CAMILA SILVA "No doubt about it, I will be accompanied by the most beautiful woman at this wedding."--- Ethan compliments by hugging me from behind.I stare at our reflection in the mirror, letting out a silly smile. It's amazing how he is always ready to compliment me, how he knows how to use the right words, leaving me delighted with the man I have by my side. He knows how to take my breath away, how to completely disarm me and make me totally vulnerable to him, to the feeling that involves us.Through the mirror, meeting his gaze. I let out a silly smile, pulling our bodies apart, slowly turning around so that he can see my clothes completely. I am wearing a pink dress, with very loose-fitting fabric; after all, the wedding is outdoors and I want to be dressed up. It has a huge slit on the right side, coming down to my thigh. It has a very large V-neckline, showing the curvature of my breasts. To finish, its sleeves are long in the crab mouth style. And of course my good heels.My
CAMILA SILVA "Camila, you can go in, the doctor is already waiting for you."--- The receptionist speaks and I nod my head.I stand up holding my purse, grabbing the result of the blood test. I have had it for a few minutes, but I couldn't open it. I confess to being scared to death of this result, it makes me a little more nauseous just thinking that the result could be positive.I've been feeling sick for so long, with all the apparent symptoms of pregnancy. For a long time I tried to ignore it, telling myself that it was due to so much time at sea that it was not doing me any good, due to the rocking of the cruise.But yesterday, talking to my sister, she convinced me to get tested. We have been in Maldives for about four days now, but the symptoms are still there, and now a little worse. To add to my suspicion, my period is late, and it has always come on the right day.Giving in, I agreed to do what is best for me. I talked to Ethan, told him that I needed to see a gynecologist,
CAMILA SILVA I leave the coconut on the countertop, saying goodbye to Luisa, my colleague. Luisa has a kiosk by the sea, here in Ipanema. Whenever I am on one of my runs, I stop by her kiosk, drink a coconut water, or a nice cold mate, and we chat a little. Always about banal subjects.This moment, after five years of doing the same thing every day, has become part of my routine. It is something I love to do, just like running on the beach, either in the morning or near sunset. It does me good, because it is a moment that I take for myself, to reflect on how my life is going, and to take care of my body a little.I love my children, I love my family with all the strength in my being. But it is good to have this time alone, just running, having the beautiful view of the sea kissing the sand, feeling the delicious breeze drying, from my face, any drop of sweat. I am made of beach, the sea is my house, my home. No matter where I am, I need to have the ocean near me. Each of its waves a
CAMILA SILVA I finish braiding my princess, finishing everything with elastic. I made a Nago style braid, with the top of the head braided, kind of forming a bow.Sunday, here at home, we have a kind of tradition. Every Sunday morning we take our bicycles and ride along the Copacabana beachfront, which is closed on this day to pedestrians. Since we live in Ipanema, which is very close, we bike along the shore until we get to the Copacabana Fort, where we have a delicious family breakfast.We do it differently, going by car, when the weather is rainy. Other than that, we always go with our bicycles and a bikini underneath, after all we need to enjoy this beautiful sea. It is something that the children love to do. I always raised them like this, very close to the sea, since the sea is my passion, I think they pulled this love for the ocean from me."I ask the little one, opening her wardrobe, showing her her options.I am very proud to say that I work like crazy, but thanks to this
CAMILA SILVA I put on my white blazer, finally finishing getting dressed for work. Since I work for an important company, I dress accordingly, always trying to maintain a fine line between sensuality and elegance. I like to be wearing both, if at all possible.Today I am wearing white social pants, and they are fitted to my body. This way, all my curves are embraced by the fabric, not in a vulgar way, just that they beautify me. A banded top, in the same color, with the blazer coming on top giving the finishing touch. I am elegant, the way I love it, but without ceasing to be beautiful at any moment. To complete, obviously, my white high heels.My makeup is more relaxed. Just a very calm skin, some mascara on the eyelashes and a lighter lipstick. My hair is totally loose, with just the brush I did earlier today.I spray my perfume, grab my purse and leave the room. I had tidied up the kids as soon as I woke up, after that I sent them downstairs to have breakfast with my mother who al
CAMILA SIlVA As soon as I see their car pull out, I grab my things and put them in my purse. I put on my blazer again, put my unwavering face on my face, walking past my secretary just letting her know that we have adjourned for the day today, walking down to the garage. I need to go to my home, to the place I feel safe, especially close to my children.I open the back door of the Velar, placing there some of the drawings that I will take to finish at home. I leave my bag there, taking the driver's seat, put on the radio a song and go listening, enjoying my own company. When we enjoy being alone, when we learn to value our own company, that's when we are ready to enter into a relationship. So when we start in a new relationship, we will accept nothing less than to be treated in the way that we know we deserve.I myself am ready, I just haven't started because I don't feel ready. My children are in such a good phase, I don't want to introduce anyone to them, I don't want to commit my
ETHAN SALVATOREI take several deep breaths, trying to concentrate on my breathing to calm myself down. Camila is in a way that I have never seen and clearly was not ready to see. Everything I say she has a ready answer, but it is an answer that is more like an out.The look that was once directed at me filled with lust, desires and promises. Nowadays it passes to me sorrow, resentment and indifference. At the end of it all, I saw a sparkle in her eyes when they met mine. I felt at home with the intensity that she looked at me, with the way her lips opened and formed the most beautiful smile I have ever seen in my life.Well, at least that smile hasn't changed. I could say that it actually just got wider. I have never seen a more beautiful smile than the one Camila gave to our daughter while playing with her. A moment so pure, that seems to be so ordinary for them, but that still carries its unique beauty, carries its meaning and above all, a happiness that I have never seen.Happines
CAMILA SILVAI put on my headset, leaving it on as loud as possible. While Ed Sheeran is playing in my ears, I leave the house, cross the street and start running along the shore.Not many hours had passed since dawn, so the beach was empty. Which is good, the blue of the sky blending with the blue of the sea. I remove my headset, listening to the sound of the waves breaking in the most perfect magnitude of nature. I could hear it perfectly, after all it is too early in the morning for the noise of the cars to disturb me.I close my eyes, feeling the cold breeze on my face. At that very moment I travel, I was no longer in Copacabana, but somewhere in the ocean. I was in Ethan's arms, staring at the sea in front of us, waiting for the speedboat that would take us to our next tour. We were only a few days away from reaching our destination in the Maldives.I turned my face, meeting his gaze. I take a deep breath, feeling love and affection for that man. My heart overflows with affection