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CHAPTER 53
ASTRALLAINE'S POV
"Are you good?"
I looked up at Simon when he put bowl of food in the center of the table. He invited me to have dinner with him in a restaurant that was near our place.
"Yes," I smiled at him. I just said that because I do not want to talk more about the past. I am done with it. I am already over with it. The things that has happened in the past should never be brought up back.
I do not want to remember how I ran away just to get away from the pain that is already trying to kill me. I do not have enough money to go away, but Simon helped me.
"Where do you want to go?" Simon asked while I am heaving. I cannot even breathe normally because of the nervousness creeping my whole system.
"I... I don't know," I said and looked down. "I just want to get away from here."
He pat my shoulders. "Go with me."
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