*Logan*
Normally I am not really a morning person, but honestly I woke up after some weird ass dreams about Hadley that I can’t really shake and Luna was whimpering to get out, so now I am finding myself on my back porch letting her out on the grass shortly before 7 am as the sky is growing red in the east.
“Go on out girl”. I slide open the porch door, shivering slightly from the cold wind ... but well cooling down a bit is what I need, some of those dreams were ... lets just say pretty R-rated.
Luna runs out on the grass, but turns to look at me, making a whimpering sound, making me shake my head. “No girl, daddy is staying here ... run along and do your thing”.
She makes a sound and I swear she is calling me a wanker making me chuckle. I look towards the tents, she is in there, right there, in her bed wearing ... stop Logan ... fuck why am I so attracted to her ? I mean she is pretty ... beautiful even and those legs ... stop it ... what I mean is that I meet a lot of stunning women, what makes her special ? Besides her being way too young for me to think about like that ... am I like having a midlife crisis or something ? Ahh I am not that old.
I try to force myself not to think that word … mate … my mate. But I do not want a mate, definitely not a teenager.
We spent last night ... all of us of course ... talking and listening to music, and I had realised that Hadley is not only a sweet girl, but also smart and very mature for her age.
I sigh and am about to call for Luna to come in, as it is getting kinda cold standing here, but then my dog runs over to the swinging couch that is hanging from the three in the corner of the back yard and I realise someone is sitting there.
“Hadley ?” Of course it’s Hadley, wrapped up in a duvet, her eyes red like she has been crying. “Are you okay darling ?”
She looks up, her hand scratching Luna behind the ear, making her tongue loll out the side of her mouth. She shakes her head slightly. “Couldn’t sleep ... so I came out here, it’s nice ... quiet”.
“It is ... I love it here”. I sit down on the other end of the couch. “It helps me keep centered and calm but ... what are you stressed out about ?”
She sighs, pulling her knees tighter to her chest as Luna runs off to explore. She looks so small and fragile. “It’s just ... I just came off a tour, and now I have to go somewhere busy and stress filled to do a music video that's not ... what I really want to do.. after that I am back in the studio”.
“Sounds like you need some down time ... a holiday”. I reach out to rub her shoulder. I feel for her and at her age it must be even worse. “Is there any way to take a break ?”
She shakes her head and I can see she is fighting tears. “No ... Ryan, Well he makes all the decisions and I have to fulfill my contract”.
“Aww sweetie ... I feel you, believe me”. I feel this deep need to protect her ... to care for her and make her better, she looks so distraught and my wolf is pacing in my head, our mate can’t be allowed to be hurt.
*Hadley*
I look at the sun rising, I am not lying I couldn’t sleep ... but most of all I couldn’t stand Ryan’s arm around me. “Thanks, it really is beautiful here ... even the sunrise looks special ... I wish I could just stay”.
“It is spectacular, gets me every time”. He gives me a small smile. “So you are doing a music video ? What kind ?”
“Same as always ... some swanky place and me pretending to be some innocent … blow up doll”. Something hits me. “We should make it here, out in nature instead”.
He looks thoughtful for a moment. “Well then do it. You are welcome to stay and shoot the video, no charge of course .... as long as you get the crew and pay and feed them ... you can borrow the tents and land for free”.
“Really ... wow ... Thank you”. I feel the idea bloom inside my head, it would also let me stay here ... close to Logan and honestly I am not ready to leave. “I just need Ryan to say yes”.
“Oh just use that charm, send him a pretty smile and those puppy eyes ... Who can say no to that ?” He gives me a small smile.
We sit for a moment, just watching the sunrise, then I notice him rubbing his arm like he is cold. “Are you cold Logan ?”
“Oh a bit honestly. Maybe I should get inside”. He looks about to get up.
“Or we can share this”. I hold out my duvet, taking a chance. I mean I know he thinks he is too old for me, but I have never met a man like him ... just imagine how much better my life would be as his instead of being Ryan’s toy. “It’s nice and toasty here”.
He bites his lip, looking uncertain, him being such a gentleman only makes me want him more to be honest. “Uhm maybe it’s not a good idea Hadley”.
“I promise to be ... a good girl”. I wave the duvet slightly and move closer and he let me fold it around him, snuggling into him. He is a bit cold, wearing just sweats and a tee.
He slips an arm around me, it seems more protective than anything else though. His voice a soft mumble. “You are rather warm”.
“Told you ... this is nice”. I snuggle into his chest.
We sit there watching the sun rise, colouring the sky pink and yellow. And I am contemplating how to ... Well make him forget the age thing and want me too. He could take me away from Ryan. I mean he is a good guy and so big and strong, with him protecting me Ryan wouldn’t dare touch me any longer. I know it sounds like I am just changing one man for another ... but I never wanted Ryan. I was never attracted to him. I do want Logan like nothing else I ever wanted.
