Sashal watched her figure from the reflection in the window. Something was missing from her, she thought.
"Ah..."
She put a crown on her head.
Now, It's just like her. The crown suits her.
Her gaze dropped. She caress her protruding belly while muttering something through her clenched jaws.
Sashal's green eyes were filled with remorse. The sun shone through the window and unto her beautiful face, which looked like a doll. But Sashal could not feel the warmth of the light. So were the fancy dress and the crown of a noble queen, which seemed to be all meaningless.
'Shan, the full moon is almost here.' She spoke to her wolf, who decided not to respond.
Sashal grinned wryly. “Are you sulking now? Sorry because you can't taste the full moon all this time.”
From within her, a surging emotion suffocated her.
-“FIGHT! What are you doing just by standing still like this?! F#ck them porky!”-
Sashal's wolf, Shan, had her refreshing curse. Sashal often wonders if maybe Shan is a dark manifestation of her personality.
"I'm sorry. I'm so... exhausted now. Now, sleep, Shan."
-“Wai-wait! Oh, wait! This girl! Heeeey!”-
The sound of someone running was getting closer. The bedroom door opened with a bang. Bella, her loyal maid, came with a pale face.
“Your majesty! Please, please run away now. Those crazy bastards are here! Please, at least run away for your child's life!”
“Hmm, that's a waste of effort. I've tried that already before, Bels.”
"Yes?"
“GET HER DOWN!” A swarm of troops had surrounded her.
“NO! You can't do this to Her Majesty! How dare you- Argh!”
Sashal frowned as she watched Bella being caught before she could shift with her wolf. She had seen this scene multiple times but still broke her heart.
The armed forces immediately cornered her. Some of them have even transformed into wolves, hissing at her.
If it had been a year ago, such an action would have been impossible. No one was allowed to transform in front of her without any orders from her.
“Get her now!” The troop leader screamed as if he was catching a rebellious criminal, even though Sashal didn't do anything.
Yes, even though she didn't do anything and just stood there, her aura alone was enough to make the troops shudder.
They restrained her body by chaining her hands tightly while placing a repressant necklace around her neck. With that, Shan, her wolf, was no longer heard of.
Sashal laughed dryly. She turned her head, facing the window again, looking down at someone outside her window.
Her husband's cold face filled her gaze. Until she arrived at the execution stage, only her husband's face was recorded clearly in her eyes.
People threw pebbles and manure at her. Her beautiful face was now covered with blood and dirt. Sashal's black hair once gleamed as beautiful as night, matted and dirty like rat hair in a gutter. Her tongue was burned, then sprinkled with salt afterward several times.
The proper punishment for a woman with a poisonous tongue, they said.
The baby in her womb is also the target of people's anger. There was nothing she could do.
Sashal raised her head. Watching the rows of other nobles on the stage sitting and watching her torture, it was as if she was an entertaining spectacle. Her husband, the mate of her life, was also there. He was the main culprit who put her there.
Shame and contempt engulfed her whole being, but Sashal could only rebel against him with her silence.
A woman with long, wavy black hair, skin as white as snow, and eyes of light brown that were almost the color of gold appeared by her husband's side. The two hold hands.
'Ah, again? I was pregnant with his child, but my mate gazed intently at my best friend. When I saw the blaze that lit up in those cold eyes, I was assaulted by déjà vu.'
Luelle, the woman, was crying in her husband's arms.
'My husband had been in love with my best friend even in our past lives, enough to deny our child's existence. There was nothing I could do but watch.'
'And by cruel fate, I was someone who kept returning to that exact moment.'
Sashal had been through this moment several times in her previous life. Even after changing the recurring parts of her life in order to escape this moment, she still returned to helplessness.
Sashal tried to remain composed when the judge read out her crimes. Some were her deeds, but some were slander or deeds she had done in her past life, not this time.
For example, the crime of attempted murder of Luelle Lenbergh.
But isn't the reason for doing that justified? What wife doesn't get mad flipped when a lowly woman seduces her husband? While she struggles to escape from her captor's prison, at that?
