Fifty

Lilith’s POV

All night I tossed and turned unable sleep. I felt sick to my stomach with guilt at rejecting Mykel after we did the most normal thing a mated couple could do. I could feel his regret like a ton of bricks, but I didn’t have it in me to face him. He hadn’t done anything wrong, and I didn’t blame him one single bit. I blamed myself.

I was the moon goddess and still hadn’t found our missing mate or pups. I felt like an outright failure. How on earth was I supposed to go into the challenge like this?

As I laid there listening to the slow steady beat of Mykel’s heart it became clear what I needed to do. In order to do what needed to be done I would have to detach myself completely. It was the only way.

As the sunlight flittered in through the gaps of the blind, I swung my legs out of the bed. Climbing out and changing into my sports bras and leggings before grabbing the notebook and pen I took another look at my mate and smiled. As I sneaked into the bathroom, I quietly closed