“Good morning, you should’ve woken me.”
He lathered his hands with soap and began to massage my breasts.
“Do you work tonight?” He whispered as he circled my nipples.
“I do. I will just be there later. I have some errands to run and want to visit my mom.”
His smile became less as he knows. No one really knows about my mom because it’s a touchy subject. Even as wolves we get sick. My mom has early-onset Alzheimers. It was mild for a few years but last year it progressed and now each time I visit her she thinks I am her a nurse’s daughter. I mean she has good and bad days and lately, they’ve been bad. My Dad still comes around but knows she isn’t getting better and is just watching her circle the drain before it takes over.
“Wish her well for me. I am going to head home.”
He left a kiss on my lips before getting up and leaving. When he leaves it’s nice to get back to reality. Outside my stripper life, I was just a regular woman. I am 26 years old and still figuring things out.
“Let's go for a run.”
My wolf interrupted my thoughts and you know that was a good idea. I haven’t had time to do so in a while so now would be a good idea. I quickly dressed in some stretchy clothes and made my way outside. We were in the middle of summer so it was hot as can be. The woods were close to where I live so it took about ten minutes to get there. Being in a modern-day pack was nice. Only the titled wolves stuck to tradition but for me? I can do what I want as long as I followed the laws. When I got to my spot I had started stripping my clothes off and placed them on a bench before I brought forth my wolf and let my bones crack. My paws hit the ground and my snout touched the sky as I let out a howl to inform those I am part of a pack and I am running. It was common courtesy. Not like my Alpha would care since I am a nobody but I did it out of respect. I let my free spirit start my legs as I ran through the woods and cut through all trees until my paws would get sore. My human body was definitely going to feel it when I get to the club. I was cut off from my run as I slammed into the bark of the tree that caused me to shift back. I had blacked out for a few seconds and when I came to it saw a figure angrily walking towards me. It was the Alpha from last night. He had lifted me up and pushed me up against the tree I had already hit.
“Where do you get off on telling me what is right and wrong?”
My head was pounding from the collision and still trying to understand what was happening.”
He read the room and then he took his hands off me. I watched as he paced back and forth in front of me. He wasn’t angry at me, he was angry that this is happening to him.
“I am a respected Alpha. I work night and day to make everyone happy and apparently my mate isn’t. Then I have you. A stripper telling me to make things work with her like I haven’t been. I’ve done everything! Yet you were able to read me better than she ever did.”
I stood there in place with my breathing still ragged. He was venting to me and maybe this is what he needed. I mean without having to hurt me he could’ve talked.
“I’ve made mistakes but I didn’t deserve this. But she’s my Luna to my pack and I am forced to look at her every day after what’s done. So tell me where do you get off?”
His eyes were stained red and the bags under his eyes shows he’s hadn’t been sleeping right. I wish I could stop his hurt but don’t know how to.
“Apparently, with getting thrown into a tree.” I whispered.
But his hearing caught my under the breath talk. Guilt struck his face when he realized what he had done.
“I’m sorry.”
He plopped down on the ground with his face in his hands and all I was thinking was to go comfort him. He had a mate and this was not my place but I couldn’t leave him life that. I walked over and kneeled down in front of him, taking his hands from his face which caused him to look at me.
“Pain knows pain. What you feel is valid and you have every right to express yourself in any way you want. Preferably I’d rather not be your punching bag but you’re allowed to feel.”
I trapped his hands with mine and that’s when I realized that his knuckles were raw and bloody and the stench of bourbon was on his breath. I stood up and helped him to his feet.
“Come, I will get you cleaned up.”
He didn’t question me which was strange but he followed me all the way back to my apartment and we both picked up our clothes to change into. He sat where the kitchen table was and waited for me to come back with the first aid. When I got to him you could see the defeat in his eyes. I’ve seen it time and time again but this time was different. I slowly started using the warm cloth to clean his knuckles and his eyes are fixated on me.
“Calla, you’ve-”
I had to cut him off.
“Calla isn’t my real name. Call me Makayla.”
Everyone got so used to calling me by that it never phased me until now. He saw me as a stripper rather than a person and maybe with him calling me my real name I’d earn a tad of respect.
“Makayla, you’ve been nice to me when I’ve been a dick to you and I am sorry. My mind isn’t right. I am just so sorry.”
His hands went to his face again but I stopped them and did something unthinkable. I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him into am embrace. Only females that are allowed to touch an Alpha are family and a mate or kids. He froze for a second and I felt his arms wrap around my stomach and his head laid on my chest. He silently cried on the inside like for the first time he was able to be himself. I stood there just holding him for what seemed like forever but then reality set in and he pushed himself up to disconnect my arms from him.
“I should get going. I apologize for releasing my burdens onto you. It’s not professional of me.”
He walked to the front door but I wanted him to stay until he was better but I’ve pushed my luck already.
“Alpha, would it be wrong of me to know your name? I may never see you again.”
He stopped to turn around and those brown eyes with the yellow glows stared back at me.
“Arson. My name is Arson.”
“Please tell me you do not like burning things down?”
He let out a genuine laugh before leaving.
