I woke up with a serious headache. I couldn’t get myself to fall asleep at all last night.
You know when something weird happened and you are really tired but you just can't sleep because your brain keeps racing.
I heard a knock on the door. Then someone opened it.
"Hey, you're ready for school?" Toby asked, leaning by the door frame. His voice is low and soft. Different from any other mornings when he’d usually force me to wake up with his loud and annoying voice.
"Can I just skip school today? I don't feel well." I asked, still laying on the bed.
Toby sat on the edge of my bed. "You okay?"
"No."
"Don't overthink about it." Toby said quietly.
"I’m just really confused," I whined. “I should be happy that the Alpha wants me as his mate, but the fact that i did not feel anything is rather disappointing and confusing.” i groaned before covering my face with my blanket.
“Don’t say that, anyone would be lucky to have you as their mate, Mitz.” Toby stood up and smiled at me. "Don't worry. I will talk to Alpha Flynn and...i don't know, settle things down. Okay?" He said. "You just stay here and get some sleep. You’re turning into a freaking Panda." He teased then walked out of my room.
I put the pillow over my face and screamed out loud, trying to take away this heaviness from my head.
I close my eyes again, trying so hard to sleep but still can't. I've stayed in my bed for 3 hours now since Toby left.
I finally decided to get up from my bed and took a shower. I walked down the stairs and headed to the kitchen because I know my mom is there.
As I expected, my mom was cooking in the kitchen.
"Mom.."
My mom turned her body to face me and her face turned sad all of the sudden. "Oh, honey. Are you okay?" she opened her arms to me. I walked to her and hugged her. I just sighed. "Sit.. i made soup." She said. I sat at one of the chairs and she put a plate of mushroom soup infront of me.
I started to eat and my mom just staring at me with a small sad smile at her face.
"I'm okay, mom."
"You look tired." Well, i am tired.
"I'm fine. I just didn't get much sleep last night." I didn't sleep at all actually. I sighed and covered my face with both of my hands. "Mom, what did you feel the first time you meet dad?"
She smiled softly. "I...i know right away that he is my mate. My heart started to beat really fast and i just want to be with him all the time. Even when he was sweating like a pig, he smelled like mint." She explained with a sad face. Dad died 4 years ago. It must be hard for her to go back and remember all these things. But i just need to know what is it really like to find a mate. "Did you... uhm, did you not feel anything when you saw Alpha Flynn for the first time?"
I shook my head no. "Nothing. Nothing but fear. He was so...intimidating and he stormed out of nowhere." I supplied, looking down at the mushroom soup, just keep stirring it with the spoon in my hand. "I don't know, maybe i was just surprised."
"Mitz, I'm just guessing, okay? But is it possible that....you can't recognize your mate because you haven't shifted yet?" She raises both of her eyebrows then she shakes her head. "Oh, no, no, no... that's stupid. Just forget what i just said, okay?"
"No, mom..." i look at her surprised. "T-that actually makes a lot of sense. That makes sense... maybe Alpha Flynn really is my mate." I stood up from my seat and kissed my mom on the cheek.
I never really thought that i have a mate. I thought that i will live my life alone forever, just like what everyone expects. But maybe I was wrong, maybe they are all wrong.
I went back to my room and mind l**k Toby immediately.
"Toby..."
"Yea, Mitz?" He answered back.
"Where are you?"
"Alpha's office."
"Is something bad happening?"
"So far, he seems chill. Why?"
"I'm going there right now."
"What? Why?"
"I have something to say..."
"Then I will come home now. Just stay there."
"No, I also need to talk to the Alpha."
I took my phone and put my jacket on. I went back downstairs.
"Mom, can i borrow your car?" I shouted.
"Where are you going? You want me to drive you?" She shouted back. I can hear her footsteps.
"No, it's okay. I can drive on my own. Okay bye!" I said quickly, I walked out of the house with my mom's car key. I head to mom's car and started to drive.
"Mitz, where are you?" Toby asked suddenly.
"On the way."
"Stop the car now." He sounds serious.
"What's wrong?"
"We need to talk." I slowly stopped the car.
"I'm just about 5 minutes away from the pack's house that we went to yesterday."
"Oh, near the lake?"
"Yes."
"Stay there!"
"Okay."
I'm starting to get really nervous. Toby is not a serious person but he sounded very serious. Then i saw Toby, in his wolf form, heading to my car. I got out from the car and open the back door.
"Shift back inside of the car. I don't want to see you naked." I said honestly. Toby is always careless about me seeing him naked. But no, not today Toby, not today.
I heard he growled, but he got into the the car still in his wolf form. His gigantic body struggle to even fit into the back seat of the car. i waited outside until he came out in his human form, dressed.
I turned my body to face him. "What's wrong?"
"What exactly do you want to say to The Alpha?" He asked, looking really serious.
"Well, mom came up with this idea that, maybe, Alpha Flynn might really be my mate." I explained.
"But, you clearly didn't feel anything yesterday." he responded.
"I know. But maybe, that's because i haven’t shifted yet. That makes sense right? I can't recognize him as my mate because i don't have a wolf. But he recognized me as his mate immediately because he has his wolf with him."
"That doesn't make sense." He said without hesitation.
"What?" i’m actually disappointed to hear that from Toby. He could at least give this theory the benefit of a doubt.
"I mean, i don't know." Toby brushed his hand over his hair. Then he looks at me, and suddenly he pulls me to his arms and hugs me tightly. "Mitz, you can't be with him."
"Toby.. are you being serious right now? Why?" I pushed his chest rather offended by his statement. He let go of me, looking disappointed. "Don’t you think it kinda makes sense?”
