It’s still early, just 10:30 pm. I don’t feel like going to bed, so I take a walk. There is this beautiful clearing close to the packhouse. The moonlight is perfect there. It’s my favorite place to go and think. Maybe Convel and the guys are right about me deciding out of hurt pride. I just want to do the right thing for my pack. As an alpha, I have to consider the needs of my pack. I just don’t believe that a Luna that puts herself at risk during a battle is right for the pack. I have a lot to think about, so I walk and think. When I make it close to my spot, I smell the most amazing smell. It smells like strawberries and rainbows. I know rainbows don’t have a smell, but if they did, they would smell like this. Convel sits up and starts wagging his tail. He starts yelling “Mate, Mate, Mate! Hurry up and get to mate.” I start running. I’m excited to finally meet the one the moon goddess has made just for me. As I make it to my favorite spot, I see the last person I wanted to see. The

I decided not to go to the fireworks tonight. It’s Trevor’s birthday, so I’ll let him enjoy the fireworks and the company of our friends. Sort of like a silent birthday present. Once I explained my reasons to our friends, they understood and stopped trying to get me to come. My parents also understand why I chose to sit this one out. I know Trevor will never appreciate how I think of him and try to keep the conflict down. For some reason, he always misinterprets my motives and finds fault in everything I do. I wish things were different between us. I miss being friends. Maybe in time, we can rebuild our friendship, but for today, I’ll watch the fireworks from my balcony. Our home is centrally located in the pack. I’ll be able to see the entire display from here. The firework display was jaw-droppingly awesome. The colors were bright, like a rainbow exploding in the sky. The entire sky was filled with lights, spirals of color, and starbursts of greens, reds, orange, purple, and yellows

When I got to school, I wished I had stayed home. Trevor announced to the school and pack that Shana was his mate. The school is buzzing with excitement about the future alpha finding his mate in a “regular” she-wolf. They’re saying it’s like a Cinderella story for wolves. If this didn’t hurt so badly, it would be funny. I wonder how Shana lives with the fact that she is with someone else’s mate. I mean, she has to know that he is not her mate. She is about a couple of months older than us, so she knows. I wonder if he told her who his mate was. They have been walking around like a loving couple all morning. They are both frauds. I can tell that the boys are not buying it. They are glaring at Trevor every time they see him. At lunch, our circle sat with me instead of dividing the group between me and Trevor. No one wanted to be around him and Shana. Ben is not happy with Trevor parading Shana around. I believe he knows Shana is not Trevor’s fated mate, but I know he won’t say anything.

I made it through the day without breaking down or letting Tamaska do what she really wanted to do to Trevor and Shana. I probably shouldn’t be mad at Shana; she may not even know that I am Trevor’s mate. I have noticed her looking at me throughout the day as I glared at the two of them, but then again, all nine of us have been glaring at them, so it may not be easy for her to guess who his true mate is. I choose not to worry about that now. I’m just counting down the hours before we get to hang out, drink a little, and enjoy a night of poetry and jazz. I meet up with the girls before we all go to our individual homes. The anticipation of getting out and away from the craziness has made my day go by faster and easier.“Hey guys, are we still on for Jazzy’s tonight?” I ask. Yes, I need to wind down. It’s been a while since we have been there. I wonder who will share their vibes tonight.” Rose says. &ld

“So, mate, what do you want to do tonight? I thought we can go somewhere fun together.” Convel rolled his eyes when I called her mate. I know he does not accept her as his mate, but he has no choice. I have made my decision.‘Hump, we will see how that works out for you.”I don’t even know how he got through the block that I put up for him, but I pushed him further back in my mind. If he does not want to go along with me, he can stay in a small corner of my mind and leave me alone.“Gladly,” He says. “You may as well get used to me not being there. You made sure that soon I won’t be there, anyway.“Well, Trevor, I heard the girls in your group talking about going to this jazz club. It is in neutral territory. It sounds like fun and I would really like to go. I think the girls were planning to go, at least that’s what they were saying. It may be good for them to see us togeth