87 : "Worries"Worries87T A T E"M-Scanty?" I stutter.She nods. "Can I come in?""I thought Gage and the other lads were off to a meeting with the management?" I ask, I honestly don't want her to come inside. I'm sure she's here to talk things with me about Gage and what I have with him."Can we talk? Preferably inside."I take a deep breath in and widened my door for her. She walks inside while her eyes were looking at everything that was inside the suite. I carefully shut the door close and followed her to the living room."How was Cardiff?" She asks and sits down on the couch even if I didn't offer her to sit."I-It was fine. Thank you." I answer as I sit across her.She nods. "I'm sure you had fun. Is Gage going to sleep here too or is he staying with his family tonight?"I press my lips together and entwined my fingers to each other."I heard you just arrived an hour ago. Has Gage mentioned how he's going to spend his four days off and where he's going to spend it?" She kept t
88 : "Love"Love88T A T E"Oh Gage I am so happy to see you again!" I watch as Gage's mother hug him tight with his step father standing right next to her.I stand here, nervous as fuck to be actually standing right in front of his parents while I was still bothered about what Mrs. Summers told me a while ago. I still can't help it not to get focused on this dinner I'm having with them."Tate?" Gage calls out.I snapped myself out from it and walked closer to Gage's arm as he laced it around me."Mum, this is Tate Kavanaugh." Gage says while he was looking at me with a smile."My girlfriend." He adds.I smile nervously at him then moved my head towards Gage's mother and stepdad. She looks at me for a while then happily smiled."I have been wanting to meet you dear." She unexpectedly hugged me and rubbed my back.She releases me and adds, "I never thought Gage would get into another serious relationship again after what happened. I'm so happy you came into his life."I laugh softly.
89 : "Im Sorry"I'm Sorry89T A T EI stare at the photo that Gage took on his Instagram. It was a photo of me in black and white, facing my back to him while I was on the jabecausezi. He just posted it three days ago and a lot of hate are already typed on it. Hate on me.But the caption that Gage typed still makes me strong despite the hatred I've been getting lately.He quote: "The view is pretty, but she's prettier."The past days, Gage spent his four-day vacation with me in a private resort where he rented the entire place only for the two of us. So basically the entire resort was ours. He didn't want some people to take photos of me being with him. He wanted me to himself before he goes to Austria and he wanted the two of us to relax together. He was also planning on bringing me along with him but I have other plans in mindThe days I spent with him alone, just proved to me that he must love me so much for doing so many things for me. He loved me so much that it frightens me of
90 : "Lionheart"Lionheart90G A G EEveryone buzzed about our well-deserve break from showbiz and I'm torn between being excited for it and not. The entire band decided to have that even though the management was totally against it.I think I needed this hiatus more than anyone else in the band. I wanna think about the things that happened lately and my contract with Scanty is almost about to end. I am sure that I won't be renewing with them and I'm signing up to Jeff Azoff's. Somewhat he's my great friend and I trust him on handling me.When we ended the OTRA Tour, it was at Sheffield on October 31st year 2015. I haven't seen Tate since we broke up last June 9th and it was the most tragic. Every time we have a day off from all the touring, I always go to New York to see her and maybe talk things with her even if New York was way far from where I was staying. I always find time for her but she didn't.After we broke up, Tate had left her apartment without me knowing it. I talked to
91 : "A Happy Day"A Happy Day91T A T EI ring the doorbell.But no one answers.I tried to ring the doorbell again."I hear you! I'm coming!"I take a deep breath in as soon as the door swings open, I see Monique standing right in front of me. She seemed shock to see me and I was hell sure she was surprised. I've gone for a few months without telling her where I was."Oh my gosh you bitch you're alive!" She screams at my face before she threw herself at me and hugged me tight."Hey. I missed you." I tell her."You're such an asshole for leaving everyone behind including Gage!" She smacks my arm."I'm sorry." I pulled myself away from her.She sighs. "And your hair's already long too."I smile."Gage's been so worried sick of you. He kept coming over. He kept asking me about you. And do you know that he comes here just to make sure you come back because he was so sure you'll be returning?" She narrates.She looks at me worriedly."Can I even come in so we can talk things over privat
92 : "Drunk & High"Drunk & High92T A T EThe loud music was busting up these four walls of the club, it was pretty pretty loud almost deafening to the ears. I can't even hear my own thoughts, it's crazy. Most men were into groups of four to many were all busy drinking and chattering. Most slut looking women that were around were dancing up against a man or two that they probably just met while I'm here drowning myself with troubles and pain.I groan as I take a long drink from my third glass of tequila. Third glass, believe that! And I've never been a tequila fan. I swear I was really planning on getting drunk tonight because of one thing and that's because I was so so so stupid for letting Gage slip away."Has he commented yet?" Monique asks.I shake my head and pouted."Did he even hit you up?" She asks again.I sigh heavily. "Nothing!"I've been keeping on refreshing and refreshing my Instagram account but not even a single notification that was coming from Gage popped out and i
93 : "Saviour"Saviour93T A T EI groan as I began to shift on the mattress.I feel my head so heavy as soon as I slightly opened my eyes. It felt as if some piles and piles of blocks were taped on top of my forehead overnight or someone must have slapped me with a plywood on my face from last night.God I'm having massive headache and I just woke up. I don't even feel like leaving my bed or my apartment today. I felt my headache coming from the back of my head, down to my nape, up to my temples, to my eyebrows and down to the inner corners of the eyes. It felt like my head was going to burst. But aside from headache, I also feel intensely thirsty, like my throat had run dry and I haven't had water for three years.I tug my blanket up to my chin as I felt my room's temperature getting colder. I never thought my room would be this cold, I don't even have aircon. I shift to my other side to look for an window that must have been left open and as I try to open my eyes wider to take a c
94 : "Timing"Timing94T A T EBy six fifty-seven in the evening, someone rang my doorbell. I hurriedly walked to it and fixed myself first before opening it.There stands Eli with a huge smile on his face and a bottle of wine on his hand. "Hi. I'm three minutes early." He says.I chuckle. "Hey. It's fine. Come in." I widened the door for him and he walks inside my house."Wow. You have a lovely home Tate." He complimented."Ah, thanks. I haven't been here since... I don't know.. June?" I shrug. "I'll take that wine?"He hands it to me and accepted it with both hands. "I haven't done making the pasta though. Is pasta fine with you?" I asked."Sure. Let me help you around the kitchen."I hear his footsteps following me to the kitchen and as soon as I placed the wine inside the fridge, Eli was already standing by the kitchen counter. "I didn't know you cook." He says."My mom was... Ummm... She loved cooking and uhhh this is her favorite dish to make. You'll get to taste the side of Sp