Nial.Discomfort.Disappointment.And the fear that she looked at us with was overbearingly heart-consuming that made my own heart clench in pain. I didn't want her to feel like that. No one of us wanted her to feel like that.She broke down.But none of those things hurt more than the look of pure self-hate and disgust she had on with the gloomy atmosphere that we were trapped in while departing home didn't make it any better.Sofia refused to talk to us as she cried silently, her heart-wrenching quiet sobs racked through her small form and I fought the urge to comfort her in any way she'd let me.But I held myself back.My brothers were no better.Nadei was seething in anger as he always did instead of showing the hurt and expressing the pain that he felt. He bottled it up and I'm afraid that it'll catch up to him one day.Nikolai being the one with his heart on his sleeve and the most sensitive one amongst us had sadness and desperation colored all over his face staring longingly a
Author's POV.While Sofia was lost in her thoughts scrubbing her skin in the bath to distract herself, those endless grief injected tears flowing down her cheeks.The trio was in their study.Nadei had his head buried in his hands trying to control the urge to break something, he has always been the temperamental one amongst his brothers.He was the older brother with anger issues and a significant amount of trauma weighing his back. Nadei had tried to protect his younger brothers from the random and unnecessary beatings their father would inflict upon them.Lucifer Idler Alexeyev lived up to his name as a successful businessman and a ruthless mafia leader yet he was pictured as the perfect husband and perfect father.He thrived on power, money and territory. And he wanted his sons to be the same in any way possible.Meanwhile, Nikolai was overthinking everything, his thoughts were a complete mess, and his demons were catching up to him.She would never accept this.She would never w
Sofia.Today was absolute shit.My wishful thinking screwed me over is one thing to say it and the whole fiasco from yesterday was still embedded in as my brain tried to convince me to do whatever it was to get away and my heart wanted to give them a chance.But the darkness and possessiveness that they reflected had me agreeing with my brain.And I wished that my supposed blood pumping-piece-of-crap-of-a-heart wasn't forcing me to feel things that I didn't want to feel.Snapping my eyes open. I felt a dampness in my crotch reaching my hand to touch my inner thigh. A wave of cramps rolled through the inner walls of my pussy and I scrambled to my feet letting out curse words as I pulled the covers seeing the blood on the comforter.It leaked through. I placed a warm hand on my lower stomach as I took my ass to the bathroom with a change of clothes and a pad taking a quick shower feeling refreshed and clean throwing the dirty clothes in the hamper and taking off the comforter with from
Sofia."Fuck," I stretched out the word and squeezed the life out of Nikolai's calloused large hand hissing at the horrible feeling as my lower stomach contorted from the inside at innate agony.And men compare getting kicked in the balls to having period cramps as if they could feel their dicks being ripped from the inside out.Lucky idiots.Nikolai gave me a small peck on my forehead sitting on the bed as I unconsciously leaned my head against his shoulder, his abnormally hot hand resting on my lower tummy.And I sighed at the nice feeling."You're like a human heater," I meekly whispered and he laughed rubbing soothing circles over my skin and I accept the nice feeling with open arms.Goosebumps rose on my skin whenever his thumb put the smallest bits of pressure whenever I hissed and the cramps start subsiding going to a normal manageable pace.Manageable my ass, this shit still hurt but hey, at least it was distracting me from my shitty emotional state. So Yay!"But I'm your huma
Sofia.After the trio left. I just stayed in bed playing Episode, a knock came on the door as one of the older maids from before took the empty tray and brought me another mug of tea.And that got a smile on my face at the thoughtful gesture that was probably Nial's doing. I explained to the Mara --the maid that I wanted another heating pad as well.I smiled gratefully thanking the kind older woman as she fetched me what I had requested and my lunch too then I realized how long I'd been on my phone.I had my lunch in peace listening to some music and setting the empty tray and plate aside. The same woman took the empty dishes and I thanked her for the billionth time.Then, I continued playing Epi while sipping my tea letting out contented sighs till I received a notification.A huge grin got plastered itself on my face at the text.Carter: Can we FaceTime ? missed ur pretty face and m bored rn.I laughed typing back.Me: couldn't bare to not be in my amazing presence huh?Carter: meh,
Sofia.Cami left me to go through the movies that we could stream on the screen and me being the overly obsessed Disney fan, I had picked Encanto.She came back with some snacks and I mumbled a 'thank you' grabbing a bag of Doritos to munch on and press play as I plopped the heating pad- I was taking everywhere to place it on my lower stomach.And I sighed. Cami and I snuggled into our blankets watching the movie animatedly but silently shoveling unhealthy snacks down our throats but at least it tasted good.-The credits rolled in and Cami turned off the screen turning to face me, a sad smile on her face and I tensed expecting the worst."Sof, Dimitri told me, about-uh you know," she muttered mournfully casting me a worried glance as I understood what she was talking about.I awkwardly nodded feeling her sit next to me holding my hand and giving it a light squeeze.Instead of giving me a lame apology that wouldn't help with anything besides fuck with my deteriorating mental health, s
Author's POV.The sun shone through the curtains and the warm breezy weather and the beauty of Milan were always an amazing sight for the trio to wake up to.Especially when they were visiting their favorite allies. The Alexeyev brothers were the biggest gun trading and highest paid in the arm dealing business and their allies were always numerous but the Italians were the trio's favorite, they got along with them because of their fun but hardworking selves.Plus, they were actually decent people to deal with despite their crime-filled lifestyle.Each one of the trio woke up feeling absolutely empty without Sofia by their sides.The beautiful view did nothing to soothe them but it reminded them to bring their love with them the next time to experience this along their side.Nadei kept dreaming of her cute smile, her giggles, her adorable face that call from earlier was still ingrained in his brain making his heart beat faster with happiness and joy.She missed me he felt happiness sw
Nial."Doll, are you okay?" I said, the worry in my voice, evident but when she let out a giggle, I found my stoic façade falling to the ground.And a smile tugged over my lips."I'm alright, thank you, uh-what about you guys?" She asked and I visualized her blushing cute face contorted in embarrassment with her nose scrunched.Adorable.I let out a chuckle and made my way to our car, the Italians leading the way with their SUVs.Aurelio's bleached hair and bright blue eyes--that reminded me of my babygirl's-- caught my sight and he waved gesturing that we were leaving now.And I jogged to the car closing the door after getting in to see Aurelio driving, Nikolai was in the back with Nadei."Nial," My gorgeous girl mumbled and I realizef that I haven't answered her question."We're fine, babygirl-" Aurelio cast me a knowing smirk and I snorted with a flip of my finger, "We're just missing you," I admitted longingly and she sighed."I-I missed you too," her words had my brain freeze for