Every inside chaos begins noiselessly. It is a human's own nature, it is an individual's greatest fright, and it is a creation's unending battle. No one had the ability to foresee it coming.
It is one of the existing proof that nothing from the future and to what would happen next is inevitable.
You just need to not abide by its flow.
It is the rule of inevitability.
Once you have been swallowed by its wings and blinded all of what you have in darkness, who you are— who you once were— yonder will rather be far more terrifying than to choose where you go.
My fight started with my mother. She was the first that I wanted to battle with. That's why I still held on— never letting go of everything I had included even her. It was, for me, the longest war I ever had until unworthily bare vanished.
This was her story.
"Mom, when I grow up, will you still give me a present?" I ask
After a year of suffering, I was finally moving on. It was the second month of schooling when I met Lincoln Haze Costa Edevez. I was a ninth-grader, and it was the third blow for me. Although, it's also the next battle I had waged.One by one the direction of the footsteps in the hallway as the noise coming from their mouth emitted a variety of news. I was swimming the ocean of strangers as I made my way to my section. Just a few minutes and I reached it as well.Just as I was about to enter, the noise from the inside could be heard immediately. At least, it wasn't the worst one for it was the star section. I also didn't take the test in seventh grade to get into the highest section here at Tyler University. I might just get more stressed.I went straight to my seat and hung the bag there. I was in the midst of seating when I noticed a letter from the desk of the armchair. I frowned as I picked up the lett
The other day, the classes were postponed because of the typhoon.It was raining so hard outside, I could see it clearly from there in the armchair I was sitting next to the window.The sky was covered with dark clouds having acid rain. The south wind was also very strong. It waves the most of all the creatures on the earth — explicitly, the trees. Some of their leaves fall off and were released from their grip.I was shivering because of the coldness that was caressing me and that I could smell. I'd rather just go home and sleep. Those were the times when I wished I could snooze in the bedroom.It was loud inside the classroom. It was unnerving because it was accompanied by the fierce breeze and the gusts of the wind in the atmosphere that hit everything they whacked. Earlier the lights were still turned off due to the recurrence of electricity.I heaved a sigh, nose getting itchy. I was chilled by the co
If anyone asked me the question which part of my memory would I change, I'd say to the moment my mother had this cancer that drove me in suffering for years. It's not Lincoln, and it's not the piece where I'd suddenly knew I was just an adopted child and never had been a real daughter of them.But it still hurts for me to be left behind again.The fire had melted and I was still trapped. . . back then.Little did I know that the emptiness I was treading on was engulfed by the ocean that would swallow me the moment I was completely destroyed. There are many waiting for me in the depths of it and I don’t want to be there.I was afraid that it's starting. But the third explosion was not over. Just try it on me.I was locked in my room then. Thinking of my mother's smile at me every time we ate dinner, her telling me of experiences that happened to her when she was a child, and our hug every time she was weak and couldn't stand
We're what we didn't seek.While to be lost's not an option.This was what always came to my mind when I was looking for someone who would be my ally no matter what happened.But how? And so I answered myself that I just need to be me. However, it became the opposite.I became desperate.I became someone that wasn't me.I was about to go inside our two-story house when I saw the piece of paper in front of me inches away from me. I forgot that out of curiosity. It was shocking to recognize Lincoln's handwriting.It's not just a paper. It's a white card. There was enough weight for it to not be carried away by the wind when he left. Maybe I could read what's in there.His name and number were written there. Below that was the message he wanted me to read.“I hope we can be friends.” That's what's written with a black marker.I didn't smile to myself when I read that.  
Enough of the past.I should focus more on The Game.I watched Freyja from inside the fifth House now talking to Gideon. I could clearly see the seriousness on his face as they quietly talked about it in front of the exit door. The woman nodded and seemed to be keeping in mind what the other person is saying."Wanna know a secret?"I turned to Sorcha as she spoke next to me. We were both leaning against a tree as we folded our arms and watched the two talk in the room. Psyche and the others went back to his cabin because they were going to take some equipment left by Leader.I knitted my eyebrows. "We're not supposed to tell secrets. I mean, whatever secret you're talking about that is too confidential."She shrugged and giggled. "I know but it's just . . . It's just about her," she was referring to someone inside, pointing at her with her snout.I blinked as many as I can. "W-What about her?"
For those who had remained, I gave them love, but they bestowed me curses and hatred in return.The funny notion about irony and worth is that they couldn't be quested. Irony blazoned itself as irony, and worth promulgated itself as worthiness or worthlessness. Hence, to make it shorter, either one of them is ridiculously a part of the void. They have no meaning at all.So ever since I received hatred from the people I loved I have learned to put a fence between me. Even after I realized that I was adopted, I also realized why my supposed blood relatives treated me so badly.There's this burning fire, rage, in their eyes like I was a fox who brought deceit. That was the end of my questioning. What's wrong with me, what they don't like about me — but by the time the questions run out, new ones flood into my mind.Like why can’t they accept me? Or why do I have to endure each of every whip of them? I didn't do any
I have chips inside the pocket of my denim jacket. With the amount I get, it won't be immediately used up by the user. I can tell Gideon have plenty of it inside his denim jacket, too.When we picked up those, we assured ourselves that we would be having this kind of weapon enough to survive the Chip Wreck. He arrived before I was blindfolded and when I knew I was in the group, he just nodded. Took the clothe and changed his current outfit in the bathroom.It looks like he's the only one who can't do that.And that was when I realized that we have to change our upper suits involving our own shirt earlier. Aside from the denim jacket, we both wore blue collarless bench bottoms based on the one I pulled out of the jar as a symbol that we were both in a group.We all switched for the Game.A while ago I didn't even notice what they were wearing even the color of them but they did the same after pulling out and before the Leade
As I tiptoed and glanced in the left and right direction, my heart almost escaped as it throbbed undeniably faster which made it hard for me to be at ease. I turned to the complacent leader who was folding his arms and watching me with a blank expression.I frowned at him."Can't you assist me, Leader?" I sarcastically uttered as I looked behind him to see if there's an enemy. “You’ve been like that the whole time. Justice please.”He did not take his eyes off the sky, I mean, what's even with the sky that he wants looking at it? He shrugged his shoulder and up an eyebrow. "Life is always unfair, right? It is easier for me to read through you. Because of that thought, I think your world's not fair. You're playing but not as a whole. What is it that you're truly feeling?"It was a fact that he said, and I admit it turned me into a frozen statue who stares at his manipulating cold eyes. I averted it somewhere just so I could