew that I had lost my virginity to him and that we had had unprotected sex. I couldn't get pregnant, but it was my mistake. Serkan drove me crazy, he made me aimless, I couldn't think when that Turk was near me! Let alone think while sitting on his cock! I could smell him on me and maybe my parents smelled something different on me, the smell of lies. Jaqueline came into my room."And how was it there?"We fucked like cr