Time for your bath, Mathew.All the oxygen was sucked from my lungs in an instant, as if inside the shower had created a vacuum where air did not, or could not exist. I felt my legs fail to continue to perform their function and as I went down I felt the water go over my head.My chest burned and my veins boiled as complete terror consumed me. My blood felt like a river of fire, as if Pyriphlegethon itself ran through my soul, taking me with it in its sickening current.I could feel their malicious hands, phantom memories brought back in a haze of panic, holding me under the spray.I screamed.It's time for your bath, Mathew.I do not know how lo
I wanted to believe him so badly. His words and his tone and the softness of his touch was so foreign the concept was hard to swallow."What am I worth, Mykel? What have I ever done that's worth anything? I went from one abuse to another. Why would you even want me? Why do you want anything to do with some...used up whore?"The word made me sick to my stomach and tasted rancid on my tongue. I heard Mykel suck in a long breath, his nostrils flaring."Listen to me now, Mattie, and listen well. I don't care about what you had to do back then. Do I like you were put into a situation where that was y
I woke early that Sunday, dreams, or should I say nightmares, not allowing me to want to even attempt at sleep; nor could I lie there wide awake.Now, an hour later I was on my second cup of coffee, quietly sipping as I enjoyed the peace of a new morning's sunrise.I heard the back door open and quietly close.I smiled behind my coffee cup as I took a sip. Liz sat down next to me, her bed head on the highest level of insanity, her giant cup in one hand, her box in the other.Once she was situated she smiled at me before leaning over and kissing my cheek. "Good morning, gorgeous."I smiled through my outrageous blush. "Good morning, Liz. Sleep well?"She followed my gaze, rolling her e
You're a fool, boy. You'll never deserve him. Being a whore was too good for you. You should have stayed in your box where you belong.The voice was sudden and crippling and suddenly I felt her hands around my throat.Mykel must have noticed the change in the air because when he looked at me his whole face changed.He slowly leaned forward and stamped the blunt out before sitting back just as carefully."Mattie?" He reached but pulled away when I tried to scamper backward and away from him, a whimper escaping me.All I saw was her face swimming before my eyes, her malicious smile spreading like cancer across her distorted face."No. No, please."
She's got a smile it seems to me Reminds me of childhood memories Where everything Was as fresh as the bright blue sky Now and then when I see her face She takes me away to that special place And if I'd stare too long I'd probably break down and cry His voice was nothing like I'd ever heard before. My breath caught as he sang. There was no need for him to scan his eyes over the monitor. His eyes stayed locked on me as if this was for me and me alone. Oh, oh, oh Sweet child o' mine Oh, oh, oh, oh Sweet love of mine She's got eyes of the blu
I remembered the way they cowered from Mykel as he spoke, glancing in my direction as if I would speak up...or if they could reach me..."You were smaller," Mykel said softly, kissing my cheek. He rested his forehead against where his lips met my skin and sighed."I wasn't when I ran off," I countered."Things are different now than they were then, also, Mattie," Liz said. I looked at her and shrugged. "Think about it, doll," she went on, "when you ran away, you'd had sixteen years of abuse that you dealt with every day. You were kept in a state of fear. They trained you to be afraid.
I melted into his embrace, and he picked me up from the tub, his bigger body holding me against his chest bridal style. No words were exchanged as he carried me into his room, my clothes already laid out on his bed.He set me down by the bed and we both made short order of getting dressed.Suddenly I was angry. At myself. At Mykel. At my parents, my sister, the very world. I stood beside the bed, my back to Mykel, my arms crossed over my chest defiantly.I felt more than I heard him walk up behind me. My breathing stopped and I stiffened as he touched me. His fingers, barely grazing the tops of my shoulders slid away and I heard him sigh lightly behind me."Mattie..." His hands lightly gripped my elbows in an attempt to turn me to face him, but I shook from his gr
Gently she pushed me to a sitting position, her warm, smaller hands cradling my face. "I love you, Mattie. There aren't any conditions to go along with that. I don't care how much you may cry, baby, or how often you freak out. You're not a nuisance. To either of us."But as far as I am concerned, Mattie, you're just as much a part of me as...oh, my love...I could never just cast you aside." She thumbed away tears from my cheeks before vanquishing them from her own. "I knew what I was getting into when I hired you, Mattie. Do you think I was unprepared for what might happen bringing you here?"I brought you here, permanently, because I love you, Mattie. And I've already lost two brothers. I won't lose you, too. I'm not going anywhere."With that, she pulled me back into her embrace, repeated she loved me in a softl