"Even if your theory was true, you still don’t want to be with him."
"Then tell me, why can't i be with him?" i demanded with my voice a bit raised. "Toby, why?"
"Do you want to know what happened to your real parents?" he looked straight to my eyes and took a deep breath.
My heart dropped.
“What?” I asked, still in shock. Toby never said anything about my parents, I thought he didn’t know anything about them."Let't get inside of the car and talk." He said, leads me to the car. He sits on the driver seat and i sit next to him. "Mitz, you okay?""Toby, what do you know about my parents?" I demanded, looking at him straight in the eyes."I remember, it was about 10 years ago. There was a couple who came and seek for our help, saying that they were from a small pack from the North who got attacked by some rogues and they had a little girl with them, it was you, Mitz.. We took them in, thinking that it was the right thing to do. Alpha Flynn had only been an alpha for about a year. Then, out of nowhere, your father challenged the young Alpha Flynn for the Alpha position. Alpha Flynn was furious, i mean, your parents were new comers, we helped them,
Alpha Flynn positioned himself between my legs and he started to lean down. His hands are still around my ankle."No!" I spat as I flipped my body so my back was facing him and tried to crawl as far as I could. My hand reached the edge of the bed but Alpha Flynn pulled my waist and he pinned my body to the bed with his front. He was breathing heavily and his body temperature was not normal at all. It was way too hot."No! Let me go you prick!" I screamed. His body was all over my back and I couldn't move at all. My hands are still trying to reach the edge of the bed but then he grabbed both of my hands and pinned them down over my head."I told you, you should know your limits." He whispered to my neck. He kissed the back of my neck and I shivered nervously."Let me go.." I screamed as he kissed the spot just below my ear and sucked down. I can't help but moa
I wake up to someone shifting below me. I opened my eyes slowly, realizing I am laying on top of Alpha Flynn. I remember crying my eyes out all night. I’ve been stressed that I just needed to let it all out.My neck feels sore from sleeping on top of the Alpha. I slowly lifted myself up, trying my hardest not to wake the big bad wolf underneath me. His eyes are closed and I take a close look at him. He is usually very scary, it’s really weird seeing him in such a vulnerable state like this.I shook my head a bit after realising that i was gazing at him. I took a deep breath before finally stepping on the wooden floor and to the bathroom, the blanket is still covering my body since last night.
I somehow managed to convince him to let me go to school today. He went downstairs to prepare some breakfast for us and let me prepare myself for school which I really appreciate.The small acts of service he is giving me is very strange to see since our pack is still very much following the traditional gender roles beliefs. So seeing an alpha cooking in the kitchen is quiet an unusual sight.I walked to the bathroom and made sure that I locked the door. I can’t be too careful around him.I stripped down and went under the shower. There are bruises all over my body and they are not completely healed yet. They’re not as painful as they look but it usually takes me a while to heal from these kinds of bruises. He hurt me pretty badly. What the heck did he do exactly?
The kitchen is now a complete mess. I sat there in silence for few minutes before kneeling down, a bit shaking, and took some pieces of the broken plates and glasses with my hands. I didn't realize how scared I was until I saw tears falling to the floor."Just leave it there." Suddenly Alpha Flynn returned, kneeling down next to me and took my hands. Then he wrapped my arms around his neck and lifted me up bridal style so that i won’t step on any of the sharp pieces. I'm too afraid to actually talk back to him right now."I'm sorry that I scared you." He whispered. He walked us to the living room and put me on the couch. "You know that I will never hurt you right?"I shrugged, feeling mentally manipulated. He keeps changing his mood and i feel like i am w
I opened my eyes and i have a really bad headache. I couldn't see clearly at first but then after blinking a couple of times, my head stopped spinning around.Toby was there sitting by the edge of the bed, looking at me. "Are you okay?"I looked around and I'm laying in my bed. My real bed."Uh, what time is it?" My voice cracked."It's 1. You passed out for hours."I tried to get up from my bed but Toby stopped me. "Wow.. just lay down." He covered my body with a blanket. "Your sweater is torn apart and mom isn't here, she's taking care of grangran because she's sick. And I thought that maybe you would want to change clothes yourself." I can see Toby is blushing. I mean it's pretty normal. We&rsqu
Warning: Sexual Scenes in this chapter! Read at your own risk. You can just skip this chapter if you don't want to read the detailed sex scenes and the point of this chapter will be explained just enough on the next chapter. Thank you xxThe sky was dark by the time I woke up. I got up from my bed and I'm still wearing the ripped sweater from this morning. I stepped out of the bed and walked to the wardrobe to find something that maybe I could wear. I took out a plain white sweater and it has Alpha Flynn's scent all over it. But it's better than wearing this ripped sweater that barely covers anything anymore.I also took off my pants since the sweater is too big and fell just below my knee. I stepped outside of the room, not knowing what I should do. This house is just too big, clearly too big for Alpha Flynn to live by himself. Sudd
"Mommy loves you." That woman said.The same exact dream again. I opened my eyes, feeling really really hot. I looked around and i'm in Alpha Flynn's bedroom. I gasped when I realized there are two strong arms gently wrapped around my waist. I turned my body around slowly and saw Alpha Flynn sleeping peacefully. How can he look this peaceful when he is sleeping? His lips are slightly parted and he doesn’t look tense like he usually is 90% of the time.Wait, what the hell? I shook my head to get me out of my sick head. What am I even thinking about?Then I tried to get up but Alpha Flynn's arms wrapped around me even tighter. That's when I know