Wrong Way

{ Georgette }

Asheron doesn’t follow me to my room, and I don’t know if that’s good or bad.

On one hand, I’m grateful because I can cry freely, but on the other hand, I want him here to make me feel better.

Once again, Selfish Georgie is out and about.

I wish I could stop being so fucking selfish, but I can’t control it.

In my soul and in my heart, I feel like I should have both of them right here.

That’s why I keep calling Cain, just to tell him that I need him here, even though I know I can’t tell him what he needs to hear: that I’m choosing him.

I can only tell him the truth, that I’m selfish and I want to have him by my side for the rest of my days… I mean, for the rest of the month.

But Cain never answers my calls or my texts.

I don’t know how long I spend crying and calling him over and over again, but I fall asleep at some point.

When I wake up the next day, I know my eyes are swollen and I don’t really want to get up to face reality, so I decide to stay in bed for longe