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A few more months went by and I didn't have the courage to call my mother. Was it something you wanted me to know? I can't say for sure but it blocked me and every time I tried to call it was like they didn't leave it amazing just talking sometimes gives me goosebumps.

I often wonder why all of this is not supposed to be a way out or an answer. I believe that my mother must be hating me for talking to Brian and not her, although it was only once and it's been a few months since this happened and I didn't care anymore.

There are times in life when all we need is encouragement to move forward, a little push from someone we love and honestly I never got from my mother other than doing what she wanted or thought was best for her and forgetting that life it was mine alone. Advising and encouraging through words of affection, wisdom and gratitude is even more complicated when you want to be that person. I never demanded things from my mother knowing she wouldn't give it to me and when I gr