100LanaIf it’s true then I was gone. I was busted to live anymore. If Armando was to hear about this I would be much more than trouble. Pregnant? With some other man’s child? I did everything to avoid it. I even bribed Mary to steal birth-control pills for me, how come I got pregnant. Argh, I wanna vanish my existence. If the pregnant part was real, I would really jump off the cliff. I couldn’t prepare myself for the bloodlust of my children or this foetus. This unborn had to die or Armando would kill him and me. I knew how far he could go. He was a maniac in my case. And as far as he was possessive about me being only his. I could predict I would pay a big price for Nathan’s deed. “Good to see you, Mr. Knightley, how may I help?” Malinda’s voice rang in my ear like a driller screwing my head. Though she had a velvet voice but right now, she was the person I needed to stay away from. Her clicks of heels grew louder as she came closer to me and Nathan who had been playing with my h
101Next Week Somewhere In LondonNathanIt’s a beautiful feeling to be a dad again. I waited long enough to feel this moment again, yet I had never known that I had to force the pregnancy on a married woman—but it was written to happen under such circumstances and I should be less guilty about it. All because Lana left me no choice. Moreover, not only I was happy because I would be a dad again but also that it was time to finally eradicate that motherfucking Armando and his two carbon copies from the earth. Lana wouldn’t have to bear much pain once she would give birth to our baby. Those little devils would be gone and my little human will replace their space in my queen’s heart.Everything was going perfect the way I wanted and sure enough, it would end the same way I planned—except the culprit’s escaping part. Armando’s breakout wasn’t on the list yet he successfully flew away, killing four of my men in the process which he will pay really soon as I got the lead about his whereabo
102LanaI wasn’t ready for this night. My heart was racing horribly in my ribcage. Something was not right, something would go wrong and someone was going to pay for it terribly—maybe this child in my womb. Maybe tonight I would be stabbed by one of Nathan’s bitchy cousins who would accuse me of seducing him, just like Armando’s cousin did back in Spain. I prayed to God for the abortion and yet I tried to convince one of the doctors during the clinic visit but no one agreed without Nathan’s approval. My heart just said this child won’t see this world. It would die. I just didn’t want to go through with the stabbing pain once again. I wasn’t that strong to bear pains anymore. I had enough and if this time, anyone would try to harm me, I would end myself with my sinful hands. This was it, this was the solution to end my problems. Maybe, after all the while God wanted me to end myself. He gave me enough clues yet I delayed realising them. It had been three hours since I was continuou
103Warning: This Chapter Can Be Challenging For Readers To Read. Kindly Pause Reading If You Feel Anxious Or Depressed. You’re Already Warned. LanaIt was a female. It was her. I knew I would be stabbed by Nathan’s cousin who’s jealous of me or who would accuse me of seducing him. Maybe, she would throw me in the river like my intuition tried to tell me but I ignored it lately. I should’ve considered my gut feeling rather than Nathan’s request. Look, where I stood; in the mouth of death. I tried to struggle in her hold but she roared at me, keeping me in the hold. I tried to shout but it wasn’t loud enough to call for help. I thought she would push me any second but the hope of survival arose when the sirens started to buzz, deafening us to death. Within seconds, there was an army steadied to kill this culprit. Their weapons were locked on their target and the voice that soothed me came across my ears. “Leave her alone!” Nathan shouted at the top of his lungs. My breath started to
“Beautiful,” he murmured, I was standing with my eyes down, I didn't know for some reason, I didn't feel like looking at him, The way his eyes were locked on me was chilling enough to keep me gulping hard. I stood still in my track like an obedient puppy. I fetched hard to muster up my courage but it wasn’t ready at any cost to be in my favour so I ended up deciding not to glance him. Obviously, I didn't want my cause of death to be too stupid, His eyes walked around my body progressively, clearly scanning me up. “Come here,” He said while patting his thighs and my feet automatically moved toward him for not giving him a chance to hurt me. As I reached under his range, he grabbed my forearm and pulled me to him, I grimaced in pain, “Ahh ouch,” a tear dropped from my eye, my body shaking and my eyes mouthlessly asking him to let me go and choose someone else. What he did was not what I wanted to happen with me again. I don’t want to take my last breath in pain where this inhuman h
1Warning: This chapter contains powerful language and torture. Please read it at your own risk.Lana's POVI wonder those people who can absolutely get everything they utter, from a castle of chocolates to showers in golds, like the world is just for them; made for them, served to them. People are their slaves; women their properties, men their defenders. They care about no one, just all themselves and their thirst for more and more. The hunger of power never ends for them, it keeps growing and ultimately leads towards the destruction of mankind.I believe in goodness despite having only pains and traumas gifted by life. One thing that relieves me; the help of people like us; the weak class. I wish to do something big for them. I have always been a giver and never a receiver, My belief is if I ever expect something from someone; I'll always end up disappointed by them. There's my only family to be counted on; my folks. They are the best thing that ever happened to me. Despite being p
2Lana’s POVWinter has been welcomed and all of the aurae is jammed with snowflakes. As I walked back to my home from work, I inhaled deeply. I was tired yet motivated but don’t know for how long. Right now, passing by beautiful houses dressed with lights and decors made me purse my lips where my inner self accosted me about my poverty but I blurred out before it gave me a fit.Today, I was late home because of workload. It’s been so long I haven’t slept peacefully. I just wish to sleep a whole day without worrying about our financial crisis. It’s depressing to wake up with the thought of no longer supplies left. I’m no longer born yesterday kiddo, Our hurdles made me older than my age. I have a school in the morning and work in the evening. My routine left me no fun. I’m working hard to meet our expenses with my parents. I can’t buy whatever I like, I lame excuse to myself; I lie, I avoid buying unnecessary stuff and save it for my future because only if I’m working passionately it’
3A Few Weeks PassedLana‘s POVI wonder if there could be any possible way to stop the time and cherish the moment forever but again, this is the world of real facts, not my fantasyland. I exhaled a deep breath and kept ambling on the poolside with the ocean of memories in my brain. As I looked up in the gloomy sky with full of starry stars, and yet I tried to count each of them specifically but at the same time, wondered that dynamics of light can’t be numbered. I lifted my head all little more up in the blamy breeze and closed my eyes along with the flow of wind. It’s so calm yet so peaceful in here. I wanted to sway slowly to the beat of air but here my mind was busy in recalling my treasured memories.I just couldn't get over this nirvana. I opened my eyes with the thought of beach in Ibiza where he spent our 5 glorious days and then the great Barcelona was in line, we stayed there for 2 weeks.I could proudly say that time has been written in my dear diary forever. I celebrated