28– Two crazies

Even though I couldn’t sleep, I resisted the temptation to run to Yoké and tell him everything. I kept thinking about what happened. I couldn’t believe that Abu was finally getting his way. Why did I keep provoking him knowing very well that he actually had the ability to do this to me? Maybe if I had made him believe that I liked him too, I could have asked him to not talk to his father. I wished I had listened to Yoké when he told me that I should act like there was nothing going on between the two of us so that we do not upset Abu. Why didn’t I just listen? This was all my fault.

I don’t know how long it took but after much more regretful thoughts I finally fell asleep. After a short while I was woken up again by Gamu’s rattling and moving around in the house. I laid awake for a little while longer and then got up when I heard Gamu coming towards my chamber. It was now time to go to the river.

When we got to the river Gamu didn’t wait for me to finish bathing like she normally did,