Chapter 4: Promises

Chapter 4: Promises

Jasmine POV

“I was pregnant. “I covered my face using my hands. I’m shaking, and I can’t stop sobbing. The only person I am with, with whom I can share my sadness, my pain, and my thoughts, is gone. My best friend died, and now, I am pregnant with Travis’ baby. I was so blind that I couldn’t think of him cheating on me.

What about those promises? I feel weak, I don’t know how to get up, I’m so upset right now. I feel like the world is playing me for doing this to me.

How could Travis do this? What about that night? How could he play me so well that I didn’t even get suspicious of him? I love Travis more than everything in this world, more than myself, but how could I possibly fix things when he started to ruin us?

And now, I don’t know what to do. His Parents hated me so much that they couldn’t accept me. I just want my baby to have a Father, isn’t that right?

My world was spinning so fast, I don’t hate this baby, I just hated the fact that I didn’t know earlier what he’s been doing to me.

I wiped my tears and held my tummy.

“I–I’ 'm sorry,” I covered my mouth. Damn it! What should I do now? I can’t do this alone. I get a glass of water and drink it. My heart aches, and I feel dizzy.

I went to my room and lay down on my bed. I remember the divorce paper. It was her mom who gave it to me. Maybe Travis doesn’t love me anymore.

And that woman who’s hand wrapped around his arm, that Girl my best friend referred to in her letter. I don’t want to get mad at her for hiding that truth from me. I—I can’t just accept that Travis threw what we had for years for her.

I know I’m nothing compared to her. Her looks tell how rich she is and how Travis and her were really for each other. But why? Why do I have to experience this? Why does he need to make me feel this?

“I love you Travis, I love you so much, I endure those years that you kept on ignoring me, when you forgot our anniversaries, how you treated me like I didn’t exist, but why do you have to make me suffer for years if you don’t love me anymore? If you’re already seeing someone?” I can’t help but cry all day.

The divorce agreement that I signed is to prove that I am no longer his wife. Yes, I signed it without hesitation, but I still can’t deny that after what he did, I still love him. 

Yes, it’s hard to unlove someone I spend the rest of my life with. It’s hard to let go, but I’m so tired. I’m so mad at him for doing this to me.

“Baby, I’m sorry you won’t have a complete family. But don’t worry—no matter what happens, I am here. I can do this without Travis, without her family. I’m sorry your mom kept on crying—it’s just that—I’m so hurt, baby. Just give me time to heal. I will do everything for you, for us. “I force myself to smile.

My best friend was gone, and Travis and I were divorced. It’s only you and me now, baby.

“I don’t have anything but you now, baby. Don’t worry; I won’t leave you. I will raise you. I will be your mother and father. “I smoothed my tummy and fixed myself afterwards.

“I love you. I will never abandon or get an abortion just because we’re no longer together. You are my life now, and I will never let anyone hurt you. “I stood up while wiping my tears on my chicks.

Travis has nothing to do with you now. And he doesn’t have the right to know that I am pregnant. He chose that woman over us. 

 My phone rang, but I didn’t answer it. It kept on ringing five times, but I wasn’t in the mood to answer it.

I know he’s also mourning his sister’s death, and he just wanted to fulfil his sister’s wish before she died. But I don’t want to disturb anyone right now. Besides, Diego and I were not close, and I just saw him twice for years.

His intention was to help me. Aside from making his sister’s wish come true, I don’t want to talk with anyone right now. I’m so tired of people coming and leaving. I don’t want to be left alone again.

What I am experiencing right now is too much, and I don’t want to get involved with Diego.

My phone stopped ringing, and I went to check it. He had six missed calls. I sigh while trying to figure out how to start again.

After what happened, I rented a small apartment, which is the only thing I can afford right now.

“Don’t worry, baby. I will find a job. I have to make a living and save money for us. “I couldn’t help but cry. This is not what is supposed to happen.

“You are supposed to have a happy family. I’m sorry, and I am afraid of everything. I’m afraid that I won’t give you life and things in the future. But I promise I will do everything I can.” I let out a heavy sigh.

“I love your father, but we can’t do anything about it right now-” I stood up and got my phone while my eyes swelled up with tears.

I wiped my face and fixed my hair. I have to be brave; I have to be for my baby.

But when I opened my phone, I regretted it in an instant. I sat down on the floor, holding my tummy.

“They were engaged?” I covered my mouth, trying not to burst out crying.

“How could you do this to me, Travis?”