I slip my hand up on his stomach, feeling him tense and those abs flex ... oh damn he is so freaking sexy I can’t even. But I just keep it there until he relaxes, actually he seems to be nodding off a bit, and I am thinking this might be my chance, if I can make him feel good he surely will want me.
“Let me be really nice to you Logan ... you won’t regretit”. I whisper softly, as I lean into him, my lips leaving small kisses along his jaw as my hand slips under the waistband of his sweats.
Oh hello, I am hardly past the waistband before making first contact ... okay so snuggling up with me has had an ... uplifting effect on him. He mumbles and moves a bit. My hand closing around his erection, making me let out a small gasp ... wow ... okay that’s ... he is like big, very big.
I start moving my hand, he is so hard, but the skin against my palm is soft, the feeling and idea makes me excited. He kinda jerks awake. “Fuck ... Hadley stop ... don’t”.
“Why not ? Don’t you like it ?” I purr. I mean the hardness in my hands and his gasping breaths tell me it definitely doesn't feel bad.
He grabs my wrist with a desperate look in his eyes. “Stop ... right now ... just stop”.
I let go, pulling away. Okay I kinda feel really awkward and bad right now. “Sorry ... I just thought ...”.
“You thought what ? That it’s okay to ... touch me like that when I told you no already ? That men are mindless sex addicts you can control through their dick”. He is on his feet and if he hadn’t looked so angry and outraged it might have looked funny with the obvious erection.
I feel the tears well up and my throat close up. “Sorry ... I ... I just ... I will go stay in the tent till we can leave ... sorry”.
Bravo Hadley, you fucked up everything, you managed to make him feel molested ... not good and now he hates you. You are going to be Ryan’s fuck toy until he grows tired of you and find someone younger.
“Hadley !?” Logan stops me when I am about to run back to the tent. “I am not angry with you ... but ... that wasn’t okay sweetie, do you understand that ?”
I nod looking down at my feet. “Yeah ... sorry. I just ... I like you and you have been so nice to me ... I wanted to ...”.
He holds up a hand. “You don’t owe me anything and most definitely not ... anything like that. You are worth so much more darling, never think your body is worth so little”.
“Thanks Logan, you really are the nicest person I have ever met”. I give him a small smile. “I will go back to the tent and get ready to leave, thanks for not being angry with me”.
“You don’t have to leave. You can still do the video here if you want, actually I would love it if you do”. He gives me a warm smile that makes butterflies do a conga line in my stomach.
I try not to sound too happy. “Are you sure ? Oh thank you so much”.
“It’s fine ...”. I kinda cut him off with a big hug.
“Oh sorry ... no touching without permission”. I quickly let go.
He holds out his arms. “You hereby have permission to hug, as much as you want to”.
I slip into his warm arms, enjoying the feeling of him way too much, but keeping it to myself for now.
*Hadley* “Where the fuck have you been Hadley”. Ryan says as I walk into the tent. He is pacing with his phone pressed to his ear. The snear makes him almost look like the demon he is. I make sure not to look him in the eyes, but not look away either. “I was outside watching the sunrise ... I couldn’t sleep”. “Hmm make sure you are ready to go when I get hold of some transportation”. He says, turning his back to me. “Uhm Ryan ... about that. I have an idea ... for the video”. I bite my lips. I need to sell this. I am not ready to go. I can’t leave Logan just yet. I can’t give up hope. “What about we shoot it here -.. imagine the contrast to the outfits, the song and then this grand beautiful nature, it will be breathtaking and very different and Logan will let us stay for free”. He looks thoughtful for a moment. “You got something there ... all the pop videos right now are shot at clubs or cool places ... this would stand out and you are famous enough to stand out ... We coul
4 days later *Hadley* “He is kinda cute right ?” The girl doing my hair says, looking at Logan who is playing with Luna out on the grass. We are on the porch which he lets us use for makeup, hair and costumes. I watch him as he laughs, throwing the ball for the dog to catch. I can’t help smiling. “He is ... and such a sweetheart”. These last couple of days my attraction to Logan has changed and grown into something deeper. We have spent a lot of time together, just talking. He has told me about his own struggles, about the importance of loving yourself and he has taught me how to meditate and let go of stress. “Cute is not the first thing coming to my mind”. Masha, the makeup girl says with a giggle. “That man is sex on legs ... sooo freaking hot”. “Well yeah that too”. The other girl giggles, pinning more pink extensions into my hair, to get the right look and the big hair Ryan wants. I bite my lip.. I mean yes he is sexy, but I do not like the way she is saying it ... or the
