Waking up groggy and disoriented was a part of my life now. Being immersed in complete darkness like this wasn’t something I’d get used to, not ever. I didn’t know how they could comfortably live like this. At least the lights could be turned on. What was the time, anyway?I sat up in the dark room, the bed groaning along with me. I looked around, hoping to see something. Catch some light. I couldn’t. It was completely pitch black and—Just then, the lights in the room turned on. I closed my eyes to shield them from the glare and had to blink slowly in order for them to adjust to this new light. I wiped the tears accumulating around them and then dared to open my eyes. They were getting comfortable now—there was a lot less stinging involved. Finally. I got up and stretched my arms above my head. I heard a crack in my back and felt less tension there. I was unsure about going downstairs but if the lights had turned on, someone was probably awake. I opened the door and stepped out
There was an energy in the house that was unmistakable. This was the second day that I had been here and already the mood had changed. I thought everyone was upset about leaving the city and coming here but if that was the case before, it wasn’t the case now. Everyone appeared to be happy and there was a party atmosphere that I couldn’t put my finger on. When I went downstairs and Sven informed me that they would be throwing a dinner party, then everything made sense to me. “The people coming are trustworthy. Don’t worry.”I didn’t know if he’d seen panic cross my features when he told me. Perhaps that was the case. I didn’t trust most vampires, I’d say. But if he said I didn’t have to worry, then it was futile to worry. Vanessa pulled me aside when she saw me and said, “Tonight is expected to be a more formal event so we’re all going to get dressed up a little. I have clothes for you to try out.”“Thanks,” I said, unsure of what else to say. “That is in case you want to particip
I looked around in hopes to spot Felix bug he was nowhere to be found. The vampire before me was still ogling me and I wanted nothing more than to hide from him. Who were these people? I didn’t like them. The only vampires I liked were the ones Felix introduced me to. “What’s the matter?” he asked in a low voice. “Cat got your tongue?”“Nobody says that anymore,” I said sharply. This made him laugh. He flashed his sharp canine, which made me shiver a little at the sight of it. “Is that so? Forgive me. I come for a different time.”“I know.”“Really?” he asked. “What else do you know, since you seem to know everything?”I pressed my lips together and didn’t say anything else further. He stared at me with an amused expression, which made me wonder why all these vampires were so obsessed with witches. What was the matter with them? I didn’t have any powers of enticement, as far as I was concerned. I was just ordinary. The only thing I was good at (apparently) was killing werewolves w
Felix and I went back outside. By then, tears were running down my face. I was heavily affected by everything I had seen and this sickening feeling grew inside of me, leaving space for nothing else. He only stopped when we were a safe distance from the house. Once we did, I covered my face with my hands and cried. The feeling of lightness and relief I felt earlier vanished; that insolent and cold-hearted vampire ruined everything. Felix put his hands on my arms comfortingly. His touch was gentle and welcome. He didn’t say a word; he only watched me cry until I felt cleaner and better about myself. When I took my hands away from my face, he wiped my tears gingerly. “Don’t cry,” he said intensely, his eyes on mine. “That’s exactly what he wants. He feeds off despair and helplessness. Don’t give him what he wants, not ever.”“He’s such an asshole,” I said because I didn’t know what else to say. And it was true. He was an asshole. He was the worst vampire I’d ever met. “He’s always be
I hadn’t stopped thinking about Felix since he left my side outside after we shared that kiss that should never have happened. I was sure the sun had already risen and so I wouldn’t be seeing him again anytime soon. The way he left and the sound he made as he fled the scene made my cheeks warm up each time without fail. I was embarrassed by what I felt and thought in the moments before the kiss. How had things changed so drastically? How did I go from hating him with all my heart to thinking it was okay for him to kiss me? Where was the old Jade? Had feelings of guilt and loneliness shaped her forever? I had to admit that I’d become unrecognizable, even to myself. Now, I was only wondering what he thought. Had he felt because of how disgusted he was? I didn’t want to think that way but he hadn’t given me a choice. I was now self-conscious and too self-aware to wind down and not worry about it at all. I wondered why it was that he didn’t look at me after the kiss when he was the one
It was a major surprise to me when Felix knocked on my bedroom door. When I opened it, he was leaning against the door frame. He was wearing a leather jacket with a plain black T-shirt underneath—his usual attire. The one thing that was considerably different about him was the look on his eyes. The neutrality he’d shown me earlier was gone.I’d never met this Felix Russell before. “I’m going into the city tonight,” he told me. “I was wondering if you wanted to come with me.”I searched his eyes before responding, “And what are we going to do there exactly?”“Aren’t you hungry?”I wanted to tell him I wasn’t but I kept that to myself. He probably already heard it anyway. Driving into the city was exactly what I needed to fight this endless boredom away and it excited me, the thought of going back. “Give me a few minutes,” I replied before closing the door. I got ready in record time. It was only a shame that I had to wear my old clothes which were starting to look less presentable
“What are you doing?” I asked him, my heart beating incredibly fast. I wondered why my first instinct was to ask him that and not scream. I should have screamed. He was pointing a gun at me. “Trying to save your life,” he said between his teeth, stepping closer. “When I received the call that you were here, I knew I had to come even though we didn’t part ways in the most friendly way, did we?”“That’s because you’re a hypocrite,” I shot at him. “You told me to stay away from Felix because he wasn’t trustworthy yet you were keeping things from me too, weren’t you?”I wanted to ask him how he’d received the call and from whom, but I didn’t think it would matter. He was here already. “Look,” he said, “I don’t know what you’re talking about. I don’t know what he said from you. I’m genuinely just trying to help you, can’t you see that? They’re not good for you. You can’t tell me that you haven’t already figured that out.”“You’re not good for me either,” I stated. “Unless you want me to
After putting all the food away, I could finally rest. The night had been pleasant yet stressful toward the end. I couldn’t recall how happy I’d been earlier without remembering my father in that bathroom, holding a gun. Why he was so adamant to get me away from Felix was a mystery to me. How could I be useful to him? That was another question that was on my mind.Why couldn’t he just leave me alone?I sat on one of the stools next to the counter and drummed my fingertips against the countertop lightly. I was deep in thought when Sven strode in. His hair was everywhere and he looked like he had just woken up. He was also barefoot and wore only a pair of pants. It wasn’t a look I’d ever seen on him before. “Oh, Jade,” he said when he saw me. “Wasn’t expecting to see you here so early.”“It’s five in the morning,” I remarked. “Is it early or late?”“You know the answer where I’m concerned,” he replied as he walked toward the pantry. I knew what they kept there so I kept my eyes fixed