It felt good to be back in my traditional clothes, it's like realizing you're thirsty just by drinking water.However, I felt anxiety tightening my heart because I had the impression that it was my future that was at stake.I no longer wanted to live in the modern world...I want to find my meadows...my fields...simplicity...but I also did this for something else.For an even greater cause.It doesn't matter if I feel caught between two fires, As he said, I must know how to stay strong and adapt if I want to live up to my promise.And I will be.Strong.I do not have a choice.I now have to lie, pretend, play with people even if I don't want these sins.I will do it.He said it's the only way.The only path to success and truth.And now that path goes through this Amish community in Ohio.1 month since I sent an integration request letter and I ended up thinking that they wouldn't give me a chance....because in my letter I didn't specify my last name.. .nor which community I am a membe