*Logan* I am watching Hadley shoot her video. I have to admit the song is rather catchy, but her writhing on a three log wearing this pink frilly doll-like underwear ... looking like ... a living sex doll or something. Well I do not like it ... at all. But of course I have no right to say anything, she is just a friend and she is an adult, but I just have this feeling ... from our long talks and such ... that this is not really what she wants. And my wolf is absolutely not a fan either. “Don’t drool too much”. Jax pops up beside me. I shake my head. “Not really drooling Jax”. “Oh ... you could have fooled me. I was starting to think that you and little miss Lele had a thing going on”. He looks at me with one eyebrow raised. “No Jax ... for god's sake she is nineteen, she is a teenager”. I shake my head again. “I could never do that”. He looks at her. “But you really really want to ... if you weren’t so hung up on the whole age thing”. I sigh. “I am not gonna lie, you know me
*Hadley* We have just finished filming for the day and I walk up to the porch, seeing Logan is there. He appears to be chatting with Masha, who is laughing in that seductive way, her hand resting on his arm. A new heat shooting through me, like biting into a too hot chili, something burning and harsh. “Maybe you should focus on your job and remove my makeup”. I can’t hold it in, knowing I sound like a right bitch as I sit down. I notice how Logan looks slightly worried and Masha rolls her eyes. “Of course sweetie, I’ll be right there”. “Are you okay bubbles ?” Logan looks at me. I am not sure why, I just feel so annoyed now and I kinda snap at him. “Fine ... don’t you have anything better to do than hanging around here ?” “I guess so”. I can hear the hurt in his voice so I look the other way. I would not handle seeing hurt in his eyes too. Masha starts cleaning my face, not really being gentle about it, but at least she is smart enough to keep her mouth shut. I feel it eating
*Hadley* I rub a hand over my face, it hadn’t been my intention to scare him away. Why did I have to forget myself and be all ... weird ? It had been so nice, but I sent him running again. Getting up I decide to go find him, to apologise and tell him I hadn’t meant it like that ... okay so it’s a bit of a lie, but anything to make him not angry with me. I am also slightly angry with Logan, I mean he is kinda blowing hot and cold on me … that neck rub ... he should not have been doing that if he is not interested in anything. I mean it felt kinda very intimate, on the other hand I can’t really be angry with him, he is just too sweet. As I walk outside I hear muted sounds from the corner of the back porch, giggles and ... what ? heated moans ... skin on skin slaps ... part of me wants to turn and walk away, but like a moth to the flame I am drawn in. “Oh God ... oh oh ... harder”. The words make me freeze on the spot. I have no doubt at all that it is Masha, her voice is just too
*Hadley* “Seriously Ryan ... on the porch and with that nasty skank”. I am shaking my head, staring at him. He gives me that condescending look that he has perfected so well, it’s meant to make you feel like you are the idiot. “Is someone jealous ?” “Jealous ? Not at all ... but it was very disrespectful to Logan”. I glare at him. “You just can’t stand that another woman wants me”. He crosses his arms on his chest, right now he looks like an angry teenager. I can’t help but giggle, I happened to talk to Jax, hearing his story too. “Want you, please you were her third choice at best, she had tried to get into both Jax’s and Logan’s pants first, you must feel so special … what a sex demon you make”. “Well you should be making me feel special, but ever since we’ve been here you have been too busy running around after Logan, drooling like a fucking lap dog ... get it baby, he isn’t gonna fuck you ... he’s probably gay”. He looks like he just won a prize or something. I shake my he
3 days later *Hadley* “Are you trying to keep us here ?” Ryan is talking in that low accusing voice that is much more scary than him yelling ... This means he is in full control and capable of thinking up evil things to do or say. “Or are you just an idiot ?” We had gone into Austin after Logan told Ryan to leave and we are now re-shooting the whole video, as Ryan doesn't want to do Logan any favour by having the video be a free commercial for his place ... honestly I don't think Logan cares. “Sorry, I don’t mean to”. And I don’t, I do my best, but in Ryan’s eyes I keep messing up the shoots. “I just want to go home”. “I think you are hoping he comes for you. I have seen how you sit and drool over him”. His tone is malicious. “Get it into your thick skull that you meant nothing to him … Do you even realise what he is ?” I feel the lump rise in my throat. I know it’s not true, but at the same time I feel it is a bit like that. I haven’t heard from Logan at all, only from AJ who
3 days later *Logan* “Is he pouting again ?” I hear AJ’s voice from the porch. He is not talking to me, but to Jax. I’m walking along the edge of the grass.. looking out on the grounds while Luna is playing with a new toy. Once again wondering where Hadley is and what she is doing, should I have done more to stop her from leaving with him ? Jax answers, a bit lower, but I can still hear him, and he should know that. “Yeah, I am worried about him to be honest”. “Well he cares a lot about her and so do I ... I mean I had my nose broken to defend her honour. I do not get my nose broken for just anyone”. AJ does not know how to whisper. “But with Logan it’s different ... I think he ...”. “Hey guys, I can hear you ... I am not deaf you know”. I call out. “And I am fine, totally fine”. They come over and Jax pads me on the shoulder. “No you are not, you mope around, you almost don’t eat, even your wolf is moody ... you can’t go on like this Logan”. “Well, there really isn’t anythin