“Remember this, Ava. Remember I am your first and I intend to be your first in everything.” He said stroking my cheeks and took steps backward… further away after a kiss on my forehead.
Have you ever felt like erasing something from your life? It was the one thing that you have wanted for your whole life yet when it’s in your hands you feel like abandoning it and run away. Something inside you keeps shouting at you to turn your back and walk away.
That’s how I felt that night after Vian left my bedroom. I walked away to get to the door after begging him with my eyes not to leave. I looked back one last time before I turn the knob of the door somehow knowing that he wouldn’t be there. As expected I heard a loud thud outside my window and I know he is gone… just like that.
“Hey, Aves.” Jay was standing in front of my door half asleep with disheveled hair.
 
I couldn’t concentrate on anything else after that. My mind was a mess thinking about the events of last night and that morning. I was confused with my action and ashamed of myself.So I sneaked out of my school during the third period unable to withstand Ryan’s good mood and his questions about my low spirits. I just needed some space, from everything. Suddenly my life felt so stuffy.I wandered around the streets aimlessly trying to run away from my problems. I know they will catch up to me eventually, but I just needed this feeling to be free… however short it might be.I came back to school after hours once I know there will be no one at school. I sat under my favorite tree and started writing my journal to unfurl the complexity of my mind. I always felt like I could think clearly after I wrote everything in my journal.“I thought I would find you here.” I heard Rya
Finally, the day arrived, the day that my boyfriend and my best friends were looking forward to. The Interschool basketball competition. They are competing with our rival school, Hilton high school. Like I’ve mentioned before our school has never won for the past ten years but they have been practicing hard to win the cup this time.Vian and Jay haven’t talked to me yet. They’ve been avoiding me since that day using the excuse of practice for the game. I tried to convince them that it won’t happen again and apologized for it numerous times for what happened, but they still avoided me like I am an infestation.I know why they are angry. It’s not that I wasn’t there for the party but I forgot to spend time with my friends after I started dating Ryan and gave them the wrong idea that Ryan’s more important to me than them.I realized my mistake, and I have been trying to make amends since then but they are being stubbo
I have been thinking about what Hazel said to me. What did she mean when she said don’t trust Ryan? I was racking my mind to at least guess what she meant but nothing.Since the day Ryan and I started dating, he didn’t give me a single reason to doubt him. I thought he was always sweet and a gentleman. There is not one thing to point out something about Ryan to doubt as far as I know. He is a perfect boyfriend.But now as my mind was thinking all kinds of possibilities after I talked to Haze, I can’t help but think that what if he was just acting perfect. Jay and Vian warned me numerous times to stay away from him but I never once thought why. I always assumed that it was just because that they don’t like each other.We drove in silence to Jackson’s house where the party was going on. Ryan was drowned in his happiness of their victory, so he didn’t notice my change of mood or he let me be because he thought that I was upset ab
Vian’s POVI was so angry at Ava that night that I didn’t want to see her face anymore. How could she forget Grandma’s birthday? The fact that she forgot about it because of Ryan made me furious. Since she started dating, she’s been spending less time with me and Jay and I just missed her so much.I knew that she avoided me mostly because I was going out with Hazel but we weren’t really dating. It was just a ruse, and I couldn’t tell her that because Hazel made me promise not to tell her. It wasn’t my secret to tell anyone.When I was in a fight with Jay and was avoiding everyone including Ava, one day Hazel approached me. At first, she was just being nice to and invited to have coffee with her. I wasn’t interested, but I didn’t want to hurt her by rejecting her straight away.I tried to avoid it by giving her some excuse but she insisted on meeting her there saying that she has
“I am so sorry… but he made me do it.”“Hazel, what did you do?” something inside me warned that whatever it is that I am not going to like it.She hesitated, but I forced her to tell the truth. I was horrified and infuriated when I heard everything she said and I was on my way to Ava before I let the matter sink in, not bothering to listen to Hazel’s apologies.Hazel told me that Jackson was planning to drug Ava and film her as he did to hazel. He blackmailed Hazel to keep me occupied or away from Ava when he came to know that I was attending the party. She also saw Ryan leaving the party with Nina which was suspicious. That explains why Ava is alone.To imagine something happening to her was unnerving and I drove as fast as I can to reach her before something happens. I searched for her everywhere at the party but I couldn’t find her. It alleviates the fear in me when I found her lying on the bed in one o
Ava’s POV I woke up with the worst headache of my life and saw my Grandma sitting beside me with a funny glare. I should tell her sometimes that she wasn’t intimidating at all when she is angry especially with that glare. I tried to sit on the bed but suddenly I felt needle pricks inside my head making me groan and then I remembered last night's party but I couldn’t remember how I got home. “I am sorry Grandma… it isn’t what you think.” I tried to explain supporting my throbbing head with my hand. I was afraid that she might misunderstand all of this and tell my mom that I got drunk because I am pretty sure that I didn’t drink any alcohol last night. “I know… I know. Vian told me everything, that you mistakenly drank someone else’s drink. How careless can you be, Ava? To drink from someone else’s cup.” She was going on and on not allowing me to speak. But I was surprised that
“Where were you last night?” I questioned Ryan. He blinked and hesitated for a moment before getting up from the ground. He grabbed my shoulder and leaned down a bit to my height to look me in the eyes. Part of me didn’t want to know the answer. I was afraid that he would admit that he lied to me. I just wanted him to give me some excuse or something to prove Vian wrong. Meanwhile, Jackson got up from the ground and tried to leave the place. “Ava, I am so sorry that I lied but it’s not what you think. I would never do something like that to hurt you. I will explain everything later.” He ran to follow Jackson after saying that leaving me alone. Yet again I was left in the dark with so many questions. I don’t know what everyone is talking about or hiding from me. I don’t understand how I am involved in all of this but somehow they succeeded in making me feel guilty for so
My entire world collapsed, and I was standing there listening to him in terror when Ryan told me everything. I couldn’t imagine how a person could be this vile. I know Jackson, but I never thought even he would do something like this. Ryan also told me how if it wasn’t for Vian that would have succeeded. He also apologized for lying to me about the call with his mom and confessed that he was Nina that night because she asked for his help. “I just didn’t want you to misunderstand. That’s why I lied. I am sorry Ava.” He said with regret. “Why?” I asked Jackson looking at him in disbelief. I still couldn’t believe what I heard, and I wanted to know why Jackson did what he did, after all, I am his best friend’s girlfriend. He snorted and chuckled like it was some kind of a joke. “Why? I just wanted you out of our lives.” He spat with venom in his words. “I lost my best friend because of you and I lost my girlfriend because of my best friend.” Jack