Sashal let out a rough breath. 'I didn't do that this time, but they still put it in the scales of my crimes. What a joke, hmm?'
“Oh, our kindhearted Lady Luelle. What sin did she commit to have experienced the cruelty of that crazy woman?”
“That's right, our Lady Luelle sure is unfortunate.”
“But after this, there is only a flower path for our Lady Luelle.”
"Right!"
“Why did they take so long to sentence that woman to death?! Tch.”
Of course, the people she had always protected were also defending Luelle.
She once dreamed of a paradise where she would live happily ever after with her loved one. But now she realized things were different.
“With this, the former queen wolf Jochevelle X of the Southern Olf Kingdom, Sashal Shalomett, is sentenced to death for all her heinous deeds!”
Everyone roared in excitement.
Sashal lowered her gaze as the executioners dragged her body roughly.
'Baby, Mommy is sorry again. You don't get to breathe the air of this world again. But isn't that a blessing?'
“STOP IT, YOU FOOL! STOP IT! NO! GRRAAWWLLL!” A man roars madly, then shifts his form to his wolf.
His silver fur is drenched in blood almost instantly when he tries to destroy the defenses of the executioners surrounding Sashal.
'Who is that silver madman? At least in this life, someone is trying to stop my execution. But still, you don't have to, though.'
PTAS.
Sashal felt the sword penetrate her neck. The intense pain was only brief, and her consciousness gradually blurred. All she hoped was that this death would be her ticket out.
'I will not exhale another breath in this damned place again!'
This life also ended as it had before, but.
.
.
.
"F#ck!"
She felt like she was falling into a bottomless abyss. The feeling of being swallowed up in an endless darkness felt more comfortable than she initially thought. Whatever it was, it was better than when she existed as a hindrance between her husband and Luelle's sickening love affair. She hopes she will not wake up from this sleep if possible because hell is the only place to wake up. But, 'F#ck!' -“Sashal, are you up? You slept long enough this time.”- "Shan?" She returned to the sickeningly damp prison that had held her captive, again, for the 9th time. Instead of dying, she always returned to Sashal's five-month-earlier self. -“Hey girl, are you okay? Your internal condition is kinda…”- Shan, her wolf, never remembers their time loop experience, even for the 9th time. This is her 10th life after nine-time loops. It's so sickening. She returned five months earlier before being executed in the capital's plaza. When she spent four months in this prison because of the rogue gro
What am I doing at this moment in my second life? I cursed at her after getting off the carriage like a madwoman possessed. I grabbed Luelle's hair and ordered the guards to lock her in prison. I screamed at everyone, telling them that I knew Luelle was carrying Jermaine's child. I'm so hysterical. That is my first loop. Thinking it was my second chance to get rid of Luelle, who had snatched my husband away, I was branded as crazy by everyone instead. My end is the same as my first life: death. In this life, how should I react? "I'm tired." A complaint escaped from my parted lips. "Oh yes, you must be tired, Sashal." "Let's get you inside first, Your Majesty." Ruri, my other lady-in-waiting, responded. “Our queen, you have experienced a terrible incident. Please rest assured now. We will protect you.” I'm happy to see Bella again but too numb to express it. "My queen, let's check your health first." That was the first sentence Jermaine said to me. It never changes. "Ng,"
"I see, so you don't know him either?" Bella looked guilty. “I will put all of mine into finding out about that silver werewolf! Seeing that he has an unusual fur color, I think I will quickly find him for you, Your Majesty!” I chuckled. "No need, Bels. Now I want to sleep alone." "That... Please don't take those people's whispers to heart, Your Majesty." I smiled at Bella. But my smile doesn't seem to relieve her. I looked up at the familiar ceiling of my room. People assume I've been out of my room for four months, but that's wrong. Until four days ago, I was still staring at it before being interrogated in the dungeon, then sentenced to death. I'm tired. I don't want to fight this time. Days passed. Jermaine hasn't visited me at all since that day. The maids and my lady-in-waiting comforted me by saying that Jermaine was too busy. “The Kingdom is currently undergoing military aggression with the Northern Kingdom over neutral territory. That is why His Majesty has not had the
