I took a deep exhale out, releasing all the pent up emotions that I seemed to be harboring nad storing deep within me. I had to tell him, I knew that. And I was going to, I was going to tell him. I gave him a small smile. "Isaiah, you know how much I love you, right? And you know how much I care about you, and I want you always, right by my side without fail-"Abruptly, he stopped my ranting, giving me a small brief smile. "I know." He grabbed my hand, and squeezed it tighter. "I know, Alexis. Please let me in, tell me everything. I want you to open up."I nodded, gifting him another small smile. "It is not very different to things encompassing and surrounding that, you know. I wanted you more than I wanted anyone else, there was never a situation or issue that I have ever had, that you were not there, guiding me through, helping me and being there for me. And without that, without you, and without your support it was hard to even function. I could not separate my feel

"Come here, Alexis." He held out an out stretched arm for me, and instantly without of moment's hesitation, I found myself learning closer in to it. Until I was nuzzled right up in him, until I was concoted in his embrace. He placed a light kiss at the top of my head. "I want you to know that you do not have to feel rushed that is the last thing that I want you to feel, it is not a competition, neither is it something that you can jump and dive to deep in to. You could change you mind, and then realize that you wanted to give it to someone else. Someone else that was not me-""No, that could never happen. It will always be you.""I know that Alexis, I do. But it does not change the fact that something could happen that could change the way you think, and it could alter who you would want to give it up to, but in all respect that it all okay as well. There is nothing that you need to worry about, neither is there anything that you need to know apart form be

So it has been a couple of days passed my chat with Anna. And it was clear that I still had to do everything that I was required to do. And that meant the talk, the speech in front of everyone that I was dreading more than anything. It was time, to do this speech, the speech that I was dreading, the speech that I knew that if I messed up then it would leave a lot of thoughts about me. Which would centralize around if I was fit, or worthy to hold up this, if I was the right pick for this. I would have said no, but then again. It was not as if I had a choice in the matter. Although, it made me wonder about a lot of things, it made me wonder about the lives that we all could have lived if someone else took my place. I mean, I know it was rare and that resources and finances and time was scarce, but would it not be worth it in the end? Would it not be worth it, if someone a lot more competent than me would take this upon themselves, I mean I knew what Anna was saying. I mean, I understo

"Congrats, Alexis." I am so proud of you, Zee quickly engulfed me in a tight and quick hug, I almost felt as though I was suffocating, but if that was not enough to tell me how proud of me that she was, I really did not know what would. Right now, they decided conveniently, to hold an after party, as a sort of celebration for me, and the apparent hope that they now had, not as though I could be able to do everything by myself. It was not just solely and wholly me. It was not, and I do not think that it will ever be that. I had the help of Miss Smith, and everything surrounding that, without her, I do not think that I would have been able to reach this stage as I have done now. So, I have to give all my thanks and appreciation to her, and only her in my honest opinion. But they all insisted, and I would feel as though I was being ungrateful if I did not accept it. There was no teachers present, there was only agents, and soldiers, and Evan. Zee did the courtesy of collecting him from

"You can never keep your hands off what is someone else." I do not think there has ever been a time, and I mean there has never been a time, ever in my life that I have ever seen Isaiah look this angry, and he has had his fair bout of outbursts in his lifetime, it was almost painful to see him like, all because of me. I did not know what to do, even placing my hands on his chest to calm him down, was beginning to scare the living hell out of me, I did not know what to do. So, I did nothing, and just stood there. But, I still was acting as a barrier between Isaiah and Elijah. I turned over to Elijah, who did not look the slightest bit upset with me, he just gave me a small smile, when I mouth a quick sorry and in return, he gave me another small nod. He was not angry, but I knew that he should have been. I mean, I would, because yes, I said it so I could clear my conscience, but it did not mean that I did not just fracture and damage the relationship that they shared as