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Reliving the Past
I tried laying down in the bed again once I got everything unload. Sleep still eluded me. The bed was cold, large and empty. I thought about calling Daisy in to lay with me, but she looked cute curled up with Olivia. Thinking that perhaps having too much space was the problem, I grabbed my makeshift pillow and blanket and headed for the couch. The couch was not very comfortable, but the exhaustion finally caught up to me and soon I drifted off to sleep.
I found myself locked in a nightmare. I was back at Jax’s house, he had just gotten released from jail. In the dream he was much taller, and his muscles were bulging. He had caught me there removing more of my stuff from the home. He had me trapped in the kitchen, as he had done so many times before. This time he had his gun with him. I could feel the cold metal once again pressed to my temple this time though he pulled the trigger.
The dream startled me awake in a cold sweat. My heart was pounding, and it felt li
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