It has been over 5 months,( three weeks into SSS2 3rd term), after that incident with Khaleed and words alone cannot describe how I had felt throughout those months.
Even though I had settled quite well in my new school, I still feel burdened with the strange liking I could not share with others.
After that declaration made by Khaleed during the little game, my spirit died down as the liking I had for him faded like dust. I felt hurt knowing he treated girls like a plaything, without any sense of conscience involved.
Whenever I see him, I no longer feel that fluttering effect in my body. The warm sensations that always clouded my body left. My eyes that are always ready to scan his handsome glory felt a little bit disgusted to look at it. The feeling of admiration, as I would call it, went away like a 'season' that passes by.
The drama of my life did not end there, as I had a liking for someone else during the second term. I started admiring the class captain after a heart-to-heart discussion with him. He was not as handsome as Khaleed, but his dimple that shows when he smiles left me flickering inside.
His funny and jovial side added to it, as it brought back a spark in me. His jokes were extraordinary leaving me almost 'laughing out my lungs, as I reminisced about the moments we spent together.
Every good thing must come to an end, one way or the other Paul, the class captain started saying filthy and obscene things in his jokes. Most of my classmates like it but I knew what was best for me. The affection I had for him, which piled up like a heap of sand' left like' a gust of dust'.
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I smiled, as I made a walk to my class. We are in the third week of resumption, and I felt a sense of relief. A relief because I had never felt any liking towards the same sex, maybe my admiration has left, "I thought.
'That is what you keep thinking, just brace yourself for the next one," my subconscious mocked, as I simply ignore that fact.
Sometimes I feel like figuring out what is wrong with me. As much as I have not committed any sin, I think I am cool, maybe something is wrong with my imagination sense,' I often tell myself
Why do I feel those butterflies in my tummy, when I am around those handsome boys? Why do I blush, stutter, and feel those warm sensations assembling in my body? Those questions ran through my mind as I let out my tongue, freeing some air from my mouth.
I stepped into the class, and the psycho I shared a textbook with during my first day at school started walking towards me. I nicknamed him that before I later learned his name was Ethan. I stopped as I saw him blow kisses at me. Has he gone crazy?'I thought
He did the unexpected as he moved closer to my figure, leaned forward to my face, his lips almost making contact with mine.
I moved back a little and slapped him across his face. The sound of the slap resonating in the four corners of the class. Rachael who stood nearby could not stop laughing, as the direction of the few students in the class turned to our side.
It was lunch break as few of them are in the classmates, which I thanked God for.
I stared at Ethan who stood dumbstruck for some seconds, as his right palm was on his right cheek. He was expressionless, as he stuck But his tongue, biting his lips gently.
Some of my classmates moved closer to Ethan, bombarding him with questions. He shrugged as he left the class. I breathed in a sigh of relief when they did not bother to ask me what transpired between us. It was also a good thing none of them saw what happened.
I wondered what would have happened if he had performed that act. It would have made me feel terrible knowing the same-sex kissed me, which is outrageous.
Rachael finally left the class, leaving me alone with my numerous thoughts. I wrapped my arms around my body, bracing for warmth to calm my nerves. I finally relaxed as I began to shrug off my thoughts.
I opened my eyes as he entered the class. 'Speak of the devil and he will surely appear, 'I thought as I scoffed inwardly. I watched him walk to his seats, with that calm aura on his face, as he strolled confidently. My face twitched at his demeanor as if he had not tried to do something stupid earlier.
He sat down as his mouth formed into a smile, as he chatted with his friends. I felt guilt run down my system seeing him smile. I should not be guilty, right? He tried to do the KOTL(Kiss on the lips) thing on me especially in front of the class, which in many ways is wrong.
I tried to keep my frustration at bay, by filling my head with something else. 'You are girly, boys are supposed to punch, not slap,' I heard my inner mind say as I rolled my eyes.
Someone tapped me, jolting me out of my daze. I looked up only to see Quadri, as a frown crept to my face. The thought of spending time with this naughtiest personality beside me is enough reason to prepare for a 'whole lot of drama and obscene jest'.