Later that night, I finished visiting my mother and decided to make my way to the club. I had already showered and packed my clothes for the night. My mind was a little out of it as today felt unreal. He was vulnerable to a complete stranger. He would probably return to his pack and forget that I ever existed. When I got into the club everyone was cheering and taking shots. I walked over to sign in for my dances when I noticed my Alpha in there. The hell was he doing here?
I felt a pair of arms wrap around me causing me to flinch and laughter from Ryan.
“Son of a bitch Ryan. You scared me.”
He placed a kiss on my cheek before letting go.
“Sorry, had to. You looked distracted.”
“Yeah, what’s going on? Why is Alpha Knox here?”
“You didn’t hear? Alpha Knox is retiring and his Nephew is combining his pack and ours and taking over. They are celebrating.”
I was so out of the loop of the Pack that I never realized how old our Alpha was. He’s been in charge since I was born. Strange place for him to be but I noticed the Luna was here too so I guess it’s whatever.
“If they ask for a dance, I will refuse. Couple dances always are strange. It either ends with someone getting jealous or them asking for a threesome.”
He followed me back to the locker room and stopped at the door.
“Listen, I wanted to ask you if I can take you on a date?”
Date? That’s a word I’ve not heard in a long time. It also made me weird too. Ryan was asking me on a date? Why? I mean it would make sense but we never really talked about dating. Before I answered I saw a pair of eyes looking at me. It was Arson. Why was he here again? My answer was going to be yes but now I wasn’t so sure.
“Ryan. We aren’t mates. I thought we had an agreement that friends with benefits is all we can be?”
I felt bad when I saw his face fall but someone had to be honest. I love him and we have amazing sex but we had an agreement.
“I know, but I like you. It’s been years and maybe it wouldn’t be so bad than to give it a chance?
“I have to get ready for my set. I will talk to you later.”I hurried into the room leaving him devastated but it’s what had to be done. I need to think about things. I started to get changed and choose a nice lace underwear and bra set with a net purple dress over that clung to my ass. My ankle-high platforms with a smokey eye to match it. You can never go wrong with a lot of glitter. When I made my way to the floor my name was being called to the first stage. The energy of high ranks in one spot made me a little uneasy. So I avoided eye contact and stayed zoned out.
“Calla, you’ve been requested for a private dance.”
I snapped out when Dan came over to me. I finished my dance and collected my money before making my way to the dance rooms but once again I was in the V.I.P room. This time I was met with eyes that wanted to see me. Arson.
“I thought I’d seen the last of you.” I joked.
I walked over and stood right in front of him not knowing how to act. I think he kind of knew that I was uneasy because he grab my hand and sat me on his lap to where I was straddling him again and his hands rested on my hips.
“My mate cheated on me.”
I couldn’t stop myself from gasping.
“I couldn’t tell anyone because at the end of the day I am an Alpha. I’ve been hiding it for weeks but you were the first person who could read me. That’s why I got mad but at myself that I let it slip. There is no fixing things even though she wants to. My wolf loves her but I am disgusted at her. I’ve been trying to wrap my head around it all and thinking what I couldn’ve done for her to step out on me.”
His fingers were nervously tracing the same spot on my thigh a little to rough but I allowed it.
“You did nothing wrong Arson. There is no excuse for cheating. You’re her mate and she should only want you. If there is a problem then coming to you should be first on the mind. I may not know a thing or two about a relationship, but I do know that if you have to find comfort with someone else then that isn’t your person.”
He let out a sigh and threw his head back. We sat there in silence as he went into deep thought. A knock on the door made our heads turn and Ryan was the door.
“Hey, you have another dance to get to.”
“I'm unavailable for the rest of the night. Tell Dan to take me off the roster please and thank you.”
He looked at me and then Arson before he slowly closed the door.
“You didn’t have to do that. You have work to do.”
“I’d be a bad friend if I left when you are hurting. I am not hurting for money so you don’t have to worry.”
He smiled. A true and genuine smile. We’ve grown since last night and that’s why my mother told me what she did because he is going through a lot.
“How long are you here for? I’d think you’d be returning back to your pack.”
He crossed his arms and looked at me strangely like I wasn’t in on something.
“You didn’t hear?”
I shook my head no.
“Alpha Knox is retiring. I am going to be your new Alpha.”
Now I was in shock. Does that mean his mate is coming here? Or are they splitting up? I am currently straddling my Alpha.
“You know, I did ask for a dance. When does that begin?”
Oh, he was serious, serious?
“Come on. No slacking on the job.”
I let out a nervous laugh but how could I say no now? I stood up from his lap but he brought me back down and now I was inches from his lips from how close he held onto me. He reached from my netted dress and lifted it over my head before he realized what he was doing.
“I’m sorry. I am not allowed to touch you.” He whispered in my ear.
His breath hit my skin and I should not feel this way.
“I just want to feel better.”
I don’t know what over me but I was fired up. My feeling between my legs was longing for him.
“Do you want to touch me?” I asked.
He looked at me before nodding his head. But he was reluctant.
“If I allow you to touch me. Will it be because you want to or because you want to get back at your mate?”
