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" You can't underestimatehow traumatic divorceIs for the children"-Isla Fisher* * * * * * * * *After spending days and months in Little Angels boarding school; it was time of the day for us to go back home for summer holidays back to our family. It was a nice summer day waiting for our parents to come and pick us up. We were waiting eagerly and the moment I saw my dad I was so happy full of joy running towards him to hold me running and at the same time my eyes also started looking for my mom when I did not see her, I realised it was only my dad who came to pick us up. I was disappointed but nevertheless I was happy to see my dad. The moment he was carrying me I asked my dad about my mom. He told me she is at home and we will talk there but what I did not know was, it was the day that would change our lives forever.I was content upon reaching home to my sweet home; a home where I was born and brought up where I had spent my days and nights being naughty, spoiled, loved and cared. A home where I played and fooled around. It was our safe haven!My grandfather was the first person to welcome us home. He was so happy to see us after so many months, my grand dad loved and cared about us very much. We were his favourite grand kids among my other cousins. We were a twinkle of his eyes. My grand dad was the go to go person for us whenever we wanted anything whether it be food, money or goods. It was him who fulfilled our wishes.We were well protected, loved and well guarded by him.There is a saying "home is where the heart is" it was the same for us. Though we lived in a boarding school, our heart was always at home with our family. After being away from home for so many months or days upon being at home me and my brother used to have a different kind of energy and full of life. The love, affection and care where we use to get at home we never got that kind of endearment at school. Being at home means we were always surrounded by our loved ones whether it's grand dad, aunt or aunt grandma or our servants.Their love and care gave us energy and joy!We always knew being at home means we would be protected no matter what we do or how we act. I still remember I was very small when I was sent to a boarding school which I never wanted to go.I cried so much that day! Everyday that I spent my days at the hostel I used to count days and nights as to when our vacation would start and I would be able to go home or wait for the Saturdays to come where we used to get the visitation from our parents. Whenever they visit us I beg them to take me home. Being at the hostel and boarding school were the hardest days of my life where I used to get bullied and teased because I was so innocent and naive. I was not like other girls who were cruel and evil. I hated living at a hostel and boarding school.After meeting my grand dad I ran upstairs where our sanctuary was, did I mention we had a 5 storey house and half part of the building was the hotel that my dad and grand dad use to run and we lived in the roof top part. Though there was a lift I liked using stairs so running the stairs, I called for mom. I kept on calling and shouting until I reached our place but no answer came from her. I started looking everywhere for her from kitchen to rooms but there was no sign of her and I was surprised when my dad told me she was at home waiting for us after a while my dad and brother came upstairs, I asked him where she was. At first he hesitated to answer but eventually told us she went to my maternal grandparents house at the same time the house phone rang ring ring! I ran to pick it up. It was from my mother. She told me she is staying there and that we should come there. I asked her why she was not coming home but all she said was that she was going to stay there for a while. Even after talking to her me and brother did not have any doubts cause it was normal for her to go and stay with our grand parents but what we did not know was they were going to drop a bomb. A news that was going to turn our lives upside down!Later we got fresh and had our lunch as fast as we could so that we could go and meet our mom. My dad drove us to our grandparents place but he said he was not going to come inside, which made us halt from leaving the car! We asked why but he just said he can't so we simply shrugged and left even at that friction of behaviour, we did not think of anything suspicious going on between my parents.We were so happy to see our mother. There was no boundaries to our happiness. Even our maternal grandparents were happy to see usAfter a while of settling down we asked our mum why she was not at home and here at granny's place.She waited for a while to answer but she replied that she won't be coming back home anymore and we again asked her why she was not going to come back! She said she doesn't want to live with my dad anymore. We were surprised to hear this news and did not know how to react.Finally she started explaining to us little by little and then there was the word "Divorce" because of this word me and my brother knew our family is never going to be the same that our family is broken.Hearing this, no words formed we were in a trance hypnotized by millions of thoughts running in both of our brains. We just did not know or understand how we were going to cope with the reality. The reality of not having our parents together with us. As reality hit us hard tears started rolling down our cheeks until mum told us not to cry we did not realize we were crying. she told us this is how it has to be!The bond, love, trust, security which we shared was broken at the same time. Our heart was broken to the extent that we knew it might never be healed again. Just like that our world shattered and our happiness morphed into sadness and we knew from this day onward our life was never going to be the same again.Alas! Our family was broken. This was the first dark cloud that surrounded my life and happiness!Who am I now the girl questions her identity and this is the quote that describes her the best. The broken Bond of her parents made her question; though she is small but she was smart to understand everything and she kept questioning who she is even while growing up without her family support; without her mother; will she ever find the happiness again in her or the dark cloud will break her apart! "Am I a broken Bond A starving soul or The love that's gone The smell of flowers The rainy breeze &nbs
