22. Did you mean it?

ERICA

During the drive, all the way to the hotel, my mind was filled with what just happened in that warehouse. The fact that I stood so close to one of those men who tormented me and filled my life with constant nightmares was surreal, but it wasn’t just that... My mind would circle back to the moment when I stood in front of that man and held the gun in my hands. It wasn’t the first time, I did it before too, when I tried to run away from Antonio and had tried to shoot at his men but then no one was kîlled. This time I took a life while the man was pleading on his knees and I felt invincible. And it was because of the man who had stood beside me and gave me the power when all this time I had felt weak.

But now as the adrenaline and the thirst for blood of those who wronged me faded away, and the reality of what I did came back it made me question myself, my own character— a bloody thirsty part I didn't think I harboured. Every time I thought of that, my eyes would go down to my hand