As I lay awake from thinking about my options and trying to decide what I should do there was a weird feeling in the pit of my stomach. I couldn't decide and it was already 2 AM with no sleep I forced myself to sit up and really think about my future. Where would I go if I left, and would I even be able to survive long. If I was to stay I would either be beat or starved to death. What if I was to find my soulmate here tomorrow and I left before I knew who it was, would he even want me?
After I showered and started walking out of my hut I fell to my knees from a sharp pain in my stomach. Thinking it's from not eating anything but a piece of bread yesterday I got up and glanced back at the small room I've lived in for twelve years making my decision.
The weird sensation never left even after the pain I felt as I arrived at the pack house. I opened the doors to the kitchen and started pulling out all the ingredients I needed to start cooking. I was going to make the pack the best breakfast they ever had because even though I don't get to celebrate my birthday they will. As I prepared everything possible there was a bang on the kitchen door followed by someone coming in.
I turned around to find Silas staring at me with anger, his crystal blue eyes seemed to have fire in them and his slightly curled black hair was messy. I lowered my gaze to the floor instantly.
"Why is it you!?" he yelled.
"What do you mean I always prepare the breakfast," I mumbled not looking up from the floor.
"You don't feel anything, how could you not I'm standing so close to you but I felt it when you walked into the house" he said calmer but still angry."All I feel is hunger pains", but as I said it I did feel a pull towards him I didn't want.
What he said next I expected but I was not prepared. "I, Silas Morgan, future alpha of the South Texas Pack reject Lilith Conner as my mate!" he announced it with such anger as he turned and left, I felt every ounce as the mate bond broke. At that moment I was in such pain I thanked the goddess herself for letting me finish the food before this happened.
I ran as far as I could and when I reached where I felt was safe I fell to my knees and my whole body shook from the tears and pain that I was experiencing. I didn't want the mate bond to be with him, and I also knew if it was someone from this pack they would reject me immediately. It hurt like hell but I managed to stop the tears and gather myself to look slightly normal as I made my way to the pack house to let them know my decision.
I walked in and made my way to the dining hall everyone stopped what they where doing as soon as I stepped in. Walking rather quickly to stand in front of the alpha and his family's table I said, " I, Lilith Conner, leave the South Texas Pack in body and mind!" There was shock all around the dining room as what I said sunk in, and I felt the pack bond break. After what felt like a long while the alpha finally spoke, "Lilith Conner, you are officially released from all pack responsibility and bond. You are to leave pack lands immediately!"
I finally had the nerve to look at everyone as I walked out and realized the shock was still there mixed with disgust. I never felt love from them after my parents died and I didn't think I ever would, and I didn't want them to have the pleasure of my death so that is why I made the decision I did. I honestly felt a little relieved as I walked out with my head held high.
I've never imagined myself packing my life away and heading into the unknown but here I am, as I look around one last time I remind myself that everything happens for a reason. Shutting the door to the hut and throwing my bag over my shoulder I began to walk off pack lands and into the city. As I got to a bench I sat down and counted the little bit of money I have. It turns out I had just enough to find somewhere to stay for a little while.
The money I have is what is left from my parents after the pack took the rest to support me as they said. They didn't know I still had this little bit I hid it well in the floor of the hut. I walked to a Motel 6 and got a room and decided to take a long hot shower.
Laying on the motel bed I started thinking about getting a job and staying under the radar so no other pack can find me. It is a law not to be a rogue wolf in a packs territory they will have the right to decide your punishment, and most decide to kill you instead of torture. Finally feeling the loneliness of not being in a pack and missing the connection, I have to snap myself out of this, so I decide to put on my hoodie and go to try to find some food close by.
Walking into a small gas station that was a block away from the motel I find some cheap food I can use the microwave in the motel room to cook. I pay for everything and start walking back to the motel when I bump into someone, cursing myself I glance up and get a quick glance at a woman around my age. All I find myself saying is, "I'm so sorry, please forgive me".
