CAMILA SILVA The sea breeze coming through the window kisses my face softly. I close my eyes, letting out a simple smile as the memories take over my memory, but this time without taking away my peace, just bringing with them longing and the desire to experience it all again.Now I not only understand how I feel about Ethan, but I have accepted it. After so long fighting against it, being a hypocrite as my psychologist pointed out, I have accepted it. I am at peace with it, with my feelings, allowing me to feel lighter. I love him and my body declares this love and honestly, there is nothing more beautiful than this feeling.I know that we won't get back to the way we were before, at least not so quickly. We have a barrier that these years away have put between us, a huge abyss that we will have to face if we really want to be together. I have accepted the feeling, but it doesn't mean that in a magic wand everything will be all right.To give freedom to this feeling is to stop being
CAMILA SILVA I winked in Luisa's direction, put my headphones back on, and hurried back to my house. When we get the habit of waking up early it's over, even on our rest day we don't go as late as we would like.I had all the circumstances in my favor. The room was freezing as I like it, with the warmth of Etan's naked body right behind mine, enveloping me in a warm and cozy embrace. Even so, I woke up at half past nine in the morning. With nothing else of interest to do, I decided to go out for a run on the beach, to clear my head.I have a well-established routine, my body already does it involuntarily. I continue running quietly, listening to the wonderful Izzy la reina while watching the ocean waves. Surprisingly I felt lighter than ever, good with myself and my feelings. Accepting my feelings allowed a weight to come off my back, now I no longer have to pretend, I can be honest with myself and what I feel.I let the doorman of my building go, going up to my floor. When I get h
CAMILA SILVA I took a piece of the orange cake, putting it on the plate for Tyler to eat. I opened one of those dino danones that come in the bag, giving one to him and one to Luz. We are all sitting at the dining table, I am in the middle of the twins, helping them as I always do.I cherish these family moments. To have all of them on a Saturday morning, around a bountiful table, being able to eat whatever you want, as many times as you want, makes it all worthwhile. I remember the times, when I was a child, that we barely had an overnight bread with butter. After all, raising triplets, living in a community, was not so easy for my parents."Mama."-- Luz, with her usual sweet and gentle voice, calls out to me."Yes, my princess."-- I keep my attention on my lovely girl, seeing the beautiful smile she has on her lips.Taking me totally by surprise, the little one comes close to me, kissing my forehead and staying on my lap. She moves around a little bit, looking for the most comforta
CAMILA SILVAArraial do Cabo, my home, my second home. This place has always been my refuge, when I felt the world was about to fall apart this is where I came. Not only because of the beauty of the place, of course that helps a lot, but also because this place feels like home to me, like family.I went through many difficulties as a child, I witnessed many difficult moments. And whenever things started to get bad, my mother would send me here to stay with my family for a while until things got good again.Until today I am my Uncle Claudio's favorite niece, even though he doesn't assume much, the way he treats me is as if I were his daughter. Always doing my likes, doing everything so that I feel good and, most of all, come back there more often.It was here that I learned to love the sea, to connect with the sea. Things would tighten up and I would go to my safe spot, every wave that I broke was a problem that I overcame. At the beach I have my memories, I can disconnect from the wo
Ethan SalvatoreI thank Danielle, Camila's older cousin, taking the pharmacy bag. She offers to come in and help us in some way, but in a polite way I thank her and deny it. I wasn't there the first time, but now I want to live every moment with her. Not to mention that this is something more of a couple, even more so because the beautiful brunette is in shock about all this.I hold Camila's hands, staring at her with a smile. She stands up, interlacing our hands, and leaves the room with me, going to her aunt and uncle's room, which is a small suite. Her aunt and uncle wouldn't mind, they offered it themselves. Here we have our own bathroom, which means that we would have more privacy.I go to the kitchen, returning with a full glass of water and a bottle in case she wants more. Camila took three glasses in a row, until she felt the urge to urinate. I help her as much as I can, feeling the anxiety at absurd levels, in a way I have never felt in my life before.Camila washes her hands
Camila SilvaAs I finish getting ready, I take my body backwards, running my hand over my belly. It is slightly marked, but those who see it from the outside can't tell that it is a pregnancy. Which doesn't surprise me, after all I am only one month pregnant and yet I already love it in an unconditional way.In the pregnancy of the twins, my belly took a while to appear, but from the fourth month on I had the feeling that it was getting bigger every week. My huge belly, the constant kicking in my ribs or the feet so swollen that sometimes I even needed to drain. I really got huge.Pregnancy does have its glamorous moments, but it also has its troubles. It was a bit complicated, in some parts quite painful, but it was all worth it when I felt my little ones in my arms. An unparalleled love consumed my chest in such a way that I even forgot about the unbearable pain after a normal birth.I feel arms wrap around my waist, with hands resting right on top of my belly. I face the man throug
Camil Silva Ethan, still inert from what almost happened, gets out of the car with the best goofy look on his face. I had forgotten how he looks when he feels on cloud nine, that everything is fine, much more than great.He approached me with a beautiful smile, pinning my body against the car. As we pulled even closer together, we could feel, through his pants, the erection beginning to form. I just smiled in the most raunchy way I could, biting the bottom corner of my lips, thinking of all the things I wish to do with an old friend."You're still going to drive me crazy, Miss Silva."--- He speaks very close to my ear."That has always been my intention, Mr. Salvatore."--- I speak in the same tone as his.--- "To make you crazy for me.""I am already crazy about you.""Not enough."---I blinked in his direction, pushing him away from me.Ethan just denies with his head, holding my hand. We start walking together towards the luxurious restaurant near one of my favorite beaches in Arraia
Camila Silva "So, my love, what do you wish to do now?"--- As soon as we left the restaurant, Ethan made a point of asking me, placing me facing the ocean.I didn't say anything, just filled my lungs with air, feeling the delicious salty breeze take over me. I threw my head back, resting it on Ethan's shoulders, who didn't complain a bit, beginning to stroke my hair. Allowing myself to close my eyes and just feel.I felt the sweet cool breeze kiss my face, his caresses. To feel this night, the immensity of our feelings and our history. I emptied my mind of thoughts, past pains, worries or anything like that. I focused only on the present, on the delicious night we are having together. The two of us that, after so long, happened again. This time in a sincere way, with all the cards on the table.It is so crazy to be with him after all that has happened, after all the words that have been said and the scars that these have caused in the heart. For many I am stupid for having forgiven h