All thanks to him, I was able to get tons of names. Going home together is almost driving me crazy as he stated I needed to know deeply apart life( which was purely his obscene talks)
"I learned you slapped the most favorite person in the class today because he wanted to go naughty with you," he said with a vague smile across his lips.
"And so what?" I retorted, trying not to be cheesy.
He leaned closer towards my ear, as he whispered "I just wanted to tell you that you should have punched or kicked him in the place the sun never met".
I could not help but laugh at his statement, my head jerking up as my eyes met with that of Ethan. His countenance changed, as it is obvious how curiosity lies in his eyes. I grinned and continued my discussion with Quadri. I felt fulfilled as I figured out Ethan's intention to make me feel guilty for slapping him. He now looks perturbed, tsk, tsk, what a sham. He is a pretender, who will not change anytime soon, and the tag for him still stands 'A Player'.
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The weeks for the third term kept moving as I found myself in a new class I was placed for my Mid Term Examination. I sat down at the rear side of J.S.S.3 A(Junior Secondary School 3), the class I was posted to write my test.
The class was well ventilated and has a beautiful painting of light blue and white. My gaze left my Geography book, as it fell on the least set of persons I expected to be in the same class as mine.
Hanging their hands around each other's neck, whispering words they were laughing at as they walked slowly. I averted my gaze and continued with my revision, trying not to think too much about them, that is Khaleed and Ethan.
"Michelangelo, morning o," Khaleed greeted and I responded with a "Good morning". Few seconds eloped, not until I heard that annoying voice.
" You do not want to greet us. I wonder why they call you that name. It sounds lame and oh, you behave like a girl and acts childish like that fourth Ninja turtle in Teenage Mutant Turtles," he spat out with a smirk at the corner of his lips.
I could feel my body wanting to get back at him for those words of his, especially when both of them gave way to laughter.
I put on a bright smile ready to shock them. "I love Teenage Mutant Turtles, it is one of my best Nickelodeon series. Most importantly, Michaelangelo looks cute being childish and has cool moves in fighting the villains," I replied calmly as their facial expression was that of 'awestruck'. They must probably be wondering why a 15-year-old teenager is watching a cartoon.
We changed the topic and chit-chatted for a while before they left. I am still surprised at how calm Ethan still looks especially when he knew I slapped him some weeks ago. We never said a word to each other since that very day. Just remembering that scene almost wanted to make my heart move out of its place.
He wanted to kiss me but I slapped him, was I wrong? There are quite a lot of things surrounding me, but having news spread about me being kissed is not something I wished for especially in a country like Nigeria. People will surely count a lot of meanings to it.
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Heaving a sigh of relief, I left my assigned classroom after completing my first and second tests. I strode gently to the school library to spend my break there, by revising my last subject for today.
I stepped into the library as I breathe in the new fragrance of the library that enveloped my nose. I made my way to the rear with a window beside me. The beautiful scenery becoming more evident as I peered outside at the trees that are flapping in the direction of the wind. I let myself looking intently at the trees, as my mind filled with beautiful tidings.
I was still staring at the beautiful piece of nature when a voice jolted me out of my observing time. I turned my head as my mouth fell agape.
"Hey", Ethan whispered as he stood in front of me. I could not help but keep staring at him, as my mouth was partially opened. To say I was 'shocked' again is the right word to use. " Can I sit beside you?" He asked politely, bending a little with a book held by him, but all I could do was blink my eyes, wondering why Ethan was in front of me. "Ahem," he faked a cough, drawing me out of my trance. "Sure, you can sit beside me," I finally found my voice as he took a chair beside me as I slowly returned my gaze to my book. "Are you okay? You just kept staring at me as if you wanted to swallow me whole," he mumbled. He is quite a good character that deserves a 'pretending award'.He might be a chameleon but I am the opposite,' I thought as an idea crept into my brain"Are you a chameleon that suddenly changes color 'out of the blues'?,' I asked and he chuckled, flipping through the New School Chemistry text
I sulked in my breath, trying not to get angry at Ethan's use of words. He is kinda right, I am 15 years old and yet to have a crush. I stay with girls 24/7, and nothing to show off concerning any growing feelings for the opposite sex.Yet, I had a liking for 5 boys already, not sure the reason why I am developing that affection for them. One thing I wish for is to be led to a spotlight about this admiration I am developing, it is making my heart Quaver. ' Oh God of mercy, please guide my thoughts and give me a solution to my problem', I prayed silently as I made my way into Rachael's class meant for her test.She was revising for her next subject, pretty engrossed in its reading. She looked up and waved at me as I made my way to her seat.
