Three: Dirty game

She pulled me closer to her, stood on her toes, played her fingers through my wet hair. Her finger trickled down the skin for my chest, then slowly moved to my back. It was as if she wanted to do something. Something dangerous. 

"Are you kidding me?" My voice was low. The desire I saw in her eyes was having an effect on me, which would probably play with my emotions. My mind wanted this, but my heart felt guilty. I felt guilty. 

"Kidding?" She sniggered, pecking my neck, cheek and shoulder. "Didn't you see my text? So you thought that was a joke? Seriously?"

The moment her hand moved to my towel, I gasped, and pulled her away a little. "Kath, stop. You can't do this. This is… wrong."

"Wrong?" She whispered, her eyes squinting at me. "You call this wrong? Are you crazy?"

I tried to remain steady. I didn't want to vent my frustration on her, or yell at her. Also, I didn't want anything to happen between us. Sleeping with her was so risky at this point. 

I blinked in surprise. "You know we aren't together. Our connection was in the past. Renee—"

"Renee!" She retorted, pulled back, scowling hard at me. "It's always her! For jeez' sake, your relationship is a scam. Why do you keep avoiding me for that ignorant moron?"

"You know—"

"I know what?!" Her voice grew louder. She was angry to the extent her arms swayed back and forth as she yelled. "This isn't fine! I'm sick of it! I've waited enough. Do you think it's easy to be away from the one you love, for

over a year."

Love? Why wouldn't she understand I didn't like her. I didn't want any woman in my life. I couldn't learn to be committed.

I swallowed. Renee being insulted by her was one thing that affected me right now, and the other thing was she had hope that we would be a couple some day. First, Renee was innocent, so it wasn't fine for Kath to insult her. Second, I didn't want Kath to love me. We had both had a connection, but that was in the past. She was a friend now. 

"Come on. We aren't together anymore. Stop forcing love. It's no fine," I tried to convince her. 

She scoffed, tears in her eyes. "I can't believe you think this way. Why do you keep pretending? I've helped you a lot, I've supported you always, but yet, you appreciate nothing."

"It's not what you think. I mean, you know I don't like anyone."

A tear left her eye. "You still— After everything? What do you even want?"

"Kath, just—"

"Fine!" She snarled, turned around, stormed to the bed. "Your damn eyes won't see the bond between us, right? Maybe I should just leave here."

Gosh, I didn't want her to be annoyed as well. What could I do now?

Puzzled, I hurried to her. She grabbed her robe violently, wanting to slip it on. But, before she was able to do that, I grabbed her arm, spun her around. 

Our eyes were locked in staring at each other. Tears continued to leave her eyes, and she blinked to probably stop them from spilling. Seeing how hurt and pale she looked, I smiled. She looked cute. 

"It's funny now?" She hissed, looked down. 

I held her jaw with my finger, pulled her face up. "You look cute when you're angry. I haven't noticed that before."

"That's not what I want to hear. I want you to…" She sobbed, jerked from my hold, scowling again. "You know what? I should just leave here. You're not worth wasting time on."

I rolled my eyes, pulled her arm for a second time, pulled her to me. Her chest hit mine, closing every inch between us. I felt hot having her close. My body was reacting, but yes, I wouldn't be tempted. I wouldn't sin. 

"Calm down." I smirked at her. 

She scoffed. "For how long? One more year?"

"It's not my fault." I sighed. "My dad still wants this to go on. I tried to talk to him, but he said it'll take a little longer. I really don't get what he wants, but all I know is I have to keep this going."

She looked away. "But it's not fair. You're not considering my feelings in all this. It's either Renee or your Dad. What's going to happen to me?"

"Just a little longer," I stated. 

She turned to me, smirked. "But that doesn't stop us tonight." She licked her lips. For some reason, her voice sounded weird. It was husky, flirty, dirty. 

I chuckled awkwardly. "You know that can't happen now. Renee and I are still together."

"Can you just shut her name up?" She curled her arms around my waist, pulled closer although there wasn't any space between us. "I mean, one night won't harm you, will it? I'm so prepared for you tonight."

"Kath, we shouldn't do this," I continued to rebuke her offer. 

She sniggered, her lips starting to tease the skin of my neck. Ah, shit, why did she have to come here tonight? 

"Baby…" she took my hands, wrapped it around my waist. Moving her hand to my hair, she pulled my face closer. "Come on. Don't ruin the fun. You're only tricking that idiot. Don't let her get into you."

I exhaled. "Kath, stop please."

Uniformed, she smacked her lips against mine, moving her hands from my head to my chest, kissing as if there was something she had to get from my lips. At this point, I was helpless. I accepted her kiss. She probably needed it at this moment. And, I would admit, I needed to be close to someone. I needed comfort in order to get rid of the ruckus in my head. 

We continued to kiss. I could feel the heat emanating from her body, causing my skin to stagger in goose bumps. This was getting too intense, but my desire wasn't enabling me to pull away. 

She gripped my neck, pulled me to the bed with her. She knew I wanted to pull away, but yep, she wasn't willing to let me go. She wanted more. A moan escaped her lips, which got me nervous. Moan wasn't good at all. 

My chest felt heavy. I had to pull away. I couldn't do this. This feeling wasn't only because of the game, it was clearly because of something else. Renee was out there, waiting for a call or text from me. And here I was, doing this. 

Kath wrapped her legs around my waist. I was on top of her, at the brim of doing something I would probably regret. Intentionally, I had decided to accept this kiss because I didn't want to feel indebted to Renee. I didn't want to feel caged. But, my emotion had surpassed my desire. 

Renee was all I could think of. 

"I can't do this." I snapped myself from this intense kiss, pulled back with so much force. Panting hard, I brushed my fingers into my hair, sat.

"What?" Kath sounded as if she was hurt. 

Embarrassed, I shut my eyes, still gasping for air. "I'm sorry. Give me some time. Please. Just leave for now. Once I end my relationship with Renee, I promise to sort things out between you and me."

For a moment, she was silent. I felt her crawling towards me, but I continued to close my eyes, scared that I would get tempted if I saw her. 

"No problem." She whispered in my ear. 

Relieved, I opened my eyes, but didn't look at her. "Thanks for understanding. But please, leave here now. I wanna be alone."

"Sure," she said. 

I felt her moving backwards. She began to do something, and also stood from the bed. She was probably wearing her robe, but was that my concern? I just wanted her to leave!

"Goodnight, Roy." I turned to her when I heard her say that from the door. 

I gave her a curt nod, unable to speak. 

As soon as she stepped out of the room, I exhaled, so frustrated. This was the reason I had to see Renee. Being with her never got me attracted to any other lady. What was going on with me? Was I getting worse? 

Indecisive and tired, I grabbed my phone, ready to reply to Renee's texts. I would see her as soon as possible. It was time to resume playing this dirty game. I needed her till further notice. 

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