That night I had trouble sleeping. I tossed and turned many times. When I came back from Kira’s house, I had asked Red to look for her somehow. I wondered if it would be possible for him to find her the way he always finds me. He, of course, refused that and told me that it was different for us. Because of the contract. I knew that to some extent but wouldn’t there be a way? Like her scent? After that he had complained that he was a demon and not a werewolf. If he was a werewolf, he might have been able to find her using her scent alone. I had a hard time even imagining werewolves being real.In the end, he promised to send a few of his subordinates in search for her, assuring me that she was probably out getting some air and would be back at her house. I tried to believe him but he didn’t see her the way I did. I know her and for her to act hostile would mean that she is genuinely very troubled.I sigh as I fiddle with my sheets. Come on. Fall asleep.I close my eyes. I wonder if I s

"Why me?"He licked his lips. "Since you're asking so desperately, it's you because you were the only one I could detect. It's been 80 years since the last one."80 years? Since he found someone like me? An angel? "I must have done something wrong to deserve this" I muttered under my breath sarcastically. "Probably. You used your powers. There you go baby, you have a major hint." He backed away from me slightly and crossed his arms. "It doesn't matter anymore. Once your powers have been unlocked, you can't supress them completely by yourself" He grinned. "So if you were thinking that all you have to do is not use your powers in order for me not to find you. You are wrong" What is he blabbing on about... I have never used my powers even once. I try to rack my brain and tried to remember a time where I used them. Come on. Try and remember something weird and unexplainable. My eyes widened immediately as a memory surfaced. That time! Lily's wounds. They had suddenly disappeared.

I feel an unusual heaviness over me, especially across my torso. I yawn with grogginess as I force my eyes open. There were already a few rays of light hitting my face from the space between the 2 curtains.“What is th-” I mumble as I look at the heavy dead weight arm on my torso that was connected to a body. For a split second I wondered if this was a nightmare and the body next to me was one I had murdered, then slowly memories of last night began to flow into me in the form of snippets here and there. I willingly came here into his bed and snuggled against him.I mentally face palm myself while I try to struggle against his weight so I can go to my own room.“So annoying.” I mutter as I raise his heavy arm and put it on his side. As soon as I did so, it started creeping it’s way across my waist again and held me captive.“Are you awake?” I call out. There’s no way he is doing this in his sleep. He must be awake. Right? I bite my lip and push away his arm once again when I did not r

“I understand that you’re hurt.” Is all I say but how could I tell him that I was feeling hurt too? It was none of my business anyway. It was just plain simple and rotten jealousy. The way he got angry over him doubting her character, so much that he ended up almost beating Agares to death. He really loved her didn’t he? If she was still alive, whatever Shedim and I have, we would not have it. Not even close. He loves her still, I can tell.Nobody forgets the first love of their life. I internally scoff. What about me? Did I ever have a first love or were they just simple crushes and infatuations? I don’t think I have ever been in love before.I can’t get it out of my head. The way he got angry for her and she is not even alive. I get that this makes me a bad person but let’s be honest, at this point, I am a murderer, my character really is not in question anymore. It’s not a debate, I might not be bad but I am not a good person either and I have accepted it now for the betterment of

“As for your question-” He trails off and I immediately put my finger against his bloodied lips.“No! Don’t answer.” I could just die in embarrassment right now. Why don’t I just crawl a deep hole and fall in it. I won’t even mind if I land all the way in hell after falling. If he suspected that Shedim was listening to our conversations then he should have at least warned me! In the beginning, I surely saw him look around in suspicion, making sure we weren’t being heard but then he went along so I thought we were safe!He laughed.“Shut up.” I mutter under my breath. “You were talking about all those things in details precisely because you know he could hear us. Didn’t you? Greedy.”He glances sideways sheepishly. “Do you think he would ever listen to me if he was standing in front of me? Look what happened.” He pointed at his face.“You let it happen too. It’s not like you’re powerless. Or are you a weak demon?” I tease as I get up from the couch. I was still feeling slightly feveris