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Some words from heart, some divine hyms and talks between two souls, life is beautiful.
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"I dangling between love and hate." I had made this statement when I realised I had all his attention, still holding my hand and facing me with eyes looking at the depth he adored and looked at me with a look hard to define but which was moving my heart and soul, as if trying to awake that broken heart, mend it and let it regain all the love.
But all of it was not so easy, it was going to be a battle too long with no hopes to be won, still I stood there with hope and he seems to flicker light with every gaze with which he was ready to explore my heart, know me understand me. He seems to care for me, as if he wanted go listen to me, even when I stopped speaking, he kept his eyes fixed at me waiting for me to speak more and continue speaking.
I stopped, stopped due to the fear of something, looking away from him, I hold back my hand, I was
****** "I love you as certain dark things are to be loved, in secret, between the shadow and the soul.” – Pablo Neruda ****** ~Selene He acted so weird and different, by acting in a more child-like manner and doing all the mischief he made me feel a little apprehensive regarding what is going on in his mind, why is he acting like this. Suddenly he seems to behave all different, and no more feels like the same Deven I knew. " You are sounding so weird today, are you ok. Why are so so adamant about staying here and not getting ready to leave this room" I asked out of curiosity even after a lot of attempts I was not able to solve this mystery. "You had a problem with your husband wanting to sleep with you in one room. Seriously, I feel something is wrong with you and not with me." He spoke acting as of he don't know any truth of our relation, the way he spoke for a moment even I doubted what I know, he said all this so casua
*******“It is better to love wisely, no doubt: but to love foolishly is better than not to be able to love at all.”*******All what he said has mad me some what believe on him, but this way he has played with my feelings and rendered me helpless looking at him I stood in doubt assessing if I am in a dream or whether all this is happening for real.How could one change so much in an instance, he seems to be a totally different person. I was stunned and was not able to believe whatever was happening in format of my eyes.I feel elated and yet was extremely confused. Are you saying it for real do you love me.Than what was Mariah, instance , you are going to marty her what about that what shall I believe Trsitan I am not able to understand any thing I spoke."I don't have much time; I had to find her
With dangling chandeliers, lightning the pathways and shimmering lights glittering all around, Dad has turned our little backyard into nothing less than a living heaven.The flowers decoration, along with those stars shaped lights hanging all through the aisle along with strings little white flowers, fresh and aromatic.The stage was perfectly set and chairs, table were all placed, although the venue was still empty since it was two hours before the timing given to guests in the invitation.Since Dad was very much excited and happy at his preparations, he can't hold himself back from applauding about all the arrangements he had done. He had brought four of us here in a haste, while we are half dressed standing in between our wedding venue two hour before the actual timing."Did you both like it? How is it looking? My two little princess, tell me are you happy from your Dad's work." With high spirits and a happy satisfied face he spoke in a chirpy voice.
~Selene The stage was set, stampede of guest were chirping around the hallway, the widely, magnificently decorated arena looked enchanting. My inner and outer self were totally in contrast with each other. Inside me there was a dark gloomy clouds covering my heart and soul with no hope visible, with no streaks of light to scatter those gloomy clouds, my heart was sinking in grief, in oblivion I sat on the stage, totally lost and devastated. The silence before and after the storm is the most devastating one, it is even more devastating than the actual storm. I was here standing amidst the departure and arrival of storms, the brief line in between them, a short interval of ravaging silence. I had just survived a barrage of time, I tried hard to recollect myself, I had not even finished collecting the lodging pieces my heart was scattered into when this marriage announcement was the another story which deserted all of the remaining elements brutally. My outer se
******* The streaks of hope must find its way even in darkest realm of life; else what are we without hopes, just living dead. ******* All arrangements for the wedding was done, priest has arrived and then we got the call to walk the alley since our respective grooms are there waiting for us. The thought of marrying Allen was making me further anxious and sick. How could I even marry my best friend, I suspected Allen for getting this readily agreed for this marriage, probably it is his goodness that for saving me out of all this mess he got ready to marry me, but I still doubt isn't it all this too sweet of him. How could he agree to marry me? I already asked him to disappear, elope out of the window, people will think he was unhappy with the marriage or have someone else in his life, by doing all this atleast he would not have to marry me. I insisted him to leave the house and never appear again, this would have been a muc
The world is a strange place to live; many a times those we reckon as well wisher turns our greatest enemies and those we never thought could be our saviour. Every face has a smile, every mind reaps evil, the destructor dances in the moon light and we might be walking the ravaging streets which could lead us to beautiful destination. ****** ~Selene The way he was reasoning this marriage was making me go absurdly mad at him, can't he understand that I had no interest in this marriage. "I had said this multiple times, still I am repeating this again for you. Listen carefully. I am not going to marry you at any cost. I respected our friendship and that's why I was silent and hadn't reacted adequately to all the nonsense you are uttering. Why can't you understand? I never loved you, I don't love you in present and in upcoming future also I will never be loving you. I can't marry a person I don't love." "Yes my marriage with him is going to
~Selene I was totally shock by the revelation that Allen has feeling for me, I could have never thought about it, I took our relation as an inseprable bond of friendship. After all once Deven left me alone, he was there in every eves and flow by my side. Listening to my endless talks, supporting me at each step I took, he was there standing beside me as a true friend. I was too much attached with Deven and probably that's why I almost forgot to smile and be happy when he left me alone. His unexpected departure, and his unannounced arrival were the most painful and delightful moments of life. For me Deven still held the same place in my heart, after all he was my love, irreplacable and close to my heart, on the same hand along these ears Allen has arrived extremely close to me, becoming an indispensable part of my life, I cared for him. I always wanted good things happen to him, and would have walked an extra mile for his happiness. Despite the fact, h
****Compassion hurts. When you feel connected to everything, you also feel responsible for everything. And you cannot turn away. Your destiny is bound with the destinies of others. You must either learn to carry the Universe or be crushed by it. You must grow strong enough to love the world, yet empty enough to sit down at the same table with its worst horrors.*****Allen has successfully ruined my plan to rush away from this wedding and elope from here.After a lot of analysis and still not being able to find any way out of this situation I choose to run away from my problems, this traumatic life and the hardest part of the reality was this decision might be helpful in saving me from upcoming traumas and problems however if my plan would have been successful I had to pay a very big price for it. I will hurt one person the most due to what I was going to do, and was stopped in between my way. I could have lived a life, I could have felt alive and probab