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There are different kinds of bruises, some visible, some invincible. People tend to confuse the two, confuse between the one that hurts the most and the one that doesn’t.The bruises on my skin could heal after a few days, they would go and anyone would think that I had probably forgotten about them. All the bruises that the bullies had created inside me would never heal or go away. I had just stopped paying attention to their wounds, but they would always b there, fresh waiting for someone to rub salt into them.I stopped in the parking lot to look behind, to confirm if the bullies were coming after me. They weren’t there, finally today, I had outdone them too, they should really be disappointed and annoyed fir getting played with a crazy girl the way they claimed.Perhaps I was really crazy, what if it was true? What if he weas just watching out for me and I couldn’t see it. What if he was really generous and really cared for me, but I couldn’t see it, couldn’t see it because my lif
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‘’I was planning to travel and explore other parts of the world, but you know we can’t go with Barbra, because of school, she has to stay to make her grades perfect and she …’’ ‘‘ Mumuuum,’’ Barbra interrupted as she uttered her name while extending the syllables. ‘‘What is wrong, we are just getting to know each other,’’ her mother argued before she decided to keep on. ‘‘But I don’t want to leave her behind, because she is an only child who is scared of being lonely,’’ she laughed the last part and I laughed too. Why was she joking with serious facts, how can someone even be scared of being lonely, was she even realistic. Loneliness was a very serious allegation, one that should never be placed on anyone, I didn’t like the way she said it but choose to keep quiet. ‘‘Oh that sounds funny, ‘ I commented, ‘‘ Do people really get lonely when they are the only child?’’ I asked again. I wanted to find out more, do some research on whether it could help to improve my situation or not,
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Every day, people ask if you are okay. A random stranger inside the bus pretends to care and ask if you are fine, because your palms are sweating, or your lips trembling, from your struggle with anxiety. But most of the time, no one does, its pretense. The moment I got into the house, I wish I didn’t, they all seemed to be in a happy mood, happy for no good reason and I feared they might want me to join them and perhaps, perhaps I wouldn’t be able to, lest they notice that my spirit has given up. ‘‘Hellooooo,’’ my father greeted as he stood up to come and say hi. I was really uncomfortable and he knew, I wasn’t up for all the happy merry, the high vibes, I wanted it low and quiet, I didn’t want anyone to recognize me. That’s how a child grows up when their mother abandons them, it’s the only way for them to cope up, you lay low and lock up all your feelings in a cage, you become numb, because feelings are useless, humans abuse them all the time, you better not have them. ‘‘Hey pa
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‘‘Beauty is all around you, all you have to do is open your eyes and see it’’ Dinner was boring as usual; it was just the sound of forks and spoons clinking on the plate as we all savored whatever was left inside our plates. The only time I ever felt alive was when I was eating. Food made me feel whole, it made feel like looking up to the next meal. There was a conversation going on around me, I made myself immune to whatever was being said, I blocked the words from reaching my ears. I had already given up, died inside a long time ago, the only thing I was doing right now was feeling up my body. I did not have a soul. I focused on the sounds the fork and knife made as it hit my plate and objectified my food as I became totally absent from everything that was happening around me. A hand tapped my shoulder and I gasped loudly in shock. ‘‘Sorry, but are you okay?’’ It was my step mama again, what was she even trying to do, by being good to me out of the blue. ‘‘I am fine,’’ I repli
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Life is a series of choices; it is a series of choices that build up on each other like a stair case. It is the choices that make us, and every time, we are torn between options. I was torn between choices, whether to listen and follow my own inner voice or not to. ‘‘End it, the suffering just end it once and for all,’’ my inner voice kept on whispering begging me to do what it was saying. I gathered all the strength and courage that I had left and stood up slowly from where I was laying down. Next, I picked up a clean sheet of paper and a pen before sitting down to do whatever I should have done ages ago. The shaking had ended and there were till some little tremors shooting up my arms and whole body. I wasn’t a cruel person, I never wanted to be cruel ever. I never wanted to do to people the things they did to me. I would always leave without a good bye. I wasn’t sure about reincarnations, if they were real or fake. But for all I knew, I could never comeback once I had died. Re
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I pushed the large window to open fully and watched as he jumped in with a loud thud. ‘‘Be silent, someone is going to hear you,’’ I warned in a whisper as I suppressed a little girls giggle. It felt I was torn between leaving my window open so the bully could witness everything. He always made sure he gave me lessons at love with his little conquests every day, by leaving his window open, and putting the lights on so could watch every little detail, every single step as they kissed with him lifting his small whores against and doing all kinds of stuff to them. like I was cheating on him, so I pulled the window closed and turned around. ‘‘Heeeeeeey,’’ he greeted again as he pulled me into a warm hug. ‘‘Heey, ‘’ I greeted back as I hugged him too. ‘‘You smell so nice,’’ he commented as he pulled me closer to inhale his masculine scent. ‘‘Your cologne is also awesome,’’ I complemented, ‘‘What is it called?’’ I asked even though was sure that I would forget the name as soon as he
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Sometimes all you need is a little love. A big hug, and someone to care. It heals the soul, repairs wounds that are beneath the skin and makes someone want to live again. ‘‘Tell me, what is it like?’’ Cage asked. ‘‘What is what like?’’ I laughed back. We were sitting in a position that I still couldn’t believe. Vince should probably see this, see me happy, see someone treating me like a human being. I wanted a picture of this moment, I wanted to remember it so that the next time the bullies threw a fracas or decided to belittle me, I would literally through the image on their faces and run. Nothing slaps differently and hits hard like seeing your enemy happy, that is why the ice cream incident affected them so much. ‘‘ I mean being you, sleeping in this big bed like a princess and having a magnificent view of the town and street from your window, I can’t imagine,’’ he said as he tickled my nose. He was laying on my bed with his back, with a billow over his lap and me laying on
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I pulled the window down and drew back the curtains before standing on that position for a while , while just inhaling and exhaling the air around e. It was full of Cage, his scent everything. Perhaps all we need is a little lo9ve, all humanity needs is a little love to save it form drowning some one to care, someone to hug and hold your hand. I coiled in bed and hugged the balloon he had brought. It was laying on my chest with my hands draped around it as it felt warm. He was the sign, a sign form heaven above, a miracle, everything that I had hoped I would have but was too sacred to admit. I pulled up the sheets and turned off the bedside lamp, before closing my eyers. The balloon was still in my arms and my head was supported on the part of the bed where Cage had been sitting, it felt different, it felt better, it still smelt of him, it made me want to try again. *** It was another morning, a Saturday. Saturdays always felt so boring, boring because I was always stuck at home
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