Chapter 52: Roxy

I felt a little sick at what I was about to do, which in itself is saying a lot, but it had to be done. There's no way I'll ever fit in here, and the sooner they learn that, the better, especially Jason. I'm not one of them and never will be. There are kids here, and I'm sure if they knew half of what my life was like, they wouldn't want me around their precious children; I know I wouldn't.

I've seen and done too much ever to hope to fit into polite society. So even though I felt close to tears at the thought of what might've been had my life not been derailed, I still carried through. First, I found the two teenage boys I'd seen hanging around, checking me out as any hormonal teenager would. I wasn't feeling brave enough to approach one of the husbands directly. That felt like too much of a betrayal.

Still, I sent the boys away after they gave me what I wanted, though, in the back of my mind, I was pretty sure they'd hang around somehow. That couldn't be helped and may even help w