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Cuts and bleeds.
When you think that you’ve had enough… that life can’t get any more worse then it just throws a big rock at you… one that might crush even the little hope that you have been holding onto. That’s life. It will never leave you alone until you learn the lesson… until you learn to endure, accept, let go and move on. In case if you ever try to just run away without dealing with your problems. It will catch up to you eventually. I read this somewhere, and that is one of the things that resonated with me at that time ‘If you never heal from what hurt you, you'll bleed on people who didn't cut you.’
The next morning I drove to my office thinking whether I should go send Vian and Jay off to LA or should I just pretend that I didn’t care. Thinking that I will not be able to see them for a month didn’t sit well with me. God, what happened to me? I was ok for seven years without meeting them but here I am whining to myself not being able to see them for just a month.OnRelated chapters
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