She smiled and said, "It's okay", and then inhaled deeply. Realizing my mistake I took off as fast as I can not looking back to see if she was following. Reaching my motel room and bolting all the locks as soon as I get in I mentally yell at myself for not watching my surroundings, because other wolves can smell a rouge wolf instantly. I only pray she didn't follow me and report back to whoever is alpha of her pack.I need to make plans to leave and I couldn't think of where to go, all I know is that I need to leave fast before someone found me. The girl probably reported back to her alpha and they would follow my scent to find me here, I figured I needed something to cover my scent. The weird feeling I was having in my stomach was growing stronger even though I ate. I couldn't blame it on not eating enough because I ate more than I should have. I needed to find a healer and soon, they would hopefully know what is wrong with me. I know they have to have rogue healers somewhere close. After going to check out of the motel I went to walk out the front doors, and that is when I saw the girl from the gas station with a few others across the street. They hadn't seen me yet so I made my way quickly to the back doors to leave, my scent would be all over the motel so they wouldn't know I left right away. I ran as fast and as far as
The darkness began to fade as I struggled to open my eyes. My head was pounding and my eyes were adjusting to the bright light as I took in my surroundings. I was in a new room, and this one only held a bed with white sheets, a dark brown dresser and a small book shelf in the corner with several books. I didn't understand what happened and why would I suddenly black out from the pain medicine, and another thing, how did I end up in a new room? Once I felt like I was strong enough I decided to try and sit up. Managing to get myself sitting to where my feet were touching the ground I give my self a few moments before I push myself up so I can walk to the door. Turning the door knob I noticed it wasn't locked, thank the goddess. I didn't hear anything through the house so I was hoping nobody would be home. Trying to stay quiet I moved slowly down a hallway towards what I was assuming was my way out. Finally reaching the door I opened it and saw
Here I was being escorted by Damian and Ruby to meet the alpha of this pack. I haven't seen Ruby since I was with the healer, but she met Damian and I by the edge of the trees when we got back to the clearing. She gave me a small smile before telling us that the alpha would speak to me now, and now we were standing outside his home. Damian knocked and opened the door to let us through while he followed behind. I was led though the cabin to a room that looked like a office, and behind a desk was the alpha. He was looking right at me as we walked in, I studied him seeing how young he was for a alpha. He had soft grey eyes and a smile that was contagious. His hair was so long that it reached to his eyebrows and it had a blue tint to the black as it shined in the light, he was so attractive it took my breath away. As we got closer to the desk he stood up and held out his hand to me introducing himeslf, "Hello Lilith, I am Ryker James the alpha of this pack. I unders
The three of us walked to a truck that was parked on a man-made road at the back of the clearing. The truck looked brand new, it was a four door, black expensive looking vehicle. Damian was driving of course while Ruby took the passanger seat and I got into the back. We all got settled in when the truck was started, Ruby started messing with the radio putting on some country music and started singing along. Her voice was a little off and I couldn't help myself but giggle, Damian heard me and smiled into the mirror while Ruby stuck her tongue out at me making me laugh harder.In no time we arrived in town and went to the mall. My nerves were going to be the death of me, and it wasn't helping that Damian and Ruby were on high alert too. We got out of the truck scanning around, I relaxed a little when I didn't recognize anyone so far. Walking through the doors between Ruby and Damian, we decided to check out a few different clothing stores. Coming out holding
I was so used to waking up at 3 in the morning that I was surprised that I woke up a little later. Ruby told me that I didn't need to meet her at the kitchen until 5 and it was now 4:05 so I decided to get ready now so I could enjoy a cup of coffee before going in. After showering I took a glance in the mirror again and noticed that the dark circles from under my eyes are gone. Smiling as I walked to the kitchen in my cabin, starting the coffee pot I stretched enjoying the feeling of being rested and alive. I had a great feeling about today, glancing at the clock I realized I needed to head to the dining hall to get started on my duties with Ruby. Walking through the dining hall to the kitchen I noticed that Ruby was already preparing. "Good morning sunshine," she said while giving me a full smile."Morning!" I said in a excited voice. We started cooking everything, as I pulled the last pan of biscuits out of the oven, I noticed people were making t
Ryker I was so caught up in my thoughts I didn't realize someone was knocking on my door. After I left my office I caught the scent of lavender and rose knowing exactly who it was. Letting Lilith in and asking her to follow me to my office I noticed a gleam in her eye. Curious about what was making her excited I started off with apologizing about her running into her old pack. I hated that she had to go through with that especially knowing the person she ran into was that bastard that rejected her. I will never understand how they would put this woman through so much pain and be happy with themselves. My pack is different, I let them have their freedom but only enough that they still follow my rules and commands. I despise the other alphas and the way they treat their packs. Listening to Lilith explain how she wants to join my pack and start training I couldn't help but be a little too excited. I sent out a mind link
Lilith There was knocking on the door and I already knew who it was, opening the door for Ruby I noticed all the make-up and other supplies in her arms. Feeling a little excited about having my hair and make-up done by her I was smiling so big my cheeks were starting to hurt. I led her to my bedroom so we could get started. She rumaged through my clothes looking for the perfect outfit for me, and I was setting everything up that she had asked me to get ready. When I was finished I glanced at her seeing what she was handing me. I looked at the red sun dress with awe because this was the last thing that I thought she would pick. Going to the bathroom to change I was hoping this fit a little better than it did when I tried it on. Ruby suggested I get my clothes a little bigger when we went shopping telling me that I would gain weight fast. Taking off the outfit I was wearing I slipped on the dress gasping in surprise when it fit perfectly not loo
LilithRuby handed me a cup of beer and grabbing one for herself. I took a sip to taste it and liking the flavor I took bigger gulps of the beer reminding myself I needed to take it slow. I followed Ruby to a group that I soon recognized as our friends from the dining hall. Everyone was drinking their beer and talking about how my ceremony went smoothly and they couldn't wait for the barbecue to be ready. Glancing around I noticed Damian was not here with us and asked Ruby, she replied, "He helps our alpha with the barbecue, you would not have guessed it but Damian is our beta and is best friends to Alpha Ryker." It wasn't hard to believe but I soon realized that I said that I would put our beta on his ass. Slapping my forehead with embarrassment but telling myself I can't back down now it wasn't like I was challenging him. You could smell the meat cooking from where we were standing and my st