Chapter 36Mistress"The baby is strong. I think the spotting resulted from constant stress. May mga iniisip ka ba lately na hindi maganda ang epekto sa 'yo?" the doctor asked.I bit my lower lip nervously. "Uhm... Just a bit, doc. Bakit po? Magiging delikado po ba kapag... dinugo po 'ko ulit?"She fixed her surgical mask. "Well, I can only guarantee na malakas ang kapit ng bata. Pero kahit gano'n, you should take care of the baby and yourself as well. Hangga't maaari, umiwas ka sa mga bagay na nagbibigay sa 'yo ng stress. Don't exhaust yourself too much."Marahan akong tumango. "Naiintindihan ko po.""You told me this is your first check-up. I'll recommend you to our best OB so she can give you a full check-up. I hope I wouldn't see you here in the emergency again."I know she's smiling behind her face mask. Hindi ko man alam kung bakit may suot siya na ganoon, pero siguro protocol lang. It's weird, though. Pakiramdam ko, matagal ko na siyang kilala. Her eyes somehow reminded me of
Chapter 37Unshaken "He told us to inject this into her before she wakes up, and we did. I think she's in better shape now." I heard an unfamiliar voice."Good... fuck," the other familiar voice breathed harshly. "This shouldn't have happened. We've been avoiding this. This is utter shit."Marahan akong nagmulat dahil sa naririnig. Nanunuyo ang lalamunan ko at ramdam ko ang panghihina kahit pa nakahiga naman. I let out a deep exhale and looked around my surroundings."Curses aren't even enough to describe our situation. Now we had to back our asses out because we cannot fight back. Damn the system.""We should've fought back a long time ago. This isn't on the plan. I almost met my end. Tres, we're fucked up..."Ivan's problematicness became a cue for me to rise up. Ang pangalawang boses, sa kaniya iyon. I'm sure of that. But who's the owner of the other voice?They're talking outside the room. Umisang libot pa ako ng tingin sa kinalalagyan pero hindi ko talaga mahanap ang pamilyaridad
Chapter 38FortuneTruly, there will always be one pivotal moment in our lives that will change our lives entirely.I took another spoonful of the food Ivan prepared for me. Hindi pa ako nakakalabas sa kuwartong kinalalagyan ko simula pa kahapon. Even to go see Ice, I couldn't do. Paano ko siya mahaharap kung ganitong bantay-sarado ako ng ama niya at hindi ako makabuo ng maayos na desisyon.Also, Ivan's guards were yet again, allover the place and I would immediately feel like shaking and have goosebumps seeing them. After my past encounters with people their calibre, it's difficult to just face them again. Hindi ko rin makukuhang isugal ang buhay ko at ng anak ko dahil ano na lang ang mangyayari sa akin kung pati siya, mawawala?Oftentimes, Ivan would be with me and would tell me sweet nothings that I didn't bother paying attention to. Masi-stress lang ako lalo pa kapag naiisip kong nagsisinungaling lang siya at mas lalo akong pinahihirapan. I was still reminded that I'm pregnant so I
Chapter 39CurtainsLarisse calling...I stared at Ivan's phone. Kanina pa iyon nagba-vibrate sa ibabaw ng side table kaya hindi ko matuloy-tuloy ang pagtulog ko. He's in a deep sleep beside me.Unti-unti kong inalsa ang sarili. I gave him a quick glance before towering over him so that I can pick his phone up. Nakasandal iyon sa lampshade kaya madali ko na lang nakuha. I held it tight when I saw her name clearer.Hindi ko na kailangang kuwestiyonin ang pagtawag ng babaeng ito. Of course, she's Ivan's girlfriend. Kung paano niya akong naibigay sa lalaking ito, hindi ko na rin gustong malaman. Malamang, parte ito ng palabas nila para matupad ang maiitim nilang balak.I tapped the phone ungently. Dinikit ko ang speaker sa tainga ko at pinakinggan ang mga sinasabi ni Lara."Babe, Ivan..." her voice was surprisingly problematic. "Kausapin mo naman ako. P-Parang awa mo na..."Sa palagay ko, hindi na niya naituloy ang iba pang sasabihin dahil sa pag-iyak. I bit my lower lip. Bakit kaya siya
