Chapter 8

Hands trembling, I fold them to my chest as I lay in a ball position on the bed. I was sweating like hell even though I felt cold and was shaking, my muscles hurt just wanted to lay where I was and not get up.

I can do this.

The chant that has been in my head for the past hour now, telling myself that I don't need the drugs, I can survive this on my own even though the last thread to that thought was slowly shattering.

I have lost count of how many days I have been here. Sean has made sure to dope me with drugs that I can't get away from, crack and heroin being some of them. The security watching me is tight and any escape attempts have only gotten me in trouble.

Yesterday was the only day Sean let me go outside as his way of showing me that I can get an amount of freedom if I continue to do what he wanted and it was also my only chance of escape. So when I saw that guy again at the mall I took my chance by running from my guards and going to him but that attempt failed.

I just