[Slate]Where am I?I’ve lost track of time. I am not sure when I shifted, but something happened to force me into this form. Sage isn’t speaking, even though he is in control. The last thing I remember is being in the elevator with Ashlynd, but everything goes blank. I hope I didn’t do anything to her. I’d never forgive myself if I hurt her or anyone else due to lack of control.My paws ache like I’ve been walking around for hours. The sun is starting to set and the chill from the water is making me shiver through my fur. I don’t feel right. I want to shift back, but I don’t seem to be able to do so. Sage is in control, even if he isn’t talking to me. I don’t feel right. Not just the lack of control, but also sick. My body is hot and cold, moving from anger to lust to fear. What is that smell? I know that smell. It smells like home. Vanilla, Anise, and Apple Blossoms with a touch of something stronger. Something irresistible. I could live in that scent, drown in it, roll around in

[Slate]She is quivering beneath my fingertips and I want nothing more than to follow her request, to make love to her all night if she wanted.But this is her first time. Her first time should be special. Not like this. “Hyacinth,” I run a hand down the side of her body, petting her like I would to calm a stressed wolf. She responds to my touch as only a mate might, arching her back as the tingles running through her body brings her joy. She is so lovely. Goddess, she is so beautiful. I want her so badly that my soul aches with the need to touch her, to join with her completely. “Are you sure you want this?” I check again. I don't want to take something she is not ready to give. “Yes,” she repeats, her face twisted in confusion. “Why do you keep asking? Don’t you want to? I mean…”“You dolt!” Sage is screaming at me inside my head. “Kiss her!”“She’s terrified,” I explain to my impatient wolf. “I want her to be comfortable and this…this doesn’t feel right.”‘Maybe she’s so uncom

[Hyacinth] Slate blinks. “What do you mean?” he looks genuinely looks baffled. It is obvious that the thought of what we should do next never really crossed his mind with any type of depth. Maybe it’s because he is Alpha, and he is just used to people doing what he wants them to do. “We tell them the truth, of course,” he kisses my fingertips..” You and I are mates. We found each other. We want to be together. Everyone will be happy for us. I don’t see the problem.” “But what about my sister?” I ask him directly. “You haven’t broken things off with her yet. Do you think it is fair to her to show me around as your mate without letting her know first? What will you do if either Drew or Blake or even worse, Bash, tells her by accident?” “I think Drew and Blake could handle the truth,” he grins. "It's not like they don't understand what it is like to find your mate and keep it to yourself." “Maybe they can,” I admit. “But do you want to risk it? It’s bad enough that we are going to b

[Hyacinth]“What do you mean, something bigger?” I turn from watching Ash stumble down the street back towards the hospital to looking at my mate’s scruff, unshaven face. He is so handsome, even when he’s not quite clean or ready for his day. In many ways, he is even more attractive because he is so relaxed and at peace even after Ash’s terrible display. Slate turns to me as well, his blue eyes intense, as if battling his own thoughts. "I don't know," Slate answers, shaking his head sadly. I can see that he is worried and sad about Ash. They were together for six years. I'd worry more if he were not concerned about her. "But whatever it is that I cannot remember about yesterday, either Sage doesn't remember either or he is hiding it for some reason. She was the last person I remember seeing and then you were the next person once I was in control again. It just feels like too much to be a coincidence."I find myself unable to argue with his logic. There has been something very off ab

[Slate] Hyacinth's eyes are quietly watching us both. She looks frightened but what is she afraid of? What does she think is going to happen next? I can tell she has so much more to say but instead of speaking, she is waiting. "More than anything," and I mean every word that I saw as I look into his eyes, "I wish I could be your father more than anything else right now." A tear rolls down his mother's cheek as she watches this interaction. I hope she can hear how sincere I am and the depth of how much I care. "And even though that isn't possible, I hope we can still," I pause, trying to choose my words wisely. "I'm hoping to marry your mom someday, and I hope we can all be a family, that is, if you are okay with me joining you." Hyacinth gasps. I guess I just proposed to her through her son. I'll have to do better next time, although I know that even if I had proposed to her in private, he would need to approve it as well. Bash stares at me for a few minutes before his little hea