Chapter 40 How Clueless about everything that happened next, I didn't realize how long I had been sitting behind the curtains. Yapos-yapos ko ang mga tuhod ko. Instead of being clouded with so many thoughts, my mind had nothing to think about. It's like I forcefully pushed my thoughts away so they wouldn't blow me away. "Where is she?!" ang nagmamadaling boses ni Ivan. "Who among them?" malamig na tanong ni Xyleus. "My wife, Santiago!" "Damn it, Ivan. Ang sinabi mo walang madadamay sa kanila!" I recognized it's Creed's voice. Marahan akong pumikit. I badly want to cover my ears but I'm exteremely weak to do so. I didn't know it's too much draining to just have listened to something. Parang hinihigop ang lahat ng enerhiya ko... "We are totally fucked up now. They tricked us." The curtains opened harshly. Napamulat ako nang wala sa oras. Ivan showed up. Fear blazed through me. What the hell is his involvement with this and what the hell just happened? "Rigella," may hingal ni
Chapter 41Emotional"Something happened?!" nalalamon na ng pagkabingi ko ang boses na iyon. "Help me!" hindi ko na narinig ang sunod na sinabi ni Ivan. Until I blacked out. Out of too much stress, I bled. Halos hindi ko iyon maramdaman. Tears fell from my eyes while I listened to my diagnosis. "This wouldn't be easy for you. Just try to switch it off. Your thoughts might kill the baby in the process if you don't control them," Creed informed in the middle of reading his chart. They put me on a single bed. Everything was dark except for this particular space. Hindi ko alam kung saan ito. Mayroon lang akong nakikitang ultrasound monitor sa harap ko at ilan pang equipment. I can clearly see the bean-like structure in my womb. Pinahid ko ang aking luha. This is the first time I've been checked inside at sa ganito pang pagkakataon. This will surely be memorable. I might not want to entertain memories of Ivan, but I know this will still be a keepsake. The first time that I saw the im
Chapter 42AnguishNanatili ako sa kuwartong iyon nang sumunod na araw. I also didn't expect they will let me go so it's no surprise for me. Iyon nga lang, nami-miss ko na ang anak ko. Nagawa na nilang ipakita sa akin si Ice ng isang beses at hindi ko alam kung bakit hindi nila iyon magawa ngayon.I sighed when Ivan placed a tray of food in front of me. Yakap ko ang aking mga tuhod. His scrutinizing gaze made me a bit uncomfortable. I cleared my throat.Tahimik kong ginalaw ang pagkain. He sat down on the edge of the bed. I didn't give him my attention even if I got a little curious about his consistent phone calls. Bawat minuto yata ay may sinasagot siyang tawag."You received the location?" he answered another call.Saglit akong napatigil sa pagsubo. From an empty spot, his eyes moved to me. I crouched my head. Tinuloy ko ang pagkain kahit na hindi ko malasahan nang mabuti ang nakahain at halos mahirapan ako sa pagnguya."We're good. He's already on the way. You can switch places, i
Chapter 43ExplosionNagbaba ako ng tingin. Lumabo ang aking mata. No, I can't cry. Ito na ang pagkakataon ko para mapapayag siya. Hindi ko man iyon sinadya pero tama lang siguro."Rigella," he called weakly. Hinawakan niya ang aking baba dahilan ng pagkatuklas ko sa kaniyang umaagos na luha. "You're tired of loving me already?"Hindi ako makasagot noong una. Alam ko naman ang sagot pero ayaw ko munang magsalita. Matapang ko siyang tiningan."H-Hindi na kita matatanggap kahit kailan. Masama kang tao..." nanginig ang aking bosesHe bit his lower lip. Tumango-tango siya. Mas lalong kumulimlim ang kaniyang porma."You don't deserve us, Ivan. You couldn't tell the truth from the start. Magtiis kang mawala kaming lahat sa 'yo dahil ginusto mo namang mag-isa, hindi ba?"Tinatagan ko ang aking hitsura. Pinisil niya ang aking kamay."Learn to give me up, like how you'd always wanted to get rid of me. Dahil ako? Tapos na tapos na akong maging asawa mo. Makita lang kita, mas pipiliin ko pang ma