Chapter 41.

I needed a distraction. I needed to be away from this place for now. In a desperate attempt to distract myself I end up at the park, it was heavily crowded with people and was extremely busy. What a lively view that could make one when was in my shoes jealous. I watched from afar and envyed the countless happy families having fun and living the life. I also wished for a happy family lime this once upon a time and although I still wish for it, but like I said, it was all a big dream which could never happen.

I never got to go out to the open with my parents even while they were both alive, I always believed it was for my own good, and evsn now I wonder why I was prohibited from doing so mamy things back then, watching everyone now, it feels like a natural thing one ought to do, were they perhaps ashamed of me, did my hair cause much of a misunderstanding, no I really don't think so, I was loved by my parents, my mother died while trying to protect me so there's no way they neve