015: Tears and rain

I stood there stunned. Still. What was that supposed to mean? Once again I didn't understand at all what Jakob wanted to achieve with the action. Or in general with his strange behavior. One mystery after another surrounded him. I wondered how I could possibly solve them. One after the other. Although I would prefer all of them at once.

But then the next question arose. Namely, whether it might not be better if I didn't find out more about him. After all, Jacob will not have said without reason that nobody knows him and that it is better that way. My concerns were reinforced with one of his last sentences. Was he really as 'fucked up' as he said he was?

I had no idea what the word meant to him. At least for me it was that someone was totally done with the world, as the saying goes. I didn't mean little things that passed after a few days or weeks. I've carried my secret around with me for ten years, but I would never call myself a broken person. My life was fine so far.

What actually