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Chapter 61
I saw a break in what she was about to say, and I took that as an opportunity to ask this question. "Zee. Would you say that you loved him?"
She looked at me, peering in to my eyes as if there was nothing else that she could do. "Love is complicated, Alexis. It is not as easy and clean cut as you think or believe it is. There are many things that you have to take account of. It is not that straightforward."
I could tell that she was trying to skirt around the question and the topic, there was never a proper time that I thought that if someone did not love someone then it would not have been clear. I knew for a fact, that she loved him, and I knew for a fact that it was clear. She did not have to tell me, I knew it already. "I do not think it is that complicated Zee. It is either you loved him or not."
"So what if I did? Would that change anything? Will my whole life be destroyed and altered and turned around because I love him."
"What? No, that is not wha
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Daughter Of Phoenix Chapter 62
My mind flashed back to me and Zee. In that hotel room, wrapped and covered in each other's arms, as I gave her encouragement that I knew at that time, more than anything that she needed. I guess I needed to tap into that side again, that side that was caring, intuitive and compassionate. She has been here for me, for as long as I could even begin to remember. She needed me, now. More than ever. "Zee. Zee. Look at me." But her eyes still remained glued to her hands. Slowly and gently, I took her hand apart, and guided it towards me, so that she would have no choice but to be forced to look at my face. As her eyes leveled upwards to my own, I smiled gently at her. "That is better, now I can see your beautiful, smiling face. Zee, you need to understand something, it is not always that you can have been this brave, confident, strong, independent woman that I know that you are. You need to have break downs, like me. Like I have all the time." I smiled jokingly at her, which she gave bac
Daughter Of Phoenix Chapter 63
I mirrored back what he said. I stopped and spun him around, so that he was facing me. Isaiah's smiling face peered back up at mine. "Your finance. Fully and wholly yours, Isaiah. Always and forever. And there is nothing and nobody that could change that." Before I could get another sound or word in, he dragged me down to his level, putting me in his lap, and trapping my lips with his. As he hands trailed down and through my waist, and my entire body. It felt like I was on fire, his touch and everything about him invoked and lit something in me that I could not swallow down, I leaned closer in him, breathing him in, until he was all I could sense and feel. Before he could pull away again, I dragged him down one. Deepening the kiss even further. "Alexis." My name came out as more of a moan than anything else, and I pulled him further in. Hearing my name in his name drove me haywire. It made me think and feel things that I knew were not appropriate to even say out loud. As muc
Daughter Of Phoenix Chapter 64
So we made our way to the table and sat down at our individual places, still wrapped up in the aura and air of ultimate freedom, peace, and happiness. There was never a moment that passed that made me believed that in all of everything that there was never a time for me and Isiaih, there was never a time that the both of us did not want each others' presence. The aroma from the food waft and the scent resided in my senses. Godness, I forgot how well that Zee could cook. Before Isaiah could say anything else, I already had a fork that was suspended in the air with rounds of spaghetti on it. The aim was to head into my mouth, but before I could fully slide it in, I looked up, only to see Isaiah staring back at me with an amused expression on his face, looking down at the feed of pasta in my hand. I laughed, placing the fork down, and looked back up at him. "What?"Still smiling, he shrugged. "Please, no, by all means, eat. I know how hungry you must be." We shared a knowing loo
Daughter Of Phoenix Chapter 65
I took a deep exhale out, releasing all the pent up emotions that I seemed to be harboring nad storing deep within me. I had to tell him, I knew that. And I was going to, I was going to tell him. I gave him a small smile. "Isaiah, you know how much I love you, right? And you know how much I care about you, and I want you always, right by my side without fail-"Abruptly, he stopped my ranting, giving me a small brief smile. "I know." He grabbed my hand, and squeezed it tighter. "I know, Alexis. Please let me in, tell me everything. I want you to open up."I nodded, gifting him another small smile. "It is not very different to things encompassing and surrounding that, you know. I wanted you more than I wanted anyone else, there was never a situation or issue that I have ever had, that you were not there, guiding me through, helping me and being there for me. And without that, without you, and without your support it was hard to even function. I could not separate my feel
Daughter Of Phoenix Chapter 66
His eyes glazed a darker haze, as I could see clearly almost as clear as the bright blue sky during a warm, sunny day, I could see that he wanted me. As in he wanted every part of me, I could see the whole thing behind his eyes, and it made me feel as if he needed more, more than anything. And I would be lying if I said that I did not need him as well, I needed him more than I could even manage to say, I needed him as much as I could fathom to say. It was time, I was ready. I was ready to take that deep plunge. But behind all that hazy darkness, there was some doubt still lingering behind it, I mean it was soft, hazy but it was there. It was there, I knew it was, and I needed to reassure him, I needed to reassure him that aside of everything that he was the one, that he was the one that I wanted.So this was the only thing that I knew that I had to do, I held his face, with both hands clasped around his face. I was confident in it, I mean, I had to be, if I was not, eve
Daughter Of Phoenix Chapter 67
"Come here, Alexis." He held out an out stretched arm for me, and instantly without of moment's hesitation, I found myself learning closer in to it. Until I was nuzzled right up in him, until I was concoted in his embrace.He placed a light kiss at the top of my head. "I want you to know that you do not have to feel rushed that is the last thing that I want you to feel, it is not a competition, neither is it something that you can jump and dive to deep in to. You could change you mind, and then realize that you wanted to give it to someone else. Someone else that was not me-""No, that could never happen. It will always be you.""I know that Alexis, I do. But it does not change the fact that something could happen that could change the way you think, and it could alter who you would want to give it up to, but in all respect that it all okay as well. There is nothing that you need to worry about, neither is there anything that you need to know apart form be
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"So I am going to ask again, Alexis. Are you sure that everything is okay? Are you sure that you have everything glued together. Because it is okay if you do not, it does not make you any less of a person. It will not change the way that I think about you, neither will it change the way any one thinks about you. You have to know that you will be loved, and that you will be cherished, no matter how you feel. No matter the state of mind that you are in right now.""There was always something about him that made me somewhat happy that there was someone else with me. Then I would know that I was not alone, then I would know that I had always had someone at my back, helping me. Guiding me through the struggles and through the hardships that life always bore me. I guess, I have never really been alone in the sense of things. That I have never really ever been where I was without someone always being there. Be that if it was Iisaih, Zee, Elijah. It was never without them, neither wa
Daughter Of Phoenix Chapter 69
So it has been a couple of days passed my chat with Anna. And it was clear that I still had to do everything that I was required to do. And that meant the talk, the speech in front of everyone that I was dreading more than anything. It was time, to do this speech, the speech that I was dreading, the speech that I knew that if I messed up then it would leave a lot of thoughts about me. Which would centralize around if I was fit, or worthy to hold up this, if I was the right pick for this. I would have said no, but then again. It was not as if I had a choice in the matter. Although, it made me wonder about a lot of things, it made me wonder about the lives that we all could have lived if someone else took my place. I mean, I know it was rare and that resources and finances and time was scarce, but would it not be worth it in the end? Would it not be worth it, if someone a lot more competent than me would take this upon themselves, I mean I knew what Anna was saying. I mean, I understo
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