Regardless

I spent the night at home, if what I did could be called spending a night. I sat on the bed all night, feeling all the things I used to feel while sitting here, seven years ago, rushing back at me again. It was weird, just how in the end of it all, I was the very middle of it.

I looked at my phone. Would the past Karla have her phone with her? What is she doing?

I tried hard to remember what I was doing then around this time, but nothing came up.

I stayed awake till the morning sun rose on me. In as much as I wanted to stay with my mother, I wanted to go back home. To be alone again.

I trudged my way out of the room, intending to spend some time with her and leave.

"The alimony? Are you willing to pay it?" I heard my mother's voice say, and I stopped.

"But...Sandra. We can't just give our only child away like that. We can't just give her away into a marriage she does not want because we want to keep ours, Sandra. That is selfish."

I heard my mother laugh. "Do you mean the same da