“Frankly speaking, you came back in too fine a state for a rogue’s kidnapping victim.” A dry laugh escaped from my mouth. “Fine, huh?” Do I look fine in his eyes? Is this why those officials slandered me that I had changed sides? They consider it impossible for a person, especially a woman, to return in one piece after being kidnapped by a group of rogues. What was running wild through their heads right now must be the thought that I had been brainwashed or threatened by my captors to destroy the government from within. Given that the kingdom’s security situation is currently in flux, my return must be pretty suspicious. I understand how they could think that. If I were in their position, I would also suspect myself. “On top of that, the officials are questioning your competencies as their wolf queen. They alluded to how weak you are despite your high status because those rogues managed to kidnap you for four months.” “I see.” They want a strong wolf queen, and I understand t
“I’m going back to my parent’s house.”“Wait, what? Divorce? Return to your parent, who mistreated you like that?”“…Yeah.”Now, after all that looping, my parent’s poor treatment is nothing compared to what I’ll be going through for the next five months, Jermaine.“Do you understand what you’re talking about? Divorce of the royal family means you may never set foot in the Capital again, and your original status as the daughter of the Beta Duke will be revoked.”“I know.”He gasps. “Yet, you asked for a divorce?”“Mhm. Wouldn’t that benefit you too?” I blinked slowly, not taking my eyes off his heavenly-cold face.So far, I have always insisted on keeping my position as his ONLY wife and Queen. But now I realize that my stubbornness will only lead me to my and my unborn baby’s death in a cruel way
After all, in this life, Jermaine clung to me to stay by his side as his queen. He… needed me.“Tell me.”I gulped down, then opened my mouth. “No matter what people say about me, you must protect the child in my womb until he is born.”Yeah, I just need that.If indeed life this time will offer a difference, I must use this opportunity to meet my baby. That way, I will prove to people that the child born from my womb is flesh and blood of Jermaine, the successor of Alpha of Jocheved IX.I will silence the mouths of those who always accuse my child of being illegitimate.Perhaps at this moment, Jermaine was swayed by Luelle. But when my son is born, he won’t be able to ignore their resemblance as a father and son pair. He cannot turn away from his flesh and blood.Likewise, with those annoying officials who were obsessed with the pure wolf bloodline of the Royal Family.“What are you talking about? Of course, Sha. I will definitely do it for you. I will protect him, and only you can b
The day Sashal returned to the palace, Jermaine’s thought was in a jumble. There were so many things going on that required his attention that he failed to show the expression he should show when his wife, who had been missing for four months, made it back safely. There has been much talk of his demeanor that day. He tried to ignore the talk, but it sank into his conscience. After all, Sashal is his wife, the official consort of the Alpha King. He should have shown happiness when his wife returned. That’s how it should have been, but a mixed emotion overtook him at that moment. His main concern is Luelle, a sweet, fragile woman who is now pregnant with his child. With Sashal’s great pride, there was no way she wouldn’t hurt Luelle and the child in her womb. Even so, before things got even more out of control, he had to relay the news regarding Luelle to Sashal with his own mouth. It was the least he could do for his recently returned wife. After boiling over reasons that Sashal
Frau flinched for a second, then returned to his poker face.“Whoa, is that true?”“That must be true. His Majesty himself confirmed it.” The reaction of officials was bigger than expected.“I see. It seems like I have misjudged Lady Lenbergh.”“I already guessed it. A while ago I heard Lady Luelle suggest to just make peace with Northern. At that time, her proposal sounded ridiculous so I ignored it. But now I know what’s better. I will apologize to Lady Lenbergh for doubting her insight.” Gamma Marquise Blaine added.Frau glanced at Jermaine. His gaze contained a myriad of questions. ‘Is this alright, Your Majesty? If Queen Sashal finds out about this, won’t she be angry that you give her credit to Lady Lenbergh?’As if catching Frau’s telepathic question, Jermaine gave a wide smile and announced.“There is one more important announcement I want to share with you.”Everyone’s attention returned to Jermaine in unison.He presented a delightful face and spoke. “Queen Sashal will be ho