Maybe that question was a reality check for him. He was really thinking about it. Which tells me it’s a little of both. The empath in me just wanted to take his hurt away but I was also not someone to use.
“Okay. You cannot touch me. If you want to feel better, tell me how you want me to touch you.”
His eyes met mine as I lifted myself from his lap again. He thought about it and his mouth opened.
“Those pretty lips on my cock.” He responded.
I walked over to the door and locked it so no one will open it. He asked and for him, I will relieve some of the tension that started since he pushed me onto his lap. When I turned back over he was staring at me with hunger and I was able to fee him to get him by. I was the Alpha’s pet for tonight.
I wiped the side of my mouth as I stood up in front of Arson. His head was tilted back as his breathing was rapidly after he released inside of my mouth. I started feeling a hint of regret and tons of guilt knowing I allowed this to happen and he isn’t even looking at me. Why isn’t he looking at me?! When he lifts his head up he doesn’t make any contact with me as guilt washed over him. He was looking past me and now I was the one crying. I went for the door but when I opened it he closed it. “No, don’t do that. Don’t cry because of me. Relax, I am not going to treat you any other way I was just processing.” I relaxed in my spot and exhaled the breath I was keeping in. “Can I touch you now? Respectfully?” He asked. I nodded expecting this to turn dirty but instead, h
Once I got home I acted like I wasn’t. Ryan came knocking on the door but I didn’t answer. Arson had also stayed away from the club and I think the guilt finally swallowed him up and he returned back to his life with his mate. I avoided Ryan too but I promised him a date and I was feeling some type of way about it. Everything felt like it was about to change and maybe me accepting it was just to cover up the fact I had the Alpha’s dick in my mouth. A knock on the door had broken me from my thoughts and I was standing in front of my full body mirror. I wore a red dress that hugged my curves with black pumps to match. I walked over into the living room and opened the door and there he was. Ryan was wearing a nice V-neck shirt with some black slacks. I loved the way he always dressed. Sometimes to fancy was a little much. “You look beautiful as always.” He reached over and kissed my cheek and lingered for a few seconds. It didn’t sit right though. “You ready to go?”
I must’ve not locked my door correctly. I was nervous so that would make sense. Why couldn’t he leave me alone? Also, why would I allow myself to do it? I was such a horny person and he knew exactly what to do to get me going. I got going and that was only a quickie. Imagine what a full session would be. Poor Ryan, he didn’t deserve for that and I think part of me knew I never wanted to be any more than what we are. Yet he is good for me too. I turned into bed early and just ignored the phone until a knock from my front door woke me up. I woke up in a panic and looked over at the clock to which it revealed it was one in the morning. What the hell? I moved the blankets off of me and stood up trying to get my balance of being half awake. Another knock came at the door while I made my way to it. I walked to the window near my door to look out and it was Arson leaning on the wall. I quickly opened it and he almost fell. “What the hell are you doing here?” I asked. When he lo
hI was at the nursing home sitting with my Mom who unfortunately wasn’t lucid. A knock on the door woke me from my thoughts and it was the nurse. “Hi Makayla, our medical director would like to speak with you.” I looked at my Mom and got up before making my way to the doctor office. I sat down when he invited me in. “Thank you for joining me. Listen, I don’t want to cause any family drama but payments are four months late.” He said. “What do you mean? I have been giving my father half each month. He should be making the payments.” He took off his glasses and set them on the desk. My father has been coming less and less so I wasn’t sure what was going on. “How much is owed?” I asked. He reached for the folder and flipped through before answering. “$15,638.54.” I started to choke on my own saliva. I know I lived okay but I didn’t have that kind of money either. My mother needs all kinds of care that I couldn’t disappoint. I grabb
Arson was fully clothed holding me like he owed me something. But didn’t. If anything he has been a real ass since I met him and now he was holding me naked in the shower. I tried to fight against his embrace but he held on tighter until I let my head fall and now I was sobbing again fully defeated. This wasn’t how things were supposed to go and not how I planned either. “It’s okay.” But it was far from okay. The dread of leaving my apartment and being forced to do more than what’s required of me. I was no longer a person of choice but one who needs to in order to survive. To give my mom just a little more time before her time nears. When I finally relaxed his arms he loosened from me. Our eyes met but now it was full of awkward silence. He needs to leave. When the sadness came to a halt I reached for my towel and put as much distance as I could between us. The sound of his wet clothes made their way into my bedroom. “Makayla. Are you okay?” He asked. I met his eyes through the mir
Life can change in a blink of an eye, that for someone that is so closed-minded. Her whole world would be turned in many different directions. With my life, I always had a choice, and where I felt most comfortable was with the lights blinding my eyes as they changed different colors. As the music played and my body moved to each beat. I felt eyes everywhere around me, and I knew in this area I was desired and wanted. I was needed most of all. Bodies collided together as I rolled my hips on his lap with the soft grunt that slipped from his mouth. But same moan, a different man. The music died down, and I felt the linger each time I got up. “I hope I see you again soon,” I whispered before I got off my clients. I made my way back to the dressing room to switch out of this outfit that’s been used with several men tonig