__________________________________________...Rowan shut me up and took me home. Though I kept protesting, even I wanted nothing more than to come home and lock myself up in my room.I had just received the best news of my life and I was here trying to hide it from everyone when I should be screaming it out at the top of my lungs.All through the ride back home, I thought where all of us stood in all this. I don't know what Rowan was planning. I just knew that he was trying to make it seem like he was smitten with me or something.Oh, wait.I sat down on the bed.That's it.That's what he wants.He wants to make it seem like he is smitten with me so that when the divorce happens, no one thinks it is his fault.Wow.This man really was something else. And Ashton was in on it, which was the worst part. No, that was not the worst part. The worst part was that I had played right into it and went ahead and even slept with him multiple times. If it was not for me overhearing the phone ca
__________________________________________...One minute Rory was roasting me with her witty comments and the next thing I knew, my wife was a sobbing mess."Baby!!" I wrapped my arms around her trying to comfort her. I may not be an experienced father and I have seen enough shows and movies to know that this was her hormones.My baby was pregnant with our baby and I had to take care of her and- Ouch!She elbowed me in the gut and pushed me away from her."Go. Away. Rowan!" She glared at me.Okay, she was angry now. And anger was not good for the baby. I needed to calm her down."Alright alright... Whatever you want, pumpkin!" I held my hands up in surrender. "But won't you tell me what's wrong?" I asked her."You. You are what is wrong!" She yelled at me. And then she stopped crying, wiping away her tears and turned to the ice cream. What just happened? Get it together, Rowan. This is what is going to happen for eight-nine months from now on. "Did I do something to piss you off?"
___________________________________..."But I want to hear it from you."I stared at him for a good few moments. Why was he so desperate to hear it from me when he already knew about the pregnancy?I sighed. I could do whatever I wanted to do but I could not change the fact that this piece of shit was the father of my child and no matter what I said to justify it, he had the right to know.In this case, he already knew. But I still had the duty to tell him."I am six weeks pregnant."His face lit up for a moment before it turned into one of confusion."Six weeks?" He asked.I narrowed my eyes at him. Was he doubting me?I wanted to scream at him that I was not a vile cheater like him. But after a good cry and a few scoops of ice cream, I was feeling much more rational and also generous so I simply nodded."Doctors make an estimate of gestation period based on the last menstrual period." I shrugged. "If you have any doubts, the doctor will tell you the exact date of conception on th
_______________________________...There was no way we were getting a divorce, not if I could help it. I paced the guest room as I chewed on my fingertips, worrying about how I was going to change Rory's mind about this whole situation. "You have no one to blame but yourself for the situation." I did not need my best friend on face-time to tell me that I had fucked up. I knew it very well myself. But as always, Ashton had to point out the obvious. I had not told him about the baby yet. I needed to discuss with my wife when she would be ready to break the news to her friends and her family. This was her body and she had the first right to make any decisions regarding this pregnancy. I am pretty sure she needed her own time to tell me about the pregnancy but she had lost the chance and had to disclose it to me faster than she had anticipated or liked, I was not ready to let any other decision be taken away from her. "So what made you change your mind about the divorce?" Ashton a
____________________________________...In the past three months, Rowan and I had done great job in convincing each and every one of our friends and family that we were actually giving our relationship a try, so much so that Gaby, Eric and Zoe who knew the truth had also started to believe that we had worked things out and were blissfully happy. No one knew that this was far from the truth. I paced my room as I waited for the rest of my family and friends to get here. We were announcing the pregnancy to them tonight.I sighed.I had let Rowan move back to the main bedroom. I mean, what was the point in separate bedrooms when I was letting him do as he pleases anyway?I was so ashamed of myself for being so spineless. But the fact remained that, as Cristina Yang said, being aware of your crap and actually getting over that crap were two completely different things.I was absolutely aware of my crap, yes, but I still refused to get over it.I needed to have more self-respect."What
_______________________ . . . "What changed?" Rowan asked as he followed me to the guest room, where I was dragging my suitcase. He tried to take it from me but I wouldn't let go. "We were fine just this morning so I would really like to know what happened in the last twelve hours that made you change your mind?" "I never changed my mind." I stopped, mainly because I was already exhausted from rolling a suitcase twenty feet away. "I was always clear that I would get a divorce from you after the end of the one-year contract." "Yeah, but don't you think it's high time you changed your mind then?" Rowan was getting agitated by the second, his voice rising in ways I did not like. "You slept with me, multiple times, and got knocked up with MY baby. And now you are saying you want a divorce?" "Yes." I was tired and I didn't want to yell. "We were always clear about the divorce, Rowan. Don't act like you are hearing it for the first time." Rowan stared at me for a good few moments, hi
___________________..."I don't know what's wrong. I don't know what I did wrong." I told Zoe as soon as we reached the balcony. "We were fine just this morning and all of a sudden she is talking about divorce."Zoe scoffed and crossed her arms across her chest. "You both were never fine. Maybe for a moment there, she might have faltered and fallen for your shit but it seems to me she is back in her element and wants nothing to do with you."I gaped at her. I thought she was team happily ever after. But no, she was probably the one feeding all the poison against me to my wife."What is your problem?" I asked her. "Why are you against us being happy?""Oh, I am all for my friend's happiness, buddy. It is you who I have a problem with. You don't deserve her." If one thing I knew about Zoe Wilkins in the last few months that I had known her, was that she did not mess around.If I wanted to find what exactly was going on in Rory's mind, it would be through Zoe."What makes you say that
________________________...Why do I feel hurt? I wanted to get away from him as soon as possible anyway. What is wrong with me?This is what happens when you have hopelessly in love with a man for nine years.Listen here, two of you. I thought as I pressed both my palms to my flat underbelly. Never fall for useless pieces of shit like your Dad. And don't become a hopeless piece of shit like your mother.I felt really bad just thinking it. Just imagine how bad the situation has to be for a parent to wish that their children did not turn out like either of their parents.I needed to set an example. I needed to show my children that their mother is not some weak doormat who would stay in a relationship like this.My bags in the guestroom were still unpacked because I had spent the whole night crying to Zoe and falling asleep out of exhaustion. I felt like this was the time to move out.I really needed to do this. I had made the announcement, and everything was sooner or later going t