Hanna" After Regie and I eat, we both walk to the front door and Vincent is waiting outside with the guard. I ignore him and I follow Regie and I hold his wrist.  "do you want me to take you home?" Regie asks. "who else would take me home?" "your guard, who else?" I show him my puppy eyes… "please" I said because I don't want to be with Vincent in the small space of the car. I can still do that, I don't have the energy for now…  "Are you sure that you don't want to be with your bodyguard?" I nod and smile again when he says "ok" I sigh in relief. And when I slipped inside Reggie's car I suddenly wanted to puke w

Hanna" I feel so dizzy but I try to stand up when I realize something, "what if I get pregnant? then I remember I still haven't had my monthly period.  I walk to the bathroom because some of the hotels have a pregnancy test kit. And when I looked in the cabinet I immediately read how to use it. Then I use it to myself, I covered my mouth in surprise when I saw the top line. "I'm pregnant with a Vincent child…"   No! this can't be happening… I touch my tummy. He couldn't know about this, what would I do? I throw the kit into the trash and go back from the bed. I close my eyes and try to sleep but I can't.

Hanna" Regie walks with me until I reach my classroom. After that he said goodbye.  I sigh… after he left our classmate was teasing me but I almost regret my decision. When I got inside I saw Vincent had a girl in his lap flirting with him and based on his smile, he liked what the girl was doing. I am still hurting inside in his simple thing like this, if there are no people around, maybe I cry again. But of course, I won't do that, not here, not in front of them, not in front of him. I will die first before he would know what I truly feel. But on the other hand, I realize maybe I'm right, for what decision I made. I and my baby would be doomed. If I allow him to get inside of my life again. Because I know he would hurt me again and again.       

Hanna" "shit, why does he following me?" I want to eat. I'm not hungry but I realize that it's not only me who owns my body now because there was a baby inside of my tummy that has got to be fed. What if Vincent would notice that something is going on with me. But when he said that maybe that our coworker would treat me like the first time I think very carefully. It's not safe for me and the baby if someone would do something terrible to me like what the two girls did to me. I sigh even if I know that it would be hard for me to be near him.  We eat and I make sure that all I order is safe and nothing in there that would make me puke again. 

Hanna"  I walk faster after I eat because I think any minute I could do something that would lead to Vincent would know about my secret.  I sigh in relief when I see that the manager talks to him and he stops following me.  That's a relief...  I go back to doing my task.  I cut the meat and this time of course  I was more careful. But I heard that someone was talking at the back of the cutting meat section. "What do you do Lilith, I would seduce the son of the owner. Because looking to be his girlfriend was a lot of privilege, she can rest if she wants to, she can eat whatever time she wants and she can come back whatever time she likes. "