Just thinking about the whole scenario between Rachael and me kept me in a state I cannot decipher. 'I WILL BE LEAVING,' those words of her's only brought many questions to my mind. I felt as if a load was on my body the moment she spilled those words. I could not help but fake a smile after she told me she would be leaving Beatitude College after our 3rd term. She is going for G.C.E( GENERAL CERTIFICATE EXAMINATION),( an examination that can be sought for admission into higher education,)which after getting a good result would be used for her higher education. I only wish her all the best even though 99℅ part of me kept hoping she does not leave soon. She is one in a million, someone with tolerance, love, patience, and intelligence. She alongside Joshua and Gloria has made my stay here at Beatitude less stressful and more memorable for me.******* After the 3rd term examination, we were cho
I suddenly felt my body turned to jelly as I leaned on the wall, feeling weak. Was I having feelings for the same-sex that could lead to homosexual acts? My face turned sour immediately."Oyedele, are you okay?" Rachael's voice broke me out of my misery reasoning.I tried to stand straight but I felt glued to the wall."I'm fine, I just felt a little bit weak, that is all," I replied."You do not look okay to me, did you undergo any stress?" she asked again.
I felt my breath hitch at every step he took, as I moved back slowly until my right leg hit a desk. I looked into his eyes trying to be courageous but the truth is that my legs have turned to jelly as they could lose their stance anytime soon.I could not analyze what he was going to do but the only thing that came to my uneasy mind was that he was going to slap me hard. The thought that he is muscular gives me creeps as it won't take any stress for him to beat me up, especially in an empty class with just three of us.I unexpectedly felt his warm hands around my waist as he engulfed me in his arms. I tried to think of ' a million reasons why he was hugging me this tight but I could not think straight. I felt my whole body on him, his cologne smearing my nose,
This is going to be fun, "I thought as I pulled Khaleed to my side. I cannot afford to lose 500 naira." I agree to the terms and conditions. In the Chelsea club, we have Mount, Hodoi, Kante, Abraham, and Zuma. For the Arsenal club, we have David Luiz, William, Lacazette, Bukayo Saka, and Nicholas Pepper, "I stated as they all wore a shocked look.I collected the 500 naira from Khaleed without wasting much time. Quadri pulled me " Hero, please give me the money back. I was just joking around," he begged as Khaleed and Paul also joined in begging me to release the money."Quite hilarious. We both agreed, so just stop begging me. You are embarrassing me," I stated as I left their midst, an idea popping into my
"I... I was at the bridge of saying those four words 'I will miss you ' when I felt a hand round my shoulder.I turned a little only to see Joshua with a smug smile on his face, nice rescue bro,' I thought. I can confidently say he is the only one that I use to feel comfortable with most among the boys, maybe because he is my best friend. I returned my gaze only to see Ethan wear a frown on his face. They are both cats and rats, I just hope they won't start a fight soon.Joshua is kinda annoying sometimes and he is ready to piss you off. One thing I like most about him is that he never hides th
I got to school on September 14 for the new session bubbling like a happy child, well I hope to see Rachael. She has not yet made her final decision regarding completing her secondary school here at Beatitude. She has not yet completed her GCE examination and she is not having any of her papers today so she should be in school today right?I got to my new class and selected the perfect place, the rear is good to set up two seats for Rachael and me. The assembly bell rang and I could only see a few of my classmates who did not do the GCE(GENERAL CERTIFICATE EXAMINATION) in the class, Rachael was absent that day.&