¶Aiyla PoV¶"When you inherit a brokenFamily, you can't throw itAway and get a new oneWhat you can do isFind People and situationsThat provide for youWhat your family cannot"Iyanla Vanzant**************The separation of my parents changed our lives in a 90 degree angle where we had to live with criticism, sympathy and pity for us in people's eye. My dad literally became the mother and father for both of us.. he started taking care of us and our needs. He became the mother who would bathe us, cook for us, be there when we fall and hurt ourselves, and he became our anchor in life. Though he was hurt and broken from inside after what happened between my mum and dad he actually never showed it to us and became strong for us.I had always heard a story of my parents' great love and how they fought against the family to be with each other and when my grandparents did not agree for their marriage they eloped and got married and how my uncle and aunt's sheltered them. It was only af
¶Aiyla PoV¶"Once the bond is broken it can't mend like before".... Neha Maurya******************Like the Quotes says " Once the bond is broken it can't be mend like before"... It was for me. The bond that was broken with my family was hard to mend no matter how much you tried, I knew my family was never going to be the same. My parents divorce was a harsh reality that left a deep impact in our life. Our life was never going to be the same again with a broken heart. We knew somehow we had to live a life without our mother. Though it was so hard to believe and accept the reality at first we were in denial and we kept on trying to bring our mother back but it was useless it was like mum did not want to be with us and we saw that she was happy with her life, she was happy by being free and why wouldn't she be right! There was no responsibility, she was free from family bonds and she was living the life like she wanted to. I was just six yrs old when my parents got divorced at the te
¶Aiyla PoV¶" If You Can't DoAnything about ittHeN let it go. Don'tBe a prisoner to thingsYou can't change"- Tony Gaskins*********Growing up without your mother by your side was certainly the hardest thing in life, but like the phrase says" if you can't do anything about it then let it go" this quote is true and right but it was so wrong for me. I could never let go of the fact that our mother abandoned us. It was really hard for me to accept the truth and move on..it was like I was stuck there at that moment but I still moved on cause I knew somewhere this truth will always be my shadow and it will be following me. But still I knew I had to move on.move on with the family I had been left with i.e. my father, brother and grand dad, move on to live a healthy life..move on to complete my school moving on was the right thing to do for me but I also knew deep down that moving on would be the hardest for me.I could never move on, I was stuck in that deep dark hole but still I kep
¶Aiyla PoV¶"Good times becomeGood memoriesAndBad time becomeGood lessons"..* * * * * * * * * * * *Good memories and bad memories are parallel to each other. If you have good memories on one side to cherish then u also have bad memories which i desperately want to forget.Sometimes those memories also become your worst nightmare. It depends on you how and where you want these memories to be placed in life and mind. Good memories will always be adored and be our strength while bad memories become our lessons of life. Things end but only those memories will last forever and also become your brawn and will to fight for who you are or want to be in life.Remembering my happy childhood days still brings a smile to my face. I love those random memories and these are the memories "good and bad" have kept me strong and going all these years. There are so many good memories I wanna hold onto somehow it always lights me up in my gloomy days and gives me new hope and energy.Taking a tri
"behind my smile is a broken heart,behind my laugh I'm falling apart.behind my eyes are tears at night,behind my body is a soul trying tofight"*******My cursed fate began from the day my dad got married to a woman named Polly, a woman who was already married before and got divorced just like my dad; somehow my dad thought me and my brother Rylan needed a so called mother to look after us cause he alone was not being able to look after us. It was a joke people were laughing behind our back cause my so called dad was getting married again but what I did not know was from this day onwards my life was going to take whole 90 degree angle change; from this day onward my life was going to turn into hell and complete nightmare; from this day onwards my cursed fate would began; this was the day everything in our lives changed and it was nothing what we went through; this was the very sa
"True evil people don't justHurt others. They take pride in thePain they cause and Then try to blame Their victims"******************************This quote "true evil people don't just hurt others. They take pride in the pain they cause and then try to blame their victims" so resembles this evil vile woman Polly; the second wife of my father. She was the exact kind of person who was truly evil; taking pride in hurting people and breaking family was her favourite game.Since the day she got married to my father our family was in chaos, ever
"Broken and Abused Wasleft to suffer;Cried and Begged to Be Loved and Cared for"Ashma Rauniyar*******************************I was broken; I was abused; I was left to suffer on my own; I kept on crying and begging to be loved; to be cared but no one heard my plea of songs. I was left alone to fight; alone to survive; alone to fight with my worst nightmares; left alone to fight the depression. I was left alone by my own family to die.How more a young girl like me can go through more difficulty than i already had; how more can i take the cruelty of my fate